Nationstates' Mental illness thread.

[Prussia-Steinbach]

ADHD, agoraphobia with panic disorder, PTSD from living on the streets, various and sundry social anxieties.

I'm a mess.

Anxiety fucking sucks man. Can really fuck with your life.

I have a lot of issues with asking for things. It's taken me months to build up the courage to walk into a restaurant and get an application for a job. No apparent reason. Just random things my brain starts seriously panicking about - I know there's no reason to freak, I just... really, really, really don't want to do it.

[Tolmakia]

I think I'm socially anxious, but I refuse to believe I have this. My family doesn't believe it either. Yet I always feel uncomfortable around people (especially in crowds, I feel disoriented and dizzy), sweat around them or don't feel like moving at all. Just speaking to a stranger IRL or even to my relatives makes me feel like I want to collapse, and I can't look them in the eye without panicking. I also tend to avoid people without being too rude, and of course this doesn't always succeed.

I hope it's just temporary, but it has affected my life to a great extent.

[Galloism]

ADHD, agoraphobia with panic disorder, PTSD from living on the streets, various and sundry social anxieties.

I'm a mess.

I'm with you on the PTSD, for sure. Nights like this are tough - cool, dark, quiet. With your thoughts.

[Soldati Senza Confini]

This is an excellent thread. I hope it doesn't devolve into madness.

That being said, I don't know. I feel I display the symptoms of Borderline Personality Disorder, but, I haven't gone to a shrink to confirm that. And even if I did, I would end up being lodged into psychotherapy (talking with a psychologist, most likely) so most of the work is on my own. Although, I have to admit, it might be a good idea to go and get checked in with a psychologist, probably.

[Washington Resistance Army]

Depression, PTSD, I can get pretty bad anxiety at times, I probably have a plethora of other issues but I stopped going to a shrink a long time ago.

[Nazi Flower Power]

ADHD, agoraphobia with panic disorder, PTSD from living on the streets, various and sundry social anxieties.

I'm a mess.

Anxiety fucking sucks man. Can really fuck with your life.

I have a lot of issues with asking for things. It's taken me months to build up the courage to walk into a restaurant and get an application for a job. No apparent reason. Just random things my brain starts seriously panicking about - I know there's no reason to freak, I just... really, really, really don't want to do it.

Applying for jobs is stressful even if you don't have a full-blown anxiety disorder. I am kind of shy IRL, and applying for jobs is one of the things where I have the most trouble getting past my shyness.

[Soldati Senza Confini]

Anxiety fucking sucks man. Can really fuck with your life.

I have a lot of issues with asking for things. It's taken me months to build up the courage to walk into a restaurant and get an application for a job. No apparent reason. Just random things my brain starts seriously panicking about - I know there's no reason to freak, I just... really, really, really don't want to do it.

Applying for jobs is stressful even if you don't have a full-blown anxiety disorder. I am kind of shy IRL, and applying for jobs is one of the things where I have the most trouble getting past my shyness.

This is quite true.

I am not shy, but I am rather reserved and, although I can make a good impression, I get as anxious as when I make a public speech or playing a role. I feel I am being analyzed and graded upon my performance, not being in a casual interview.

[Nazi Flower Power]

Applying for jobs is stressful even if you don't have a full-blown anxiety disorder. I am kind of shy IRL, and applying for jobs is one of the things where I have the most trouble getting past my shyness.

This is quite true.

I am not shy, but I am rather reserved and, although I can make a good impression, I get as anxious as when I make a public speech or playing a role. I feel I am being analyzed and graded upon my performance, not being in a casual interview.

I'd probably have done a lot more career-wise if applying for jobs didn't stress me out so much and if I didn't always get nervous at interviews.

[Amuaplye]

I used to have insomnia and depression but with the help of friends (and other things) I got better, if everyone just reached out to a random person on the street that seemed like they were having trouble it would be a much better world.

My depression doesn't get better, as I try to die everyday, I try to get help but it never works for me. I'll always have a fake smile, then cry every time I'm alone. Basically all my disorders rule my life, they've broken me.

But don't. Sucide does nothing. It doesn't end the pain, it gives to someone else.

[Prussia-Steinbach]

Applying for jobs is stressful even if you don't have a full-blown anxiety disorder. I am kind of shy IRL, and applying for jobs is one of the things where I have the most trouble getting past my shyness.

This is quite true.

I am not shy, but I am rather reserved and, although I can make a good impression, I get as anxious as when I make a public speech or playing a role. I feel I am being analyzed and graded upon my performance, not being in a casual interview.

Well once I just do it, everything's fine. If I feel comfortable in a situation, I'm pretty open. But a bunch of random, specific things, my brain won't let me do. And sometimes I let myself think about my life and future in general, and I go into a full-on panic attack.

Try not to do that.

[Herrebrugh]

When I was in the worst of it, I would get mad when people said "be optimistic" or "look on the bright side" or "be happy". Yeah, that was as meaningless as saying "synergize your paradigms".

Do you know how absolutely important it is to synergize the paradigms in a corporation. If you do not, my god, the world might explode or something.

In all seriousness, while I have never been diagnosed with clinical depression nor experienced it, I have noted that people being excessively "look on the bright side of life" and so on when I am most obviously not tends not to end well, and most often with me being far far more sad than before because where is this "bright side of life they speak of, eh?


EDIT: "Abstract Thinking" is a symptom for altimeters? That is new.

Do you have to be depressive to hate positivists?

I've had a... Less than great phase recently. And when someone than said to me that I should smile, I got mad and said "I'll decide for myself whether I smile or not."

But honestly, positive people get on my nerve. Some even spread their shit about setting your mind to things, with the implicit suggestion that you fail because you're not a ray of fucking sunshine 100% of the time.

[Troll Instructor]

Only one of my personalities has been diagnosed with multiple personality disorder.

[Soldati Senza Confini]

This is quite true.

I am not shy, but I am rather reserved and, although I can make a good impression, I get as anxious as when I make a public speech or playing a role. I feel I am being analyzed and graded upon my performance, not being in a casual interview.

I'd probably have done a lot more career-wise if applying for jobs didn't stress me out so much and if I didn't always get nervous at interviews.

I think you've done quite a lot for yourself career-wise, from what I know.

[Washington Resistance Army]

This is quite true.

I am not shy, but I am rather reserved and, although I can make a good impression, I get as anxious as when I make a public speech or playing a role. I feel I am being analyzed and graded upon my performance, not being in a casual interview.

I'd probably have done a lot more career-wise if applying for jobs didn't stress me out so much and if I didn't always get nervous at interviews.

I'd kill to have a job in general

[Sebtopiaris]

Ahem...I have 4 mental illnesses, they're not awful and you can't really pretend to have a mental illness.

They're not awful?
What are these four you have, good sir?

[Divergia]

I have Attention Deficit Disorder.

[Nazi Flower Power]

Do you know how absolutely important it is to synergize the paradigms in a corporation. If you do not, my god, the world might explode or something.

In all seriousness, while I have never been diagnosed with clinical depression nor experienced it, I have noted that people being excessively "look on the bright side of life" and so on when I am most obviously not tends not to end well, and most often with me being far far more sad than before because where is this "bright side of life they speak of, eh?


EDIT: "Abstract Thinking" is a symptom for altimeters? That is new.

Do you have to be depressive to hate positivists?

I've had a... Less than great phase recently. And when someone than said to me that I should smile, I got mad and said "I'll decide for myself whether I smile or not."

But honestly, positive people get on my nerve. Some even spread their shit about setting your mind to things, with the implicit suggestion that you fail because you're not a ray of fucking sunshine 100% of the time.

I'm generally OK with my life, but people like that get on my nerves too. I don't think it's a sign of depression to get annoyed when someone tells you to smile. It's kind of bossy telling someone how to feel or how to express it.

[Divergia]

Do you have to be depressive to hate positivists?

I've had a... Less than great phase recently. And when someone than said to me that I should smile, I got mad and said "I'll decide for myself whether I smile or not."

But honestly, positive people get on my nerve. Some even spread their shit about setting your mind to things, with the implicit suggestion that you fail because you're not a ray of fucking sunshine 100% of the time.

I'm generally OK with my life, but people like that get on my nerves too. I don't think it's a sign of depression to get annoyed when someone tells you to smile. It's kind of bossy telling someone how to feel or how to express it.

They're basically saying you should act happy so that for them the problem is resolved. They don't like you being unhappy, they don't understand why, they think that they're suppose to make you happy. You tell them you can't be made happy. So they want you to act happy for them.

[Nazi Flower Power]

I'd probably have done a lot more career-wise if applying for jobs didn't stress me out so much and if I didn't always get nervous at interviews.

I think you've done quite a lot for yourself career-wise, from what I know.

The art thing has kind of died, so these days I am just working my day job at UPS. There is a restaurant trying to take over the space where I used to sell my art. They're having issues with the permits, so the space was vacant last time I was in Boston, but I was displaced from my spot for a while, and even when I can use the space, the mood on the street just isn't what it used to be and sales have been shit. I've had enough trouble with it that it's basically not worth going anymore.

I'd probably have done a lot more career-wise if applying for jobs didn't stress me out so much and if I didn't always get nervous at interviews.

I'd kill to have a job in general

If you are really desperate for a job and you are in decent physical condition, apply to UPS or FedEx. If they don't call you back for an interview, but you still really want a job, be persistent about calling the HR office to ask about your application, or reapply if you have to. When they don't call you back for an interview, it doesn't mean you're not good enough, just that someone else got there first.

I've been told that this also works at supermarkets, but I don't know from personal experience.

[Herrebrugh]

I'm generally OK with my life, but people like that get on my nerves too. I don't think it's a sign of depression to get annoyed when someone tells you to smile. It's kind of bossy telling someone how to feel or how to express it.

They're basically saying you should act happy so that for them the problem is resolved. They don't like you being unhappy, they don't understand why, they think that they're suppose to make you happy. You tell them you can't be made happy. So they want you to act happy for them.

I agree with this a lot, actually (especially since they [several people] never bothered to ask me why I was behaving like I was). I also have the feeling other people do act happy; but when I'm sincerely feeling bad, I don't have the energy nor the will to do so.

[Xanama]

And I'm also afraid of plains, as a phobia, because of previous experiences and things that I've seen ex; a terrorist attack etc etc

[Bezkoshtovnya]

Well, hello depression. I really didn't miss you. Should have known that when I said earlier in this thread that I was doing fine that something would happen.

[Snowfall the Unicorn]

K, I'll ask again because the internet still won't give me a straight answer.

Is narcissism a real mental disorder?

And also I'm depressed, since I might as well participate in the thread

[Washington Resistance Army]

K, I'll ask again because the internet still won't give me a straight answer.

Is narcissism a real mental disorder?

And also I'm depressed, since I might as well participate in the thread

I wouldn't say it's a disorder, I've never heard of it being classed as such.

[Bezkoshtovnya]

K, I'll ask again because the internet still won't give me a straight answer.

Is narcissism a real mental disorder?

And also I'm depressed, since I might as well participate in the thread

I wouldn't say it's a disorder, I've never heard of it being classed as such.

I think it's classified as a personality disorder, which those in general are considered mental disorders.