North Reinkalistan wrote:Valfor wrote:-snip-
I'm glad this turned up.
As I've outlined elsewhere, I recognise that what I did during this time was awful. Presently, I have nothing against the Land of Kings and Emperors. I did a stupid, awful thing, and I've tried to make amends with members of the LKE through apology where I can, such as J.S Talleyrand and Onderkelkia. I find that supporting life-time banishment for such actions, however justified it may seem, is a stretch. The very notion that people cannot change and should be eternally excluded from a community for such mistakes, though, does not perpetuate a good reflection of this community.
I was an idiot. I did stupid things. I wasn't a very nice person. Again, and again, and again, have I apologised as such to the communities I have wronged. And I'll continue to apologise again, and again, and again. It may seem like I'm saying such out of frustration, but such could not be further from the truth. I apologise knowing that this is me trying to better myself through acknowledging my past wrongs and using it to make sure I don't needlessly add toxicity to another community.
I cannot offer anything to the LKE but words, where I've taken much from the LKE I cannot give back. This is an injustice that it is within nobody's power to fix, and I'll bear it with me for as long as I play this game. Of that, I have no doubt. Yet I would like to make it clear that those actions do not in their entirety reflect my opinions and who I am now. It is well within the LKE's right to oppose this resolution based off of the past, but I would definitely make the assertion that I've changed at least in part.
I don't want my past to drag other people down. I just want to play the game. I recognise that this cannot be achieved without me making up for what I've done, which is why I've done my best to help contribute to communities where I can, and (hopefully) positively contribute towards the game's atmosphere on the whole.
Given you're still saying things like this after you've since sworn you're done with the CCD, I find it very hard to believe you have any regret over what you did to LKE.