Prefacing: on December 30th, 2023, I was asleep and didn’t hear a call from my father at 6am. At 8am my eldest cousin calls. I received the news that my 65 yo father had passed away suddenly from a massive heart attack. His mom found him dead outside the bathroom. He had been dealing with a blood pressure issue for several years but under no circumstance was I thinking he’d die so suddenly and so quickly. We had spoken the day before (he had had a first attack at a grocery store that afternoon and he said nothing- he refused first responders assistance). As far as I was concerned, he was handling his condition with medical help. Yet he died.
I had to fly down to his home on the 31st and meet the new year, 2024, at a funeral home preparing his cremation and memorial, choosing an urn, setting dates for interment at his family mausoleum, all that interesting stuff. Not to mention encountering his family, who was hostile at such a hard time. Let’s just say it was a clusterfuck and I hated every minute of it.
Nana lost her dad. The hard part is not the funeral, or even hearing the news of his passing through a phone line. No. The hard part came immediately after, with a huge hole in my chest, and thousands of questions. It was realizing that he was gone. That I will never hear his voice again. That there won’t be anymore Father’s Day call. Or for his birthday. Or mine. That I could’ve done more. That I was to blame. That I wasn’t to blame. That I’m now an orphan. A lot of mental garbage. Hard, unexpected, raw, angry, and incredibly painful.
What was I feeling? I was feeling everything and nothing at once. I was experiencing the tornado that is grief. And what is grief? Grief, according to the American Psychological Association is:
…the anguish experienced after significant loss, usually the death of a beloved person.
Grief often includes physiological distress, separation anxiety, confusion, yearning, obsessive dwelling on the past, and apprehension about the future. Intense grief can become life-threatening through disruption of the immune system, self-neglect, and suicidal thoughts.
Grief may also take the form of regret for something lost, remorse for something done, or sorrow for a mishap to oneself.
How is grief treated: with counseling-
What Is Grief Counseling?
Coming to terms with feelings of loss and making sense of it can be a painful process. Grief is a common emotional and sometimes physical response that you feel when you experience loss after a disaster or a traumatic event. Bereavement is a type of grief you experience when you lose a loved one.
Grief occurs across all ages, but adults, adolescents, and children may process it differently. Feelings can range from deep sadness to bursts of anger. Everyone grieves in their own way and time frame depending on the personal attachment to what was lost.
If the loss is too overwhelming to perform your day-to-day tasks, it can take a significant toll on your mental health. You may need to reach out to a professional therapist, psychologist, or a counselor to help you work through the grief.
Understanding Grief Counseling
Grief counseling is a type of professional therapy designed to help you work through the various stages and range of emotions you may feel after a loss.
How you experience grief can vary from person to person. People commonly refer to the five familiar stages of grief, initially coined in 1969 by psychiatrist Elisabeth Kubler-Ross. They are:
Denial
Anger
Bargaining
Depression
Acceptance
When you’re grieving, you may go through at least two of the five stages. But it is important to note that there is no common pathway for grief. Everyone experiences it differently. Your grief reactions and signs may include:
Shock
Disbelief and denial
Anxiety
Distress
Anger
Periods of sadness
Loss of sleep
Loss of appetite
Counseling will help you address some of the reactions as you process your new reality. Some people recover from grief usually within 6 months, but for some others, it may take up to a year or longer.
This thread is about exchanging thoughts on your own experiences with grief. What role has it played in your life? How deeply was it felt? Did you go through it availing yourself of your will power? Or did you choose therapy? Was it ever chronic? What did grief taught you? Did you blame anyone, anything? Or did you accept it fully? All your thoughts are welcome.
Please please please, due to the nature of the subject and what it could evince, keep it civil, be compassionate. Thanks.
Note: will fix quotes and tags in a second. Must go to PC. Also, if the mod team must weigh in, I’ll be more than happy to edit the OP so we stay inline with site rules.