Swith Witherward wrote:
Ray sat for a few moments, doing exactly as Swith said. He thought of everything he'd done so far in his life, and everything he'd done in Bielefeld. He remembered everything he had at his disposal: thousands upon thousands of dollars, a fine business, a paramilitary government organization that he claimed membership, and several other things. But...he realized that he didn't really have a dream. It was once his dream to be a police officer, but he lost it long ago. Then it was his dream to find love, and he found it. And so, he realized that he'd been running without a dream: his goals had been achieved, and so he'd basically become stagnant and sat around.
But what was he to do, now that he needed a dream? He had everything he needed at his disposal. What would he do? What goal could he possibly take? From the sounds of it, he was very obviously going back to life soon. Or at least, in the foreseeable future. He needed to do something once he got back. Perhaps he could try and....Oh hell, he didn't even know where to go. All he knew was that this woman was right, and that he needed to find a goal.
"...You're right, ma'am. But my problem is that I don't know where to start once I go back," Ray sighed. "I have everything I need at my disposal once I go back: I'm rich, I'm connected, and I'm armed. But I have no goal! My dreams were reached when I was younger, and I realize now that I've been living without a set goal. Simply, as you've said, squandering my life away. Simply staying cooped away with Albert for all of my time.
"Perhaps....Perhaps I need to look back to my past for inspiration? Maybe I'll try and do something with my money. Something that I'll be proud of. Something like...perhaps a policing organization! Or a fund for such organizations," he began to scratch at his head trying to sprout off ideas. Soon, it was followed by stereotypical concepts of charity and help, and then a sigh.
"...I...I d-don't know. But perhaps this place...Whether it be Heaven or Hell, it can help me. Maybe I can use whatever powers I have here to determine what I want to do with my life, once I get it back. You're right: I can't squander my second chance at life, and I can't just sit around watching it all go by. And perhaps my first move will be to see what the house in front of me has to offer. Something to drink, and then: bam! My entire imagination, working to discover what I want to do."