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by **Risna** » Sat Apr 16, 2011 1:53 pm

I really do not care what the mods say or do. I know i will probably get banned and get in trouble for this but i need your help again. My life I just can't take it is just too unbearable. For a long time i have suffered with a low self esteem. I devalue myself I see myself as dirt, as scum as a parasite. I hardly consider myself worthy of life I am the lowest thing on earth. This has been on and off for a few years. I have a strong urge to hurt myself too punish myself for living, i should have not been born. I am just taking up space, air, food. I only thing i can give in return is worry, pain, and suffering to those i live. I have found value in life only through others not myself. I live for my friends my family. They would be too sad if I was gone that is the ONLY reason why i live today. That is the only reason why i am here I have no value of self. I talked to my psychologist and she did not help me. I thought of all the ways i could off myself right now. I could stab myself with my pocket knife, i could over dose on Tylenol, I could allow myself to get run over by a bus. I am just in so much suffering right now i want to end it. I know i would not be missed anyway what have i done to benefit the world? But on the other hand i dont want to end it? it would eliminate my suffering but how much it would cause? every person i know would be affected. My friends and family would be devastated probably. I dont know what to do please help me before i hurt myself help me... help me....

by **Kubra** » Sat Apr 16, 2011 1:54 pm

Help me everyone I am currently drowning

by **Kubra** » Sat Apr 16, 2011 1:55 pm

Also start reading Kierkegaard's "The Sickness Unto Death".
You will realize what is comical about your situation

by **The Murtunian Tribes** » Sat Apr 16, 2011 1:57 pm

Risna wrote:I really do not care what the mods say or do. I know i will probably get banned and get in trouble for this but i need your help again. My life I just can't take it is just too unbearable. For a long time i have suffered with a low self esteem. I devalue myself I see myself as dirt, as scum as a parasite. I hardly consider myself worthy of life I am the lowest thing on earth. This has been on and off for a few years. I have a strong urge to hurt myself too punish myself for living, i should have not been born. I am just taking up space, air, food. I only thing i can give in return is worry, pain, and suffering to those i live. I have found value in life only through others not myself. I live for my friends my family. They would be too sad if I was gone that is the ONLY reason why i live today. That is the only reason why i am here I have no value of self. I talked to my psychologist and she did not help me. I thought of all the ways i could off myself right now. I could stab myself with my pocket knife, i could over dose on Tylenol, I could allow myself to get run over by a bus. I am just in so much suffering right now i want to end it. I know i would not be missed anyway what have i done to benefit the world? But on the other hand i dont want to end it? it would eliminate my suffering but how much it would cause? every person i know would be affected. My friends and family would be devastated probably. I dont know what to do please help me before i hurt myself help me... help me....

1. How old are you?
2. See bold: What's so wrong with that? It's a perfectly good reason for life. As good as any other.
3. Why the twisted narcissism? You can't be that bad. Look at Charlie Sheen. (NOT A JOKE (well, kinda))

by **Conserative Morality** » Sat Apr 16, 2011 2:00 pm

You're posting this on NSG? Really? Talk to your friends and family, we're a bunch of random fucks on the internet. I'm sure your family and friends care about you and can help you through this, and I'm certain they care about your well-being a great deal.

by **Norstal** » Sat Apr 16, 2011 2:00 pm

Compare yourself to Darfur war orphans.

by **Eisen Reich** » Sat Apr 16, 2011 2:00 pm

if this is true then what you need to do is either join an organization like the peace corp or the army, where you are given a job and are neccarcary. help someone, due something to make a difference in the world. if you realy have no value in your life then you could become a vigilanty and kill as many corrupters of society as possible, for as long as possibe. if you get caught and sent to jail then at least you did some good first.
or just say fuck it, go on a vacation, blow your savings partying and have some fun with your life.
maybe go become a mountain man and live in the forest and mountains. get peace,quiet, get close to nature. find yourself. :hug:

by **Risna** » Sat Apr 16, 2011 2:02 pm

Conserative Morality wrote:You're posting this on NSG? Really? Talk to your friends and family, we're a bunch of random fucks on the internet. I'm sure your family and friends care about you and can help you through this, and I'm certain they care about your well-being a great deal.

i talked to my friends and they can not help. My family would not ever understand me situation they are all cowards. I did not come to NSG by choice but by necessity.

by **The Murtunian Tribes** » Sat Apr 16, 2011 2:02 pm

Conserative Morality wrote:You're posting this on NSG? Really? Talk to your friends and family, we're a bunch of random fucks on the internet. I'm sure your family and friends care about you and can help you through this, and I'm certain they care about your well-being a great deal.

Well, I don't know. We did help that one guy that one time, apparently. Maybe this could be a new side of NSG: the suicide hotline.

by **The Murtunian Tribes** » Sat Apr 16, 2011 2:03 pm

Risna wrote:
Conserative Morality wrote:You're posting this on NSG? Really? Talk to your friends and family, we're a bunch of random fucks on the internet. I'm sure your family and friends care about you and can help you through this, and I'm certain they care about your well-being a great deal.

i talked to my friends and they can not help. My family would not ever understand me situation they are all cowards. I did not come to NSG by choice but by necessity.

Again; HOW OLD ARE YOU???

by **Conserative Morality** » Sat Apr 16, 2011 2:03 pm

The Murtunian Tribes wrote:Well, I don't know. We did help that one guy that one time, apparently. Maybe this could be a new side of NSG: the suicide hotline.

Yeah but he was an old hand here. We could have probably written his biography for Hammurab. I think some of us even met him in RL.

by **Risna** » Sat Apr 16, 2011 2:04 pm

The Murtunian Tribes wrote:
Risna wrote:i talked to my friends and they can not help. My family would not ever understand me situation they are all cowards. I did not come to NSG by choice but by necessity.

Again; HOW OLD ARE YOU???

18 going on 19

by **The Murtunian Tribes** » Sat Apr 16, 2011 2:05 pm

Conserative Morality wrote:
The Murtunian Tribes wrote:Well, I don't know. We did help that one guy that one time, apparently. Maybe this could be a new side of NSG: the suicide hotline.

Yeah but he was an old hand here. We could have probably written his biography for Hammurab. I think some of us even met him in RL.

Oh...well fuck it. Risna's here now, for better or worse. Might as well try.

by **Nazi Flower Power** » Sat Apr 16, 2011 2:06 pm

Aww... Risna, NSG just wouldn't be the same without you and your bloggy threads. I would miss you.

Really, all joking aside, I actually do find your wonky posts kind of endearing, and would like you to stick around.

by **Norstal** » Sat Apr 16, 2011 2:06 pm

Risna wrote:
Conserative Morality wrote:You're posting this on NSG? Really? Talk to your friends and family, we're a bunch of random fucks on the internet. I'm sure your family and friends care about you and can help you through this, and I'm certain they care about your well-being a great deal.

i talked to my friends and they can not help. My family would not ever understand me situation they are all cowards. I did not come to NSG by choice but by necessity.

See, the problem is that you're just a teen. You're not even an adult. You haven't even stepped foot in a third world country full of vigilantes (Indonesia), like I did.

So, what do you have that makes you want to suicide? That you feel useless? I'll tell you the same advice I tell everyone else, that everyone has a price in the slave market. Everyone has an ability to do something.

Take up a vocational work. Go study math or science or some shit like that. You have the internet right in front of you.

Don't ever tell me your life sucks, especially when your house haven't been demolished by an angry extremist religious mob.

by **Ashmoria** » Sat Apr 16, 2011 2:06 pm

get out the phone book and look up the suicide crisis hotline.

they will talk to you as long as you need to talk and they will help set you up with some local councillor who can help you sort out your (extremely normal) feelings.

by **Kubra** » Sat Apr 16, 2011 2:07 pm

So you hate yourself because you view your self as something lower, something you cannot have pride in.
What is it you want to see in your view of "self"?

by **Tsa-la-gi Nation** » Sat Apr 16, 2011 2:07 pm

The Murtunian Tribes wrote:
Risna wrote:I really do not care what the mods say or do. I know i will probably get banned and get in trouble for this but i need your help again. My life I just can't take it is just too unbearable. For a long time i have suffered with a low self esteem. I devalue myself I see myself as dirt, as scum as a parasite. I hardly consider myself worthy of life I am the lowest thing on earth. This has been on and off for a few years. I have a strong urge to hurt myself too punish myself for living, i should have not been born. I am just taking up space, air, food. I only thing i can give in return is worry, pain, and suffering to those i live. I have found value in life only through others not myself. I live for my friends my family. They would be too sad if I was gone that is the ONLY reason why i live today. That is the only reason why i am here I have no value of self. I talked to my psychologist and she did not help me. I thought of all the ways i could off myself right now. I could stab myself with my pocket knife, i could over dose on Tylenol, I could allow myself to get run over by a bus. I am just in so much suffering right now i want to end it. I know i would not be missed anyway what have i done to benefit the world? But on the other hand i dont want to end it? it would eliminate my suffering but how much it would cause? every person i know would be affected. My friends and family would be devastated probably. I dont know what to do please help me before i hurt myself help me... help me....

1. How old are you?
2. See bold: What's so wrong with that? It's a perfectly good reason for life. As good as any other.
3. Why the twisted narcissism? You can't be that bad. Look at Charlie Sheen. (NOT A JOKE (well, kinda))

How old are you is a good question. I'm guessing you are a teenaged boy still living at home. This is often a very hard stage of life. Another good question is do you feel like you have the right to take your own life? Do you believe in a higher power & that it is possible that you may have a purpose on this earth?

by **The Murtunian Tribes** » Sat Apr 16, 2011 2:08 pm

Risna wrote:
The Murtunian Tribes wrote:
Again; HOW OLD ARE YOU???

18 going on 19

Ok. So you're young. Of course you haven't done anything to benefit the world. You got time. It's all any of us has.

by **Risna** » Sat Apr 16, 2011 2:08 pm

I feel my problems steam from a lack of self esteem. I know people often say to "distract yourself" but i have been distracting myself for years now. I had these problems for a long time for at least the last five years. Distraction is not the answer I dont want a band aid fix. Can someone please help with that?

by **The Archiepelago** » Sat Apr 16, 2011 2:09 pm

Conserative Morality wrote:You're posting this on NSG? Really? Talk to your friends and family, we're a bunch of random fucks on the internet. I'm sure your family and friends care about you and can help you through this, and I'm certain they care about your well-being a great deal.

I agree 100%. They can be more helpful than people who doesn't know this person.

by **ARMATECH CORPORATION** » Sat Apr 16, 2011 2:09 pm

Risna wrote:I really do not care what the mods say or do. I know i will probably get banned and get in trouble for this but i need your help again. My life I just can't take it is just too unbearable. For a long time i have suffered with a low self esteem. I devalue myself I see myself as dirt, as scum as a parasite. I hardly consider myself worthy of life I am the lowest thing on earth. This has been on and off for a few years. I have a strong urge to hurt myself too punish myself for living, i should have not been born. I am just taking up space, air, food. I only thing i can give in return is worry, pain, and suffering to those i live. I have found value in life only through others not myself. I live for my friends my family. They would be too sad if I was gone that is the ONLY reason why i live today. That is the only reason why i am here I have no value of self. I talked to my psychologist and she did not help me. I thought of all the ways i could off myself right now. I could stab myself with my pocket knife, i could over dose on Tylenol, I could allow myself to get run over by a bus. I am just in so much suffering right now i want to end it. I know i would not be missed anyway what have i done to benefit the world? But on the other hand i dont want to end it? it would eliminate my suffering but how much it would cause? every person i know would be affected. My friends and family would be devastated probably. I dont know what to do please help me before i hurt myself help me... help me....

Read Nietzsche. Problem solved.

by **Ashmoria** » Sat Apr 16, 2011 2:09 pm

Risna wrote:I feel my problems steam from a lack of self esteem. I know people often say to "distract yourself" but i have been distracting myself for years now. I had these problems for a long time for at least the last five years. Distraction is not the answer I dont want a band aid fix. Can someone please help with that?

yes

a councillor can. make an appointment and s/he will help you sort it all out.

by **Norstal** » Sat Apr 16, 2011 2:09 pm

Risna wrote:
The Murtunian Tribes wrote:
Again; HOW OLD ARE YOU???

18 going on 19

No, you're still young.

Risna wrote:I feel my problems steam from a lack of self esteem. I know people often say to "distract yourself" but i have been distracting myself for years now. I had these problems for a long time for at least the last five years. Distraction is not the answer I dont want a band aid fix. Can someone please help with that?

Well, why do you feel useless?

by **Kubra** » Sat Apr 16, 2011 2:09 pm

ARMATECH CORPORATION wrote:
Risna wrote:I really do not care what the mods say or do. I know i will probably get banned and get in trouble for this but i need your help again. My life I just can't take it is just too unbearable. For a long time i have suffered with a low self esteem. I devalue myself I see myself as dirt, as scum as a parasite. I hardly consider myself worthy of life I am the lowest thing on earth. This has been on and off for a few years. I have a strong urge to hurt myself too punish myself for living, i should have not been born. I am just taking up space, air, food. I only thing i can give in return is worry, pain, and suffering to those i live. I have found value in life only through others not myself. I live for my friends my family. They would be too sad if I was gone that is the ONLY reason why i live today. That is the only reason why i am here I have no value of self. I talked to my psychologist and she did not help me. I thought of all the ways i could off myself right now. I could stab myself with my pocket knife, i could over dose on Tylenol, I could allow myself to get run over by a bus. I am just in so much suffering right now i want to end it. I know i would not be missed anyway what have i done to benefit the world? But on the other hand i dont want to end it? it would eliminate my suffering but how much it would cause? every person i know would be affected. My friends and family would be devastated probably. I dont know what to do please help me before i hurt myself help me... help me....

Read Nietzsche. Problem solved.

Don't listen to this man. Kierkegaard and Shestov are your friends.

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