Christmahanikwanzikah wrote:New England and The Maritimes wrote:Seems like a similar problem to mine, but I develop false feelings because I'm desperate for some kind of contact and then go crazy over it. Doesn't work out well.
We talk regularly now. I didn't even think this would happen... she moved way away, and I figured, "Welp, we're probably going to be drifting apart." Nope. I didn't figure not talking to her after a week or two would make me miss her, but here we are. And it seems (from the face value of what she says) she misses me too.
But I've already gotten the "like a brother" thing. That's been there for a while now. There were even times where I didn't even want to be around her at all, that's how things got between us on my end.
And yet, here we go again.
tl;dr Derp.
It's hard to tell what I'm thinking. If I knew what caused it I'd stop it. I think I see someone who is female that pays attention to me with anything resembling regularity, and I want someone to be with, so I just start thinking "She's there, why isn't that meant to be?" and after it loops around at a billion miles an hour in my brain for a while I start believing it.