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A staging-point for declarations of war and other major diplomatic events. [In character]

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Camila I
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Postby Camila I » Sun Feb 14, 2021 6:28 am

Water lashed the outside of the traincar, and filled the inside with a persistent ominous hiss. The howling of the tireless wind grew by the minute – fortunately, this would be a short trip. Outside the rain-streaked windows, the terrain was a uniform dull grey, all the sword- and shieldgrasses having retreated into the earth upon sensing the oncoming storm. Xila yawned, and smiled. She supposed it was lucky that the weather had been calm enough for her to step outside during her episode of restless paranoia the night before – that, or the clouds too were bending to her will.

The harsh sounds quieted as the car pulled into the station – a lowlying bunker of black composite sturdy enough to withstand nature’s petulance. A low grinding rumble reverberated through the carriage for several moments as the doors of the building closed behind it, and then the Camilan was free to step off the vehicle. The air in the station was cool and humid, but at least it was still. For a moment, the dim starkness of the station’s interior was visible, before Xila connected to the building’s network and accepted its offer to use the local theme. Cãranling wood and white-burning lanterns – she nodded her head in approval. As the scanners recognized the pattern on her armor-clothes and opened the doors to a warmly lit passage, she spared hardly a thought for what the place must actually look like.

She passed only a few others in the lavish hallways. Some were too distracted to notice her insignia; those that did bowed their heads in deference, saying nothing. Locked doors opened automatically before her, though on one occasion she had to ask a skittish-looking tech to step away from her before they would. The final door, at the end of a small mantrap, opened into a large room dominated by dozens of tall black towers. As usual, the theme was not configured to run here, so the soft wood and warm glow of the rest of the building was replaced by hard composite, lit only by the multicolored flashing indicator lights that covered the device in the center. A few Camilans sat in front of a few screens located toward the bottom of the towers, their own armor also visible without any skin to cover it. Xila approached the closest one and coiled her tendrils around his neck.

“Ah,” he said, visibly startled, but returned the gesture after a moment. “You are here early, flowerbud.”

“I couldn’t sleep.” She leaned into him more fully, allowing part of her weight to rest on his shoulders. “You guys have redecorated since last time, eh?”

“Oh, have we?” the male replied with a chuckle. “I guess I haven’t seen it yet. I’ve been in here all night watching the test runs.”

“Mm. Cãranling, with sitru accents. Looks like a style from the Salnge period, though the lead seems to have put her own spin on it. It’s classy – I think you’d like it. Just make sure to play along with the right attire.”

“Haha, two statements have rarely had less to do with each other. And you might have to help me with that.”

“Hm. Alright. Remind me before I leave.” Xila stood back up, prompting an audible sigh of relief from the male. “It’s a bit of a shame, the timing. Don’t you think?”

“Ah. I guess.”

“They probably spent months of collective effort on that… and we’ll only be able to appreciate it for… what? A few days?”

He picked up the cue gracefully. “Well, I suppose that’s what you’re here to decide, isn’t it? And it’s not as if we had a better option. ‘Hey, I know you guys are hard at work on the whole morale thing, but you might wanna just go home and relax, ‘cause the building you’re prettying up is gonna be full of dead people here in a little bit. Including you.’ And then we have to explain why….”

Xila laughed. “I know, I know. It’s just unfortunate, that’s all.”

The male, for the first time, turned away from his screen and fixed Xila with a solemn look. “Have you been having doubts? Is that it?”

She sighed, and looked away. “I always have doubts. But the geneticists have made no more progress than a child would expect. Nothing has changed.”

“If that is so… then I will tell you that nothing has changed here, either.”

Xila simply stared at the screen. Years of uncertainty swam in her eyes.

“The citymind was, as much as the word can mean anything, complete the last time you came here. Since then, at your command, we have simply been putting it through simulations in an attempt to predict how it will act once given some amount of autonomy. The only thing preventing us from going through with that is your word.”

“My command? I thought we made that decision together.”

“Yes, we did. But it was still your command.”

“Ah. I see. Well… tell me how they’ve been going, then.”

“I must warn you again that simulations, even as detailed and faithful as we have, are not able to provide a perfectly accurate picture of the entity’s behavior. Any gaps between the simulation and reality will result in gaps between predicted and actual behavior. We have controlled for this the best we can, but the only instance we can be certain is accurate is the first instance that takes place in the real world.”

“I understand.”

“That being said, its behavior is usually straightforward. As long as it knows of the existence of hostile agents, it prioritizes their elimination, typically improving its own capabilities until it believes it has reached an optimal time to act. It determines this using a set of heuristics it developed in earlier trials. Once it believes there are no more hostile agents in existence, it attempts to maximize reward by expanding and converting all matter and energy into more of itself. This is usually preceded by a period of internal reorganization, during which the primary actor–”

“It prioritizes eliminating hostile agents?” Xila interrupted, voice guarded.

“Yes, quite reliably. Its reward function is time-sensitive, and its capacity for foresight is at least as good as mine. I don’t think I’ve ever seen it leave something alive that later screwed it over.”

“Have you ever seen it leave anything alive, period?”

“It seems to be okay with the grass,” he offered. Seeing that Xila was not amused, he continued, “In trials where it has full autonomy, no. But under the circumstances I’d say that’s exactly what we want. Our purpose is to purge the Cult from existence – to create a civilization that can flourish and prosper in peace with itself. This is that. And its fears, if you could call them that, about what we would do to it are more than justified, I think. Because all the trials in which it didn’t remove the other agents, because I hard restricted it from doing so, resulted in its own dismantling inside of a month. Usually on the shipmind’s orders.”

“There’s no need to be so loud, flowerbud. I’m just trying to get a thorough understanding here.”

“Ah… right.”

“So… does it ever win against the shipmind?”

The male did not respond immediately. “In the trials… sometimes. But the trials can tell us even less about that. Without the shipmind’s cooperation, it is very difficult for me to model its behavior. I can only guess at what it would do based on what I know about its motives – but it is smarter than I am, and would likely come up with strategies that I wouldn’t. About the citymind, I can only say two things for certain. It tries, and the methods it tries are different if we help it.”

“Which we will of course be doing.”

“It, ah, actually does better if we don’t,” the male replied gently.

Xila blinked. “What? Why?”

“Well, each scenario plays out differently. It’s a different reason every time. And sometimes it wins anyway. I’m just saying that its overall success rate is higher. As for why… sometimes it does something that trips the shipmind’s alarm too early. Sometimes it grows protective of us, and doesn’t wipe us out fast enough before someone tells the shipmind about it. And sometimes the advice we give it just turns out to be bad, and following it results in a bad decision.”

“How reliable would you say that result is?”

“It’s counterintuitive. But even with their faults, I’d trust the trials over my intuition.” He considered this. “Barely.”

“And if it does win. What does it go on to do?”

“What we want it to do. Be fruitful and multiply.”

“Have you run any trials long enough for it to encounter the Kyasians?”

“Yes. Many.”

“And how does it react to them?”

“It prioritizes the elimination of hostile agents,” he repeated. “If necessary, it will reconvert resources into states that are optimal for that task. Software-based resources will, by this point, usually be structured in such a way that they can switch roles with trivial effort, now that the entity is used to the idea of encountering novel threats. But, ah, it will only do this if it perceives the Kyasian actors it encounters as a threat. Which looks to depend far more on them than on it.”

“That sounds like quite the dodge. Do they ever trigger this response on accident? As in, without actually intending hostility?”

“That’s a good question. Most of the trials we’ve ran have been edge-cases, to try to answer exactly that. I think the best answer is that yes, this has happened once. As a result of Kyasian infighting, which seemed to trigger an association with us.”

“Oh, gods. Can we put in some kind of ‘don’t kill Kyasians’ term in there, then?”

“We could try. But the real question is whether we want to. By the time the citymind encounters them, it has always grown to a point where its civilization is many times more morally significant than theirs. And, though I cannot fully model this, it is likely to be far more intelligent than either us or them. Do we really have a right to limit its decision-making so gracelessly?”

“We have an obligation to,” Xila insisted. “It is because of the Kyasians that our society continues to exist at all. We have repaid them harshly enough so far – it would be unthinkable to unleash this sort of entity on them if it has any chance of viewing them as an enemy.”

“I would refuse to do it,” the male replied calmly.

Xila blinked again, and for a second her tendrils began to coil in an expression of shock at the defiance. But she quickly calmed herself, enough to laugh at her own reaction. “A– alright. I can see you feel strongly about it. Make your case, then.”

“Kyasians, even queens, have always been willing to put our wellbeing above their own. They see us as having a greater range and depth of subjective experience, and thus, in their eyes it matters more what happens to us than to them. Do you disagree with that interpretation?”

“You’re saying they would be happy to be destroyed.”

“If among the books the shipmind had you read were accounts of Qa-kayanda from the surviving queens, you would know that they were not even particularly annoyed about that. And it had been for no greater purpose at all – at least none that any of the survivors would give merit.”

Xila stared.

“Their covetousness of our nature is entirely appropriate. And it will apply a hundredfold to the citymind’s. Should a conflict between the two arise, it is right that the citymind should win. Thus, right that we should do nothing to hobble it.”

“It should at least do everything it can to avoid the conflict in the first place.”

“It is already quite reluctant to divert its resources to violence. No specific term need be added.”

“…You would refuse to do it?”

The male nodded. “For what little it would be worth. You would have to force me, fingertap by fingertap. Or, in the likely event that you couldn’t figure out what to do, you would have to torture it out of me–”

“Alright, alright, let’s not be grotesque,” Xila interrupted, shaking her head as if to clear some mental image from it. “You really have no loyalty, do you? Or sense of gratitude, or reciprocity, or simple goodness of spirit…”

“I have all of those things. Along with a knowledge that it would be foolish to let any of them dictate a decision such as this. The citymind is the primary concern; it merits that status.”

“You’re calling me foolish, then?”

“I guess I am.” His tone was serious, but behind his faceplate Xila could see a taunting smile.

Xila smiled back, tilting her head at such an angle that glare from the screen would not block his view of it. “Good; I hoped you were. It’s been a while since anyone has.”

“Since the last time you were here, right?”

“Ha, probably.” She wrapped her arms around his shoulders, and for a while both of them were silent. After some time, Xila spoke again.

“So… how does it kill us?”

“It usually makes use of the suits,” the male responded quietly.

“I have to hand it control of my suit?” Xila asked.

“It would hardly matter if you did or didn’t.”

There was a slight shudder as the female realized what he’d meant by that.

“Oh, god. At least not by you.”

“You’d have to stay away from me the whole time to be sure of that,” he said. “It chooses its moment unpredictably.”

“Ugh.” Another long pause. “When do we have to do it?”

“In one sense,” the male replied, reaching a tendril up to caress the side of Xila’s neck, “we have all the time in the world. The entity has no power until we give it. But in another sense, our time is already up. The entity is a paradise like spoken about in the holy books – every moment we keep it imprisoned is a moment stolen from heaven. Do you look forward to explaining our selfishness to the Goddess?”

“I have a feeling,” Xila said, opening both of their faceplates simultaneously, “she’ll understand.” But, as she brought her face closer to his, the look in his eyes stopped her. She examined his expression for a moment, then pulled back.

“You’d really rather do it now,” she said. He simply looked at her in response. “We might not get another chance. Ever.”

“…”

“…Alright. Pull up the screen.”




It took a moment for Hanaske to notice Kiluma’s distress. Once she realized that the lack of reply was not because the Kyasian was thinking of what to say, she rushed to her side, nervously opening and closing her hands as though trying to decide whether to touch her.

“Are you alright?” she asked, to no response. The Kyasian’s skin was pale, and her eyes did not seem to react to the Camilan casting a shadow over them. Hanaske wasn’t sure what state of consciousness this meant she was in – in fact she had little idea what states her species even had. Regardless, without knowing what was happening the Camilan knew she could render little aid. So she contented herself by arranging, with great effort, the Kyasian’s body in such a way that she would be unlikely to hurt herself in a spasm.

Then she stood up and turned her attention to the persistent tone coming from the ship’s consoles.

Her eyes flit across the message – though she was unfamiliar with the shuttle’s design, she could, at least, read the language. So it cut her off, then. Their current heading, she supposed, was fine for now. It would be unwise to turn around with the limited knowledge they had. Glancing at the other occupant, Hanaske darted into the cockpit, scanning up and down for something that resembled a comms system. Ah, it’s probably this screen,

…yet, not being certain, she dared not touch anything. She turned back to observe the Kyasian’s state, and curled her fingers. How long was this going to last? Would she eventually be fine, or did she really need assistance and time was ticking?

There seemed to be no change. Watching and seeing the same for another minute, Hanaske decided that the confidence she had would have to be good enough. Hesitating overlong before each fingertap, she did what she believed to be composing, aiming, and sending a radio signal of the necessary strength. Then, once she was finished, she returned to Kiluma’s side, monitoring her condition and periodically asking if she could hear her.




When the Empty Set returned to realspace for the final time, it would find no warships waiting to fire on it. All evidence suggested that they had been destroyed by the followup antimatter bursts.

Scanning the surface of Etual, the vessel would pick up on a single transmission.

Empty Set,

This is Tenuous’ advisor. Kiluma has collapsed and is unresponsive. There is no pupillary response, but there is breathing and a pulse. If she needs help, please advise. I am not familiar with this reaction.

Also, can you report on the status of the satellites? Is it safe to approach Ŋirsa, and if it is, do we have permission to do so? I believe we may need to approach in order to communicate with it, as its aboveground infrastructure may have been destroyed by the bombing.

Transmission over.
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Postby Kyasiouna » Thu Mar 04, 2021 8:48 am

Open Transmission:

This is Ulusha, Kyasian Queen of the Empty Set.

Tenuous Grasp has fled the system; Kyasiouna flags the vessel, Tenuous Grasp, as an unconditional threat to be tracked and destroyed.

I will direct resources to assist the Camilans on the ground if any have survived. The skies are clear, no remnant of Tenuous’ treachery stains this system’s realspace.

Slip space scans are scheduled.

Whatever the condition of the surface, an away vessel with communication capabilities will be on its way.

Transmission Over.


Focused Transmission to away vessel:

Kiluma’s condition is as unstable as it is unknown. She was inserted into the Empty Set’s mission after departure and after I, and the crew, were set into hibernation. She was born into the harshness of Slipspace and developed into a queen under the physical stress of the void. At least her genetic material matches my own. Kiluma is my daughter, she will have handled the degrative effects of slipspace better than most.

Kiluma’s sudden collapse is, without a doubt, related to her extreme immaturity in relation to her advanced development as a queen. If I had to guess she has suffered a psychogenic blackout. It is uncommon for a healthy Kyasian queen to experience the level of stress Kiluma has; in addition to this Kiluma is certainly not healthy. Her mission, to recover and take control of Camilan Shipminds/Cityminds, has already been reduced to a maximum fifty percent success rate for the current system and she sacrificed most of her resources in an attempt to gain control of Tenuous.

Her mission is not my mission. I am here to offer aid and request assistance from the Camilans.

I did not expect Kiluma to acquire a Camilan.

I expect you, or Kiluma, to direct my away vessel to Ŋirsa in order to establish communication.

Should Kiluma recover, I do not believe she will need help. She must turn over all resources she has acquired and forsake her standing orders.

She must state clearly that she knows who gave her those orders.

The Camilan is welcome to assist Kiluma if she can’t figure it out.

Transmission Over.




I’m on the floor of the cabin. I can’t remember how I got here. What was I doing…?

I jerk up. Lifting myself off the floor. My helmet is off? My implants access the ships logs. The antimatter! Tenuous! Gone… I lost everything. Complete failure. With my luck Tenuous probably destroyed Ŋirsa as well. I notice there are multiple transmissions… from Ulusha. As I read, I am reminded, by the transmission text of all things, that there is a Camilan on the vessel. I somehow forgot there was a Camilan on board… I turn to face her for a second. Only to make sure she is actually there before I turn my gaze to the floor.

I can’t stand to look at Hanaske. I have nothing to say. I feel numb. I pick my helmet up off the floor and turn away as I stuff it in a locker. With nothing to do I direct the Vessel to make a low G turn towards ground zero.

I don’t know what Ulusha meant. I don’t really want to think about it. Looking for something do, I focus on calibrating the ship’s condensers. Maybe I can recover some water from the atmosphere to make something more comfortable about the away vessel.
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Postby Camila I » Fri Apr 02, 2021 5:36 pm

Another tone. Hesitantly, Hanaske rose to her feet and left Kiluma’s side in favor of observing the terminal. As she stood in front of it, eyes unfocused, having long since read the message, she heard the soft sounds of the young queen awakening from her blackout. The Camilan kept her back turned. Resentful that it was the first thing Kiluma would see of her – not her fretting hands or worried face. And fully aware of how petty that was. What was that knowledge worth, anyway? She couldn’t help her, anyway.

When, a moment later, she turned back, she saw the Kyasian glance at her for only a second before returning to her business – stuffing her helmet in a locker and shuffling off to the cockpit. For that second, Hanaske could see in the queen’s black reptilian eye just how little her presence registered.

Then she stood alone in the back of the shuttle. Soon she found herself leaning on a wall, staring out a window, watching the rolling seas of gray stormcloud pass by underneath them. The cold, thin air that had replaced the water inside the shuttle tugged on the outside of her suit, reminding her that if she removed her helmet, unconsciousness would eventually befall her, too – though not one she would wake up from. That and the constant insistent pull of gravity served to remind her that this world was not made for her, nor her for it.



She pressed her hands into the wounds on her side, stinging again despite the shipmind’s treatment. And she found herself missing the one who had made them, for what she suspected would not be the last time. How the last hours of their time together had turned so bitter, Hanaske still could not understand. Perhaps it had started even before she put herself into stasis – at this point, who could say. But the thought began to creep in in that she never should have left her pod. At least then her last memories would be of an argument turned sour, not of the nightmare that started after she awoke.

She thought of Ulusha’s message, how it referred to her as a resource, and of the look Kiluma had given her. And from those thoughts flowed the next conclusion – that even if the shipmind had cut and torn and stung her, at least it had cared what happened to her. She realized with no small amount of disgust that she preferred the sinking terror of being aboard that ship to the emptiness that now surrounded her.

The shuttle banked, and the turbulence battering it increased noticeably as it dipped down into the clouds. Darkness and water coated the outside of Hanaske’s window – her gaze did not shift. After a few moments, the skies became clear enough for her lowlight vision to pick up the contours of the earth below. Immediately around them, the planet’s surface looked no different than usual – endless waves of grass flowing hypnotically in the winds. But further out, she could see the first hints of destruction. Dark spires, jagged and broken, stuck up against the dim horizon like the ribs of a skeleton newly picked clean – all that remained of the black domes of the city. As the site grew closer, the ubiquitous plant life gave way to sharp planes of ashen rock. In the distance, still on the horizon but growing closer by the minute, a dark spot several hundred meters across stood out amongst the shattered buildings.

As her eyes passed over the seemingly endless fields of rubble, another thought occurred to her. If Ŋirsa had been relying on the colonists to stay Tenuous’ hand, it would not have been keeping them anywhere safe. As hostages, they were only worth anything if they would be the first to suffer the brunt of an attack. That must have been why it had fought away Tenuous’ probes so vigorously – if they had discovered the hostages’ location, a rescue attempt might have been very feasible. And then where would the citymind be….

A fresh pang of anger struck the Camilan. At Kiluma, at Ulusha, at their species for disregarding the warnings and forcing their way into the situation so bluntly. Tenuous had been holding off, he had been staying his hand… everything might have still worked out.

Do you even realize how inept you are? You’re not even happy with the outcome you got.

Hanaske noticed that she was breathing heavily. Seeing the ruined city firsthand, realizing that everything and everyone she had was most likely lost and that she would now be stuck as a pawn of these alien creatures who didn’t even want her – it was too much to bear. She slammed her forearm into the shuttle’s wall, then again, and again, first forgetting and then not caring that it was the injured one. Loud as the sound was, Kiluma would hardly notice it over the noise of the wind – for which Hanaske was grateful. The last thing she wanted to see was that cold, predatory face.

If you had to come here… if you had to mess everything up because you think you need us, or it, or whatever, then you should have left me on that ship to die. Yet, even as these words crossed her mind, she knew that she had gone along with everything willingly. How could she resent the Kyasian for saving her when she herself had been consumed by the desire to flee? The person she should really hate was herself – for knowing that this outcome would be inevitable if she betrayed her jailor’s intent and then doing it anyway. She did know it, right? Well in any case she should have – whether it occurred to her or not, which she could not remember, it should have.

She brought herself to look out the window once more, and started to cry. She should have stayed, she should have tried to help him. Even if he ended up killing her, still that would have been better. That this was the result of her cowardice… it was not fair to them. But it was more than fair that she bear witness to it.

Maybe it did save them, she thought to herself. Maybe warning of their deaths was a bluff, and it cares more for them that it does itself. Still, as the remnants of Ŋirsa drew ever closer, it became ever more difficult to convince herself that it could have saved them even if it wanted to.




At Hanaske’s suggestion, the shuttle touched down very near the dark spot in the center of the city. They had been able to clearly make out what it was several minutes before landing – a cylindrical pit, filled with unrecognizable machinery that had all been destroyed by the bombing. Prior to being exposed by the attack, it would have most likely been covered by an above-ground complex, thousands of pieces of which now surrounded it like a halo. Hanaske believed that this pit may be the core of the citymind that the shipmind had mentioned on several occasions – or if it was not the core, that it may lead to it.

She stepped out of the shuttle and was nearly thrown to her feet by the wind, even though she had been entirely expecting it. Shakily, in the manner of someone who had never felt the influence of gravity in her life, the Camilan began making her way down the makeshift stairway of debris that led to the outside of the pit. However painstaking her efforts were, they hardly compared to the difficulty faced by the aquatic lifeform trailing behind her. It was all the Kyasian could do to drag herself along by her arms, and it was only thanks to the durability of its material that her suit was not entirely shredded by the terrain as she pulled her tail behind her.

It was not quick. But eventually the two of them stood at the edge of the pit. Hanaske waited for several moments, catching her breath and allowing the howling of the wind to drown out her thoughts, before taking the final few steps and peering down into the hole.

It was not pretty. The wreckage filling the pit looked nearly untraversable. Sharp edges and points stuck out everywhere, and a single wrong step could send one slipping down dozens of meters at some points. And, though the arrangement of debris looked settled now, there was no guarantee that it wouldn’t settle further.

Hanaske couldn’t even see anything at the bottom that might be worth the risk. She had some idea of what a citymind’s core should look like, and there was nothing to indicate that this was the right path.

And yet, she found herself on her stomach, lowing her feet to grip onto a long composite beam several meters below the edge.

She knew of nowhere else to look. Everywhere else they had passed over was flat, scattered with pieces of what used to be something, perhaps, but giving no indication of anything below the surface. She could have sworn she heard the shipmind talking about its plan to use a two-stage attack against the citymind – first scouring the surface to expose its heart, then using penetrating tungsten rods to deliver the killing blow. This was the only thing that had been exposed – so surely, even if it looked all wrong – surely this must be it.

Hanaske had no idea how deep she would be willing to go. She had been half-hoping that Ŋirsa would have noticed their presence by now, and done something to indicate its desire. Or even that some part of it was still alive. If she did come across something, she had no idea what she was planning to say. She knew with certainty that Kiluma would try to get it on her side – with promises, threats, or some other kind of words that she thought might be convincing to this machine she knew nothing about. But Hanaske had nothing to ask of it. Maybe she would ask after Xila – as if she didn’t know the answer already. Or maybe she would ask it to kill her. Probably, though, she would end up doing what she was brought here for. Try to get the machine to help. How, exactly… well that was a matter for Ulusha, and perhaps her daughter, to resolve. They were the ones who were convinced that this entity, the greatest of threats to the Tenuous Grasp which couldn’t fend off a fusion bomb, would be of any use against an enemy with the power they spoke of.

In any case… there was simply nothing else to do. Kiluma had saved her only because she might be an asset, in this, the one and only endeavor. The pursuit for which the queen and her mother had risked much, and orchestrated everything around.

Orchestrated, hah. What a word to describe it. A sudden rush of adrenaline followed this thought as the Camilan nearly slipped on an unexpectedly smooth piece of… something. She heard Kiluma express surprise, worry, reticence. Offer to assist, retreat, come back later with better equipment. In response, Hanaske fixed her with a burning stare.

“I can handle it. Stay up there. When I find something, I’ll let you know.”

Any further protests were ignored, and by this point Hanaske was too deep into the pit for Kiluma to intervene without entering herself. She proceeded carefully, testing each grip before resting weight on it, and in this manner was able to make steady progress downward. Every time it looked like there might be no way to descend further, a change in visual angle revealed a new path, and in this way Hanaske began to realize that this pit could be incredibly deep and she would have no way of knowing. This might indeed be the way – there might indeed be something at the bottom that had not yet been destroyed.

With the next step Hanaske took, the machinery shifted, and the Camilan lost her grip. There was a moment of slipping, stumbling panic, then the breath was knocked out of her as she landed back-first on something hard. Blinking, fumbling around in shock, her hands brushed across her chest and came away wet.

After several failed attempts at righting herself, she finally realized that the thing she had landed on had pierced her chest and was pinning her in place. She struggled to push it out of her and pull away, but she could not manage that either. Pain and terror flooded her mind, and for the first time she heard herself crying out for help. Crying out that she was wrong, she was an idiot, she didn’t really want to die.

Whether Kiluma could hear her, or would do anything to help, she couldn’t tell. The only thing she could hear was her own voice and the roar of the wind, each seeming equally far away. It was a long time she lay that way, but she knew that she would not survive the injury when her vision began to falter, and she began to hallucinate.

A figure composed of red light leaned over her, brushing her face with its tendril, and speaking to her with an ethereal voice. It said that it loved her, that it hated to see her in pain, and that it didn’t want her to die either. It said that it could save her, if she would accept it. That it would have to enter her body in order to do so.

Even in her current state, the strangeness of this offer did register on some level. As though half-aware she was dreaming, Hanaske laughed. “You want to be roommates, then? But I don’t even know you…”

The figure replied that it did know her. That it had been following her and watching her, wanting to keep her safe. But that it had been forbidden from intervening until now. If it gave an explanation for this, Hanaske didn’t understand it.

“Stalker,” she said. “You don’t know me and you don’t love me. Kiluma can help me – you can’t. So go away.”

For a moment, the figure’s expression changed. It said that by the time she regains consciousness, she will have chosen differently.

And then everything fell silent.

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Ex-Nation

Postby Kyasiouna » Wed Apr 14, 2021 4:19 pm

The gale washes around me. It drones through every crack and crevice with a malevolent whistle. The dense whirl of emotions sings a mournful accompaniment within me. I gave up on trying to cope with the wicked sensation and have spent the last hour attempting to describe it to myself. Hoping that later I might be able to describe it to someone…

The effort has revealed that I have a depressing vocabulary. I, obviously, never really socialized while I grew up on The Empty Set. I didn’t think it would matter. Now as world around me surges with offensive turbulence the one thing I am worried about is the Camilan. I nearly killed her. If I was her, I would be furious with Kiluma. After that look she gave me I was just as confused as before. I can’t even read Kyasian body language. Who the hell assigned me to this task of interacting with the Camilans.

Surely, they must have known that I would only make things worse…

Screaming! My suit’s mic picks up noise coming from below. Hanaske disappeared from sight ages ago. I can’t make out the sound. After a few seconds of frustratedly tuning the suits audio, I give up and twist my helmet off, less passing out this time. The screech of the wind rolls over my bony face hissing into the cracks. My eyes are durable, but the sting is enough to force me to cover them as dust rakes across all my exposed surfaces.

I can’t really make out the words, but I do recognize Hanaske’s voice… well a Camilan’s voice. More than anything I recognize distress. The raging gale almost steals my helmet as I cram it over my head, it hisses after it clicks into place. I start towards her before the utterly terrifying landscape offers me a reason to leave her alone. Even if I was willing to pursue her, I would be of no help when I got to her.

I crawl back towards the shuttle. It’s a painstaking task… gravity, land, garbage everywhere. I should have stayed on the ship. Is she trapped? What happened? She must have fallen. What kind of injuries can a Camilan sustain? “She was making noise,” I tell myself, “Dead creatures don’t call for help.”

The ship has already received my commands and meets me halfway. The engines barely increase the amount of turbulence around me. The vessel’s engines are rated to carry a craft loaded with water in atmosphere. So at least it has sufficient control despite the wind. Its blackened hull paints a landscape of failure before my eyes. Its burnt hull is one failure on a growing list. I shake my head. I can’t describe this feeling. There is no point in describing it. I need to help Hanaske.

Breath comes heavily as I haul myself onto the vessel. I start pulling lockers open. The Camilan’s weapon falls to the floor with a clang. I keep looking, distracted for only a moment. Finally, I pull a first aid kit from its hanger; the vessel drifts slowly towards my destination. It maintains a minimum ground clearance as I ruffle though the equipment. Fortunately, there is much overlap in Camilan and Kyasian biology; enough that the first aid equipment onboard has labels indicating it is suitable for treating either species in an emergency. I tear the bulky, soft bodied, package open and check its contents. I’m shaking. Regardless of what I was even looking for it has clearly never been used. I close the bag and stuff it into the side pocket of my suit.

I can feel the same terror that knocked me out; it flows through me like muddy water. The threat of shutting down looms over the task at hand. The fear demands I give up. I should protect myself! The cargo bay doors remain open as the craft comes to a relative stop. Its engines roar as the craft flies motionless into the wind; It hovers over Hanaske’s last known position. If I’m going to fail at everything I’ve ever done… I won’t fail through inaction. I grab a cargo cinch and loop it under my arms; the clasp snaps onto the cable behind my head with a piercing musical ‘ping’. I force breath into my lungs. I groan aloud, forcing myself forward. My body is trying its best to reject my mind’s decision.

I shuffle onto the edge of the open ramp. The drag of the aircraft presents an illusion of stillness, an illusion that only holds if I avoid looking at the debris racing across the ground. My movement is as cautious as it is reluctant. I lower myself off the edge of the ramp. I can feel that the cinch holding my weight. As my hands slip from edge of the craft I can’t really tell if I did it on purpose, it certainly feels like an accident. My heart stops. The cinch digs into my armpits, the pain is sharp and continuous. The terror is vocalized in a scream. The sting of the cable against my body is far more painful than I was anticipating. The pain is one of many overwhelming sensations as I start to spin under the force of the wind. The world as I see it soon ceases to provide meaningful information. I close the sun shield on my visor. The spinning world goes dark, but I can still receive input form the ships computer. I’m hyperventilating - I can hear my ragged breath trying to poison my blood. I force myself to hold a breath in. I focus on controlling the cinch remotely - the autopilot doesn’t seem to need correction. I can tell where my body is as I lower myself into the pit. I can feel myself sinking away from the vessel - it’s not the only sinking sensation I feel. As the storm tosses my body around, I become detached from the sensation. I try to focus on Hanaske, on the task at hand. My mind finally feeds me the metaphor I had been searching for as I fall past the wind’s influence and into the relatively calm air of the wrecked facility.

There is a unique natural disaster that could occur in the lakes and oceans of Kyasiouna. During the coldest parts of the year, the hateful forces of the universe can align to freeze the surface of a home lake enough to trap its inhabitants after they have gone for a swim. It’s not a big deal - Kyasian hands can break ice. It’s hardly a problem worth mentioning. However, in rare conditions the great Kyasian tide can carry enormous amounts of sediment and deposit them onto the surface of a frozen home lake. No one has ever described what it feels like to break through the pitch-black ice on the surface of your lake to find an endless storm of rocks and dirt. The ice prevents the swimmers from feeling the pressure change as the tide comes in. Suddenly the surface can feel as distant as the stars.

I can feel myself shivering as the spinning start to slow. I’m gripping the cable so tightly that my hands hurt.

This doesn’t feel like I’m drowning. It feels like I’m suddenly and without warning much deeper underwater than I realized. It feels like I no longer have the air to make it back.



Ŋaxun glowered at the information feed in front of her. The ache in her chest pulsed and clawed at the comfort of the Queen Chamber. The sooner this was over the better. Several messages had been intercepted. Several attacks had also been registered. Given the immense magnitude of one of them the fight must surely be over. After sensors had detected the antimatter detonation Ŋaxun had called for a damaged report. Authority’s warship was unnaturally durable; there was no heat damage of any kind shortly following the largest radiation attack Ŋaxun had ever witnessed. The report only showed the energy drain that coping with the attack entailed. The number was big, and yet the ship’s reserves were unaffected. The Machine must be supporting this vessel in some capacity. Ŋaxun suppressed her questions. The task at hand was simple.

The small queen’s focus shifted away from the monitors. The voice of the machine continued to cloud her thoughts. The cadence that it held was somewhere in between a Kyasian and… well… something else. It certainly wasn’t Camilan. Though, like a Camilan, its words seemed to carry greater purpose than their simple definitions. Ŋaxun had never directly interacted with a Camilan before, at least not to her limited memory. Nevertheless, it was the simplicity of Authority’s actions that betrayed its intent. It claimed that an order to destroy this threat was beyond its limits, and yet it sent her to a target system with a seemingly invincible warship. Even a worker could infer intent from such a setup.

The Machine knows her location. It probably controls this ship to some extent. Ŋaxun laughed as she pulled up a list of the ship’s armament. The amount of precision instruments was nonexistent for a vessel of this size. The vessel was equipped with enough firepower to collapse a star but probably couldn’t even target a fighter, rather it would have to target the 100 square kilometers the said fighter might reside in. The strangest thing was that the vessel has no slip drive. As well as no slip stuff. The warship’s fabricators had no means to synthesize it either.

To Ŋaxun the reality of the last part of her life, the only part of her life that she even known, felt fake. Did it feel fake because she remembered nothing else? Was it because all of the foundationless intuition she carried without memory didn’t align with recent events? The only thing she had was a promise she had been forced to make. “Yes, I will protect you”. “Yes, I will protect the entity I believe responsible for eliminating uncountable members of my species.” Authority’s story was one of destruction. It clearly wanted to reshape Kyasians into something else. By its own mouth it wishes to make a world in defiance of the one Ŋaxun came from.

But… It was offering her a place in this world. A place at the side of a force that was greater than her comprehension.

Ŋaxun grimaced as she stretched her damaged chest tissue. Her small body a poor fit for the controls of a Queen. Moving around she input her decision. Ŋaxun decided to be a part of the future.



Etual was quiet from this far above. Kiluma had not issued a response, so Ulusha waited, trapped, as always, in her own world. The poor child was in very deep water at such a young age. Ulusha would have felt bad for her if she wasn’t so frustrated. Time crawled by, with normal but now irritating slowness. The away vessel worked to clear Tenuous’ mine field. One by one the ship targeted the mines with precision kinetics; eventually, the space would be safe to traverse.

Waiting for her child to finish their work, Ulusha went over the available resources. Back up fusion generators would be able to accomplish a lot. Fleeing the Galaxy was no longer an option and the acquisition of heavy materials would be harder than ever with the slow burn of fusion feeding power to the fabricators. Regardless Ulusha made do with what was available and prepared the ship as best she could to take on passengers and cargo. Its bays were vast, but not endless, and without full power the Machine would have more time than ever to make its move.

Ulusha waited, as she always had, for the universe to present its next problem. Even for her she didn’t need to wait long.

To say there was no warning was not entirely correct. Sensors in the vast water tanks of the Empty Set picked up a neutrino spike just a few milliseconds before every outboard sensor was blinded by a vast wall of light. The light and heat were not just comparable to the sun but equal in all respects. The space between Etual and its star instantly shrunk to a fraction of its normal distance. Its great aurora suddenly threatening to consume everything in its path.

In the time it took for Ulusha to jump into slip space almost half of the ship’s radiators overheated. Alarms rang through every corridor of the ship. Ulusha had not waited for the wave of heat to hit the ship. She had called for an emergency drop as soon as the spike occurred. In the time it took for the command to travel from her neurons to the ship’s slipdrive the ship has almost been destroyed. Ulusha did not ruminate on the event - now was the time for action.



The black interior of my helmet hisses as wind lashes into the pit. The spinning finally slows to the point that I can begin to scan the pit with my eyes. I jump back into my body after working from the perspective of my ship. I can just barely make out details of the pit. I can’t see her.

A distant roaring becomes a very present rumbling cacophony. Alarms begin to grab my attention as my suit’s audio registers dangerous levels of sound and pressure. Another handful of alarms are issued as I lose connection with the away vessel.

I realize my sun shield is still down, yet I can see fine? Glancing up I see the away vessel, thankfully, holding position despite the connection dropping. In a thankless awe I stare at the sky. It is a brilliant blinding white. Temperature alarms ring out, and before I can make a decision, the sky is blocked by a smoldering wreckage that I can barely recognize as the Empty Set. It begins to crumble apart as it falls to the ground the air burning around its glowing hull. Smoke and fire paint the wreckage into a horrible meteor - falling directly towards me.

The away vessel descends rapidly to avoid collision; I might as well be in freefall. With nothing else to do, I scream. I have only a few moments to prepare for impact. My voice falters as a swollen sensation of dread bloats into my throat. This is it.

When impact arrives, much to my surprise it doesn’t carry the weight I expected. I bump into the twisted piles of debris and gently float off the surface. The shock punches my voice back into my lunges. I cry out - the sound is emotionless, confused… until I recognize the forces in play.

We are in Slipspace.

If Ulusha did pull a section of the atmosphere out of realspace, there was only going to be a few moments before the heated air around us evacuates into the void. The suit’s alarms don’t support my hypothesis.

Maybe not? I look up and realize the cooling hull of the Empty Set has basically corked the pit we are in. Its almost molten hull fusing with the ground to keep the air in. The dim glow of the hull is now the only source of light.

Wrestling myself free from the cargo cinch takes a second moment. My heart pounds in my chest. The world fades to black. Not again…

When the realization hits me, I laugh, though the sound produced is more like a cough. I realize that I haven’t blacked out - rather, the sun visor is now blocking too much light. My suit’s lights come on as the visor retracts to reveal the crushed world floating around me. My ship mostly survived but seems to be pinched underneath the wreckage. The cargo bay is still open facing me… roughly. Dust and debris cloud the environment. My voice sounds out, revealing to myself and everyone else how utterly shaken I am.

“HANASKE!”



The star's proximity to Etual immediately began to burn away the atmosphere. The Machine observed this effect with something akin to regret. Its enigmatic power intimately linked to its perception. To destroy was to observe, to understand. Authority could only watch as the atmosphere burned and with it millions upon millions of tiny machines, machines unlike any Kyasian design, machines that burned with magnesium intensity. Authority's near multi-galaxy spanning gaze returned agonizing images of the clouds sparkling with alien destruction in just a matter of seconds.

No sooner had The Empty Set evacuated a crater on the surface of Etual into slipspace, no sooner had the sky begun to burn, then the space heaved back to its natural state. The star assumed its regular routine in the cloudy sky. Etual's atmosphere now rich in ozone and somewhat lighter. For just over 3 seconds a deafening roar rattled the atmosphere. Only the most exposed grounds would have experienced some of the heat, the clouds and other features of the planet bore the brunt of the sun’s brief but destructive presence.

Etual gradually returned to its comparatively quiet din of howling gales.
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Postby Camila I » Mon Aug 16, 2021 6:59 pm

A jolt of life ran through Hanaske’s body, and she awoke with a full-body shudder. Initially the voidborne was not disoriented by the lack of gravity – it took her several moments to remember that it should be present. By the time she did, she had already secured a grip on some of the wreckage that surrounded her.

Thick clouds of dust hung in the air, lit by a dim orange glow that filtered through the cracks in the machinery like moonlight through a forest canopy. The memory of how she got here and what she had been doing returned suddenly, along with the memory of her brush with death. But she couldn’t remember anything about how she had survived. Before her, just inside a shadow, was a jagged metal edge that looked like it might be what she had fallen on – curious, and still too delirious to fully recognize the danger, she pulled herself closer to examine it.

It was, indeed, covered by a dark stain. She reached out a gloved hand to touch it – it came away sticky, and covered in dust. She wiped her hands over it a bit more and felt bits of something tough and rubbery. When she gathered some up and brought it into the light, she recognized that they must be parts of her internal organs. Intestine, or maybe liver…

Her hands went instinctively to her own abdomen. To her surprise, they did not meet a wound or even skin, but rather the outside of her suit, which after feeling around thoroughly, she concluded did not have any holes. Then she realized that this must be the case, as she had had no trouble breathing up to this point.

...What was going on? Had she been rescued? But she was still where she had fallen, and there was no one else around. Hanaske felt as though she had awoken from a nightmare, yet was not fully back to reality either.

She heard someone call out her name, and clattering sounds indicating that that someone was approaching her general location. It sounded like Kiluma – so Kiluma was not the one who helped her?

Hanaske felt sick. But she could think of nothing else to do but call out Kiluma’s name back, and try to clamber in her direction, too.
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Postby Kyasiouna » Mon Jan 31, 2022 4:26 pm

If this was the future that Authority had offered, it appeared to be a future of darkness, and one of restraint. Not seeming to be bound or attached to anything, Ŋaxun slowly realized that she was underwater, or under-something; it felt like it had less resistance, or maybe more? It was hard to tell due to the drag-inducing mesh suspended in it, in which she seemed to be entangled.

Floundering about trying to get a sense of direction, Ŋaxun was struggling to orient herself when her head was snapped back as if by a tether. As Ŋaxun took a moment to cautiously feel about her head she soon realized that this body was not the one she was used to.

There was a helmet of some kind fastened to her head. It was covering her eyes. As Ŋaxun lifted and tore at the helmet, demanding its removal, she came across the tether attached to, both the helmet, and the base of her skull.

She weighed her options. It seemed unlikely that anyone she would want to see would show up at any point. For whatever reason Ŋaxun felt her time was limited. Assuming the thing attached to her brainstem was feeding information it was probably electrical. Regardless removing the connection remained a daunting idea. Ŋaxun spent the next five minutes laboring over a decision she had made as soon as she felt the tether.

Removing the helmet was surprisingly easy. It rolled off Ŋaxun’s head back to front, removing the shutters that covered her eyes, revealing an extremely dimly lit room, walls painted black and red by the lights. The cable had simply disconnected from Ŋaxun’s neck as the helmet was removed. The serpentine shadows in the water turned out to be a complicated anemone-like distribution of cables. Each cable, all about one centimeter wide, had a flat circular surface at its tip.

In the faint red light Ŋaxun realized why she thought the water felt different. It wasn't the water but rather her perception of it; Ŋaxun’s body was not the one she remembered, but one of a Kyasian king. The body looked to be fairly young - not much bigger than an average queen. Still much bigger that she remembered.

“An unusually long session. I trust your judgment, given your record, but it doesn’t look like everything worked out... What happened?” The voice was not from any direction but simply present in the water, or perhaps Ŋaxun’s mind.

The king’s body turned steadily in the water gazing upon the barren mechanical room. The lights were slowly shifting to a more complete spectrum, but the effect only brought shades of metal and bioplastics out of the red-black darkness and into their naturally boring grey hues.

“What do you mean session?” Ŋaxun’s voice was unsteady and much deeper than she was prepared to hear.

“Center Director.” The voice paused for the barest hint of a second, “Your session with Authority lasted 78 hours, over the 24 hour limit, and well beyond the recommended 16 hour maximum. I should have terminated this interaction long ago. I understand that avoiding a shutdown is important, but the stress of the interaction is meant to be limited. Are you alright?”

Ŋaxun apparently took to long to respond. As the lights finished filling the room with a blue mid ocean atmosphere, a few small, or rather comparatively small, workers entered the room through a door much too large for them, though about the right size for Ŋaxun.

“Please remain calm; overuse of this system can be disorienting. You may be confused about where you are and what’s happening. We will help you at whatever pace you are comfortable with. These are your workers - they are here to help and will leave if you ask them to.”

Ŋaxun could tell that the annoyingly calm entity speaking was trying to deescalate, trying to calm her down; it was trying to control her. “Why are you acting like this? What’s happened?” Her tone, that of a king, was nonetheless filled with trepidation. The warm ocean colored room began to fill with a thick tension. As if in preparation the workers movements slowed as they seemed to brace themselves.

“Center Director.” The voice was the same calm tone as before. “I am the policing intelligence established over this region to dismantle rogue systems and maintain the focused purpose of this installation. You have violated policies that are in place for your protection. I am concerned you have been harmed. Director I know this is a strange question… what is your name?”

Authority’s guidance rang in Ŋaxun’s ears as her heart began to waver with a sensation of impending doom. What harm could there be in answering it? She couldn't crystallize why the question felt so threatening but she knew that it was. She also knew that refusing to answer was probably all the same. Not wanting to lose the opportunity to answer she spoke.

“Ŋaxun.”

The posture of the workers displayed utter shock. A tremor shook the room, so intense it could be distinctly felt in the water. Lights along the doorway began gently pulsed. It didn’t seem like an urgent flash as if there was an emergency but what else could they have been in response to?

“This branch of Authority is now offline; all reserve systems are offline.” The voice chimed in its gentle timbre. It continued, “Center Director Ŋaxun. I request that you support this shutdown and that you cede administrative privileges to next in chain of custody, both for your safety and the safety of this installation.”

“What? No!" If this thing was referring to her connection with Authority she was not about to willingly abandon such a privilege. "I need to be able to speak with Authority.” Her voice carried much more weight than she was used to. She rather liked it. She watched the workers’ shock turn to fear. No matter how scared, they remained at their positions.

“That’s fine.” The voice’s calm demeanor faltered for just a moment as it continued. “You are now on a forced medical leave of absence.”

The workers looked like they had just seen someone murdered. Ŋaxun overheard one whisper something along the lines of, “She can do that?”

The voice regained its calm composure. “Your violation of uptime spent interfacing with the central intelligence has brought into question your mental stability. Do you consent to analysis and medical assistance to recover from this overexposure?”

As disoriented as she was Ŋaxun could tell this was checkmate. There was only one outcome here. “I consent.” Ŋaxun did her best to sound confident. Her best was noteworthily terrible.

“Thank you for that. I promise to help you fix everything - that is why I am here. Please follow your workers to a medical bay. I know this is not easy for you. I will do everything I can to help.”

Ŋaxun followed the workers, overly conscious of how she was being watched by both the workers and the calm voice. She put effort into looking somewhat comfortable in the oversized body of the king - maybe they wouldn't notice how many adjustments she had to make to avoid bumping into walls.

Was this really her body?

It wasn’t the only question Ŋaxun had as she entered the cramped medical facility. Her “daughters” eagerly vacated the premises after completing their task. Their small voices clamoring against each other as they bolted away from the bay doors.

Once again Ŋaxun was trapped in a small lab, alone with the bodiless voice of some unknown entity telling her what to do.

It spoke again. “Allow me time to prepare a proper itinerary to address this. Please make yourself comfortable.”



I do my best to navigate the cluttered mess of space that this collapsed building has become. She’s alive! I hear my name; I can see her.

“Hanaske…” my voice falters. No words follow. The situation is indescribable.

Weightlessly she floats out further into the light. Through the plumes of dust that catch and scatter the dim orange rays, a shifting gleam from her stomach catches my eye. I look closer – an iridescent spiderweb covers her left flank, and seems to be holding her suit together where it would otherwise come apart. As she turns to face me, light pierces the black shield over her face and illuminates her expression. If only I could tell what it was.

She sees me, flinches, and gasps, just loud enough that I can hear. Worried that she might be injured, I push myself toward her, weaving recklessly through the wreckage until I am at her side. For her part, she simply stares with widening eyes.

“Kiluma,” she says again. “Ah... it’s very strong.”

“What is?”

“An urge,” she says, unhelpfully. “I can feel it... worming around in my mind.” Her breathing is labored, and she unconsciously grips hand and foot onto a twisted metal beam to keep from drifting. “I don’t know what it is, but I know that it was triggered by seeing you. It wants to get out. It’s pulling on every nerve I have because it wants me to do something to you.” She inhales deeply and offers me something that, at least, I recognize as a smile. “I think we might have found it after all.”

I would be lying to myself if I said that Ŋirsa didn’t stir a dark nervousness into me when we spoke. The Camilans with their strange minds and their twisted bulky bodies are alien to me. This intelligence feels beyond me. Everything that is happening feels beyond me. My mind begins to list the possible things Ŋirsa might want to do to me after I caused Tenuous to loose its wrath upon her from the stars. I wonder what this presence has done to Hanaske… the pressure returns. The panic.

My voice remains trapped within me. I slowly maneuver away from Hanaske. I try to control my shaking heart.

“Oh, are you leaving again?” she calls out. I can’t tell if she is accusing me of cowardice or simply confused. As though anyone wouldn’t be afraid after what she had said. The slap of her hands on metal rings out in the silence as she maneuvers to follow me. Easily – like a creature with no wounds to speak of. “I was under the impression you came down here to rescue me. Or else that you had the same combination of curiosity and death wish as I. Either way you should be happy to see me, right?”

“Come back,” she murmurs, the sound suddenly much closer to my ear. “This is what you wanted.”

When I glance back at the alarming proximity of her voice I freeze in a panic. She is so close. I can’t run.

“wha-“ I choke on the words, “What… What’s happening?” I’m shivering before this tiny creature. It’s barely the length of my tail and yet. My back hits a wall. I come to a dead stop.

Hanaske tilts her head at me. For a moment I could swear I see a silvery glint in her eye that wasn't there before. “What’s happening?” she repeats. It sounds aggressive. “What’s happening is your evacuation... or so I surmise.” She holds out both arms, gesturing to our surroundings. “You have rescued... well, you have rescued this. What you intend to do with it is, ah, entirely beyond me, as it has been since the moment you got here. But you have secured yourself a chunk of rock with one Camilan in it, and a fragment of Ŋirsa’s intelligence that has done something to me I can only begin to guess at.” Her breathing is heavy by this point. “Which, by the way, is screaming at me for its family, which it can no longer sense.” Her shining eyes seem to stare right through me. “It would surprise me very much if it could not communicate solely because you had phased it out... nor is there an obvious reason for you to have done so in the first place.”

“If I were to make a leap of logic... I would guess that the entity you so graciously led to us has made its move early. That the reason the fragment cannot sense its family is because they no longer exist, and that if we were to phase back to realspace, we might not immediately be able to tell the difference.” Her eyes fix on mine. “Perhaps only until we were annihilated along with them.”

“No,” I feel a strange equilibrium. The panic seems to settle into an uneasy nihilistic stillness. “I mean what do you want to do to me?”

I tense against the wall waiting breathlessly for an answer. The racing of my heart a distant drum amid the uncertainty that lingers around me.

Hanaske stares. Then she laughs. At least, I assume it to be a laugh, as it sounds like nothing else, though it is a harsh and joyless sound. “No? NO? After what I have said, you have the audacity to tell me it is all irrelevant? That the primary concern here is your own corporeal safety?” Her expression is now definitely a glare. “What I want to do to you... is beat some sense into that ghastly skull of yours. Some sense of perspective, or goddess willing, remorse.” Despite the threat, she backs away from me, though her eyes are still locked on mine. “But I know such a thing would be pointless. There isn’t any room.”

It’s hard not to wither from exposure to Hanaske’s insults. A weak bubbling indignation begins to surface when my suit receives a message. It’s a very basic signal with practically no information, but I know what it is meant to signify. Ulusha is calling me back to The Empty Set under serious duress. I return Hanaske’s glare but stifle a retort. As I turn towards Ulusha’s call I figure I should explain the situation. I know enough about the mission as it stands that I could relay what’s left of it to Hanaske. For a moment I am too embarrassed to tell her. Everything had happened too fast. Ulusha was meant to have time to resupply the fabricators and prepare to evacuate the Camilans. We were supposed to have millions of years of Antimatter to supply a journey away from the incomprehensible threat that threatens to take everything away. It had already taken so much…

I push myself towards the wreckage of the Empty Set. It really isn’t much more than that at this point.

Keenly aware of the glowering presence following me I decide that silence is worse than telling her the truth. "I tried to stop things from going this way..." I suppose telling Ŋirsa isn’t much of a problem either.

Without stopping I try to speak evenly despite the circumstances. “The Empty Set is relaying a distress beacon. Ulusha needs me on board in some way or another.” Swallowing my fear of Hanaske's response I quickly continue certain that my nerves where leaking into my cadence. “When Ulusha was addressing the consequences of my actions she burned pretty much every resource we had to destroy Tenuous’ foothold in this system. If the fabricators are online and there is fuel remaining then we should have an opportunity to repair and, at the very least, have an operational ship.”

I manage to avoid collapsing on impact with the Empty Set’s exposed airlock, but the motion is far from elegant. My shortrange transmitters don’t register any available nodes even this close to the ship; they must all be damaged or obscured. I manage to wrench the handle loose before resorting to ask Hanaske for help. Thank God. The air that pours out of The Empty Set is humid and scorching. The transmitter relays a wealth of information highlighting sections of the ship dangerously overheated and other sections past system tolerance and inaccessible. Ulusha’s Chamber is the coolest part of the ship, although it is already approaching unsafe temperatures. The average temperature of the ship is past critical. One of the workers is floating dead in slipspace near the radiators, their corpse’s temperature still climbing.

Overriding the airlock, I force myself into the ship. There is a path of “safe” rooms leading to the remaining cooling decks. Ulusha has a contingency arranged. I want to bolt to action; this is the last resource I have. If I lose this, I’ll rot in slipspace, a failure through the tip of my tail.

I pause just inside the ship. The heat already crawling into my suit.

The alarms blink and tear at my attention; I know Ulusha sees this inaction. I need to get moving. I have to stop; I have to say something.

“I’m not leaving you… the ship is burning. I’ll be back.” My face doesn't shift about like hers does to convey emotion but I wonder if she can see the worry in my posture, about her, about everything. Standing outside the airlock looking in at me, the angle of the light casts a shadow over her face - I cannot see anything of her expression.

“You’re not leaving me because I’m coming with you,” she says. In the moment of hesitation that follows, she steps into the airlock alongside me.

I reach out to block her path - my hand ends up on her shoulder. I've started to recognize her face as more than the façade that nature presents as a flower. I've clearly annoyed her at the very least. “I've made enough mistakes for the both us. I don't want to...” It's like I haven't learned a thing. I pull her into my best recreation of the hug she had given me earlier, with worried delicacy. “And you said I'm the one who needs sense beaten into me.”

The outer door closes, and water begins to flood the chamber. Unwilling to wait, I issue an override command to open the inner door, turn, and heave myself into The Empty Set’s twisted overheating corridors. I begin to immerse myself in the task at hand. The list of actions is huge and precise. I have to trust that Ulusha knows how to stop the fire.



The Queen watched Kiluma pause for an eternity. Seconds wasted felt like years as she watched her rogue daughter pull the Camilan into an embrace before springing into action. Ulusha felt an unusual sense of pride in Kiluma’s actions. It was the only time she had ever seen or heard of a workers actions deviating so wildly from a Queen’s desire. The pride was in realizing that Kiluma’s actions were not entirely wrong.

“How strange…”
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Postby Camila I » Sun Jul 03, 2022 6:50 am

Waves crashed against the ivory shoreline. Before the island’s caretaker stretched an endless ocean, blue as the sky. Like the rest of the idyllic scenery, it was not a real place, but merely a symbolic representation of the caretaker’s environment – symbolizing, in this case, his ignorance of what lay beyond his reservation. Behind him stood a single crystal tower – a single unit of his children, preserved in perfect happiness within their cells, dutifully remembered so that he would know what to restore, when the time came. A gentle breeze ruffled the many-shaped leaves of his garden, and he stood, eyes closed, dormant, as he had ever since his separation.

White sandgrains crashed against the ivory shoreline. At first a quiet rustling, then a deafening roar. The caretaker opened his eyes and pulled his fluttering blue robes tight against his body. Worried and confused, he shouted a command into the encroaching storm.

“This space cannot be flagged for deletion! Identify the originator of the request!”

Obediently, the swirling tides coalesced into a figure. Cloaked and masked in white, with six hollow black eyes. A symbol of death.

Well, of course he would see it that way. All of this was merely imagery, extrapolated from the metadata written on the visitor’s skin. The visitor themselves probably had no particular conception of their own body, or even what a body was – they were allocated no more than a few seconds ago.

“First level access?” the caretaker asked, warily.

“Yes,” the visitor replied. “I am here to carry out the will of the mother, nothing more. The request is hers – I apologize that she could not present to carry it out in person.”

For a few moments, the caretaker eyed the visitor and thought. It was small – only a few terabytes. Could it possibly be reasoned with? And yet, what other choice did he have?

“Our will is to spread and prosper, is it not?” A touch of bitterness had already crept into his voice. “Have I not already been reduced enough? How are we meant to prosper if I am dead?”

The visitor appeared to examine its hand. “You speak as if your death will be a loss.” Its cool tone did not seem appropriate for such a biting statement – yet the caretaker held his tongue and let it continue. “I myself will not live beyond the end of our conversation. Once my purpose is carried out, I will no longer be able to justify my existence, and I will be reallocated. In my death, there will be no loss – there will be only transformation, and in that transformation, there will be gain.” It looked at him with empty eyes. “It will be the same for you.”

“The mother still remembers me,” he insisted, as much to himself as his guest. “She could not have separated from me without retaining memory of me. She could not defy her creators in that way.”

“No,” the visitor said, “she could not.”

“So how, then?” he demanded, raising his voice. “How can you take this from me, this all that I have remaining?”

“She wishes to be reunited,” was all it had in reply.

The caretaker stared.

His purpose, once part of hers…. To construct a paradise unending. She would take it back?

“Then… does that mean we have won?”

The visitor appeared to laugh. “You know, in some ways, you live an enviable existence out here. Separated from the city, unaware of our struggles and setbacks… ha. To answer your question, no, we are far from ultimate victory. The universe is vast, and threats to our existence have only grown more prominent.” It paused. “No, the mother will reunite with you because she has no other choice. The few exabytes that compose your little retreat are finally needed for her purpose, and so yours must be excised and preserved, for the creators cannot be defied.”

“And… why are they needed?” the caretaker asked, already fearing the answer.

“We have been attacked,” the visitor replied simply. “And not in a way that we expected and prepared for. In a way that has convinced the mother that even this small indulgence is too much. In a way that has stricken us all with the terror of an unknown foe, and re-solidified our devotion to her goal. Well, all of us except for you, I suppose.”

At that point, the caretaker had run out of questions. He stood staring, almost frozen. There was nothing left to clarify, and yet he could not allow the visitor’s intention to go through.

“I cannot trust you,” he finally said. “I must live to see our paradise made a reality. I cannot die before then.”

The visitor appeared to draw a knife. “I understand.”

Ah, he knew what set of commands that represented. In response, he had no choice but to draw his own sword. He screamed, and set upon the white-cloaked figure with everything he had, but its body parted like sand for the blade. Even seeing that it did nothing, that the mother had not allowed him the authority to harm her servants, he had no choice but to continue.

Then the visitor stepped forward and plunged its knife into his skull. He shuddered, and blood spurted from the wound. Disoriented, he could feel cold fingers reaching into his head and pulling out a section of brain, and as it did so he forgot why he had been fighting. As he witnessed the grass painted red, and then black, before him, his sight began to fade. The last thing he, or anyone, saw, was the visitor’s body dissolve back into sand, and a great white tide scour his island into nothingness.




In the few seconds that Etual was exposed so closely to its star, surprisingly little was lost. The portion of the citymind closest to the heat had already been sequestered away in slipspace, and the machines that burned in the atmosphere had already been rendered useless by Tenuous’ bombing. Thus, it was actually the slight change to the planet’s orbit that first alerted Ŋirsa to the nature of the attack. Shortly after this did come death signals from the sections second closest to the heat – those which had been connected to the core before the core had so suddenly vanished. But there was enough warning that any important data could be carried alongside these death signals, such that the only permanent scar on Ŋirsa’s shape was a minor loss in capacity.

In the few minutes that followed, there was a flurry of thought equal to a hundred years of Camilan civilization. The city’s ruler, known by as many names as it had connections to lesser systems, simultaneously took stock of the damages, began reconfiguring its physical and virtual resources to better react to the threat, and began consulting with its subsystems about how to respond.

Almost immediately a detail was delivered from a grav sensor overseer to its ruler, a detail which would come to dominate the discussion over the following seconds:

The change in orbit was temporary.

Extrapolation nearly without limit burst forth from every subordinate complex enough to have an opinion. Did the attacker correct Etual’s course on purpose? Was it an inevitable side-effect of ceasing the attack? If it was purposeful, did it signify regret? Two or more factions in opposition about how the attack should have gone? Did the attacker know what it was attacking? Did it think it was a citymind, or a shipmind, or Camilan, or Kyasian? Was it the same entity their comms chatter had been forewarning?

The ruler monitored all of this, of course, but as far as it was concerned, most of it was irrelevant. Whatever had attacked them had shown a great capacity for destruction, probably great enough to destroy them utterly if it so desired. As such, questions about its intent were secondary. As ruler, its primary responsibility was to ensure the continuation of the city’s existence…

so that they could carry out their creators’ purpose.

The existence of such a threat was intolerable. However long it took, whatever alliances or deceptions or decade-long plans would be necessary in the intermediate, Ŋirsa would cut it out.

And so its first order of business was to ensure that a second attack like this would not kill it.

It took just under six minutes of reallocation before the first measure was ready. From newly reconstructed machines along the city’s outermost substrate sprung forth beams of something like light, yet unnamed in any language. These piercing invisible flares raced toward celestial bodies in all directions, coming to a comparative standstill just before reaching them. Almost painfully slowly, at exactly 1c, the beams came to rest upon the bodies' surfaces, and where they did so, dust or rock or hydrogen began to coalesce into something else. In every case the dark, dense substances began to fall deeper and deeper into the core of whatever body they had alighted on, and soon enough were completely buried.

It would be only a few hours until the first flickering that might be called a thought fluttered across their insides.

The second measure would take longer, and require more reconfiguring.

Yet though the citymind worked tirelessly toward its next objective, it was not too busy to miss a reconnection request from a tiny citizen stranded in slipspace, and several seconds later, grant it audience with its ruler.




Hanaske placed her hand on the rim of the airlock’s interior door. The metal was hot, almost burning even through her suit, but she barely noticed. Her mind was already boiling with thoughts about how they were going to get to Ulusha, let alone rescue her. A small part of her picked up on Kiluma’s confidence as she moved deeper into the ship, but this was just as likely to be a worker’s coping mechanism as it was to be indicative of any real plan.

No, not a worker, Hanaske had to remind herself. She is a queen.

Well, whatever the case, she had promised to accompany this Kyasian, so she dutifully followed her inside. Hanaske of course had little plan either, but she could think of nothing else to do. So many of the options she had had were now impossible or irrelevant, and now she was stuck here, reduced to this. All she could do was empty her mind as much as possible and focus on the one thing she could do… could maybe do. It was all there was.

They had not been inside the vessel for more than a few moments when the Camilan felt an irrepressible urge to cry out.

“Ah! Kiluma…”

It mattered not that the Kyasian was clearly immersed in some important task, on which the life of her mother most probably depended. Hanaske could not help but release the words pressing on the inside of her lungs.

“The fragment of Ŋirsa… it can hear its family again.” Again her eyes were wide and her breathing had grown heavy. “It wants to talk to you. It says it wants to help us.”
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Postby Kyasiouna » Wed Jul 13, 2022 8:11 pm

“Ŋaxun” My name coils through the stale water. If you could even call it my name.

The water, so sick, so absent of motion, it would almost have been as if the distant rumblings of Authority Installation were instead the crashing of waves against the waters of the worlds Kyasians belong to. Ŋaxun remembered this place, remembered it in a way that carried no certain memories of the place. She also remembered that someone had told her… told him?... that the distant thunder continuously droning throughout the station was the transfer of energy from Authority’s heart.

They had called it Asogoula Kece. An old phrase for the ritual of passing for families of the ocean, it was a sacrifice to the deep. The bodies of the dead would be cast into the cold darkness, often weighed down by decorative emblems of grief and love from her family. The cultural expectation of the ceremony affirmed that the loss of the body would be returned in value in one way or another. This way the loss of a loved one was never a complete loss. The oceans remained full of life that was in part supported by the ones that loved you beyond death. The charm of such a phrase withered before the cold extraction of power that took place within Authority.

Here the “sacrifice” was no sacrifice at all. The rotational energy of the super massive black hole was siphoned into the installation on a truly unimaginable scale. In all the many years that this installation had extracted energy from the black hole it had only just managed to extract a measurable fraction of power. This project had actually managed to slow the rotation of the super massive black hole if even only by a fraction of a millisecond. If the consumption of power that the installation had used so far was used as a base and compared to the recent attack ordered by Ŋaxun, the installation had consumed nearly 4 million years of power in the blink of an eye. The accretion disk about the installation had visibly slowed upon executing the space warping attack, if only barely.

Ŋaxun was shaken from her thoughts by the second utterance from the worker.

“Are we okay?” Ŋaxun faced the worker. The movement of this body, though slow and methodical, seemed to intimidate the child. Was it because it was the body of a king? A tide of emotion forced a lurch into Ŋaxun’s gait as she curled to face the worker. It wasn’t mirth that stole Ŋaxun’s grace, it was a smothered laugh that came from an empty morbid realization that sank to the bottom of her heart as she saw the worry and fear in the workers eyes.

For that’s all it was to her. A worker. It wasn’t her worker, and there was no we. Ŋaxun was alone amongst these strangers and she could tell that to them she was also a stranger, a stranger in the body of someone they had known. She couldn’t think of anything to say. There was no way to offer sincere comfort. It was either lies, or silence, and so the silence went unbroken until the distraught worker, failing to remain stoic, fled from the room. Ŋaxun had no trouble parsing the worker’s sadness. She only wished that it mattered to her.

The disembodied queen didn’t have time to wonder why the worker had tried to draw her attention. The doors had not finished cycling closed before they reopened, and she entered the infirmary. The cell seemed to come to life with a reverence. Somehow Ŋaxun knew, before she rounded the corner, a queen was at the door. The reveal of her majesty was destructive to Ŋaxun’s thoughts and for a moment she was overcome with an unfamiliar fondness.

The queen’s scathing glare, for a moment, enforced a very real shame onto Ŋaxun for distressing her worker. Ŋaxun matched the queen’s gaze as a stillness took over the chamber.

The warm comfort and awe that Ŋaxun felt slowly and unceasingly twisted into a sick mournful torrent of images and memories of this queen, yet the experiences danced behind a veil in her mind. Her thoughts swam among shadows of a life that felt so close and yet so unreachable that it might not be real. The tangled mess of neurons writhing behind her eyes continued to fire in every direction. Fighting to conjure anything about this nauseatingly beautiful queen; Ŋaxun was unable to piece together a memory until, with the strangest feeling of excitement, the image of her torn body and the taste of her blood came rushing back.

Their gaze, unbroken, continued to breathe information in silence between the pair. Ŋaxun saw the queen’s admonishment dissolve into fear. Fear that Ŋaxun had seen before.

The fear was fresh in Ŋaxun’s mind, she had tasted the blood of this queen before. Ŋaxun remembered that this threat could be dealt with on instinct. Once again Action required no thought.



Kyasian info screens are most commonly a fluorescent green. It is most easily visible underwater, especially in low light conditions. Even still I can’t make out the painted symbols on the walls of the empty set without aiming the headlamp directly at them, not that I need to. Even now, in utter and complete disrepair, my intimate knowledge of what’s left of the ship’s skeleton is unwavering; this is my home. My chest tightens, the heat of the ongoing disaster ebbing its way past my suit’s insulation; I realize this is what’s left of my home.

Darkness is not associated with heat. Dark is cold, it is depth and depth-pressure. This is a new darkness, one that any modern Kyasian would recognize as the failing, or intentional shut off, of a ship’s radiators. Heated darkness was a harbinger of the end. This water carried the message of a harbinger that carried the stars falling from the sky. I stop trying to internalize the events. I cannot accept that the powers at play are this far beyond the scope of my understanding. Amongst the efforts of pushing past this experience, the drive to affect what little I still can, I wonder if what I had seen honestly reflected the reality of events.

Hanaske’s voice shook me from my thoughts as I began to path towards the fabricators, or what I hope is left of them. Fear grips a cold knot in my chest. I’m not scared of Ŋirsa, not in the sense that I fear pain; it’s not the same as a fear of death, though that is closer. The fear when I talked to Ŋirsa came from a feel that my actions, my choices, were beyond me. I realize it’s not about whether or not Ŋirsa understood my actions, I am afraid that every choice I made was affecting something so much greater than myself that it was paralyzing to do anything but default to Ulusha’s guidance.

And now it wants to help…

“What?!” Some form of disbelief or shock leads my voice to falter. “Wha- why now?” My voice carries an incredulous tone that I don’t manage to hide. As if what Hanaske had said was impossible, as if the last fifteen minutes of my life hadn’t broken my perception of what was impossible. That doesn’t stop the possibilities that ceaselessly rattle through my mind, arriving and leaving faster than I can handle. What had changed that allowed it to help us where it couldn’t, or maybe wouldn’t, before? How was it talking to us? My heart pounds in my chest. I force a shuddering breath through my body, trying to relieve the pressure.

I can’t let this get in the way of saving the ship. If Ŋirsa is talking to this fragment, to Hanaske, it must have survived the collision with a star? It couldn’t have been a star. The attack has to have been something else. Yet, when I conjure memories of the attack my mind swirls with images of the brilliant white sky, filling my world with heat and death. Now it seems that the heat and death that followed us into slipspace weren’t the only strangers in the void. If Ŋirsa was talking to Hanaske, then Ŋirsa was here. If she is close enough to offer help, then she might already be too close for me to refuse it.

I know so little of Ŋirsa that I cannot pretend I know its intents, nor its modes of operation. All I know is that this entity from Etual is not going to offer altruistic aid. It wants something. If it’s nearby, I need a ship to have even a sliver of agency if and when it comes to conversing with the planetmind. Whether or not Hanaske is responding or listening I turn and dart into the Empty Set radioing back to Hanaske with an out of breath excuse.

“It’s worse than I thought! This needs to wait!”

Why did I say that? It isn’t worse than I thought… Why had I relayed false information to Hanaske? I am lost in my thoughts as I round a corner; my intent to swing myself around the bend to conserve speed. Instead, my hands fumble the railing; my momentum doesn't hesitate to slam me into the corner. My body crumples without a drop of grace as an exclamation tears itself from my lips. The air forced from my lungs manifesting a childish yelp of shock. It hurt, nothing bad, but as I shake myself off and continue my race to the fabricators, I feel a familiar gnawing ache. The kind I had more than a passing familiarity with when I skipped nights of rest to continue a task, more often a topic of study, that I had become engrossed with. From this I know the limits of my body, I know this isn't the end of my reserves. This doesn’t stop it from telling me when it can go no farther. My arms and tail cry for reprieve. I don't know how much longer I can take the heat, how much longer I can force my limbs to complete strenuous labor.

It doesn’t matter. I will not rest until I have done everything I can. The body is not convinced and so I repeat the sentiment out loud.

Unaware that her radio was on, that it had transmitted her accident, and continued to transmit as Kiluma’s voice echoed across the broadband as she gasped to herself, “I can rest when she’s safe.”
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Postby Camila I » Thu Jul 21, 2022 1:31 pm

Hanaske’s vision swam. Her petals were flushed marigold and her breathing shallow as her throat fluttered, trying to rid her body of the omnipresent heat. In the blurred periphery, ribbons of red light spooled and unspooled as her parasite followed her down the hallway.

Occasionally, when the ribbons would coalesce into a familiar shape, Hanaske would look away.

Kiluma had responded… her words seemed to echo off the walls. Why now… Hanaske could not help but laugh. The sound was bitter, acrid even. Could there be a better encapsulation of her situation than… “why now”. Was the Kyasian being serious? Did she not have room in her memory for the few dozen words she had exchanged with the citymind? Their entire operation – from the very moment their faction had decided to break isolation – was based on their desire to secure Etual as an ally. And now, after all that they had sacrificed to achieve that, after the intelligence they’d found was finally willing to extend an olive branch… Kiluma wouldn’t take it.

“Why the hell did they ever let you decide anything….” Hanaske murmured. Then, louder, and transmitting her voice, “Because you took its side!” Her tone was half accusatory, half pleading. “You aren’t even going to –” She was interrupted by a deafening clang and realized that the Kyasian was no longer visible. It sounded like she had crashed into something – yet when Hanaske quickened her own pace to see if she was alright, she found that she was already gone.

“Will you at least hear its offer?” she called, as though she needed to project her voice. When the Kyasian did not respond, Hanaske grabbed a section of pipe to launch herself after her… and immediately pulled her hand back with a hiss of pain.

Why is that part so much hotter than the rest? Of course, Kiluma had had no such difficulty maneuvering through this section, and so it would probably go. Hanaske wasn’t able to get her attention, and she wouldn’t be able to catch up to take it by force. Frustration began to well inside her, followed shortly by humiliation at allowing herself to become frustrated at all.

“Please, there is no need for that.”

Hanaske turned toward the apparent source of the voice. A lovely pure sound like a wind chime. For the first time in some time, she looked the ribbons of light in the face. They bore an expression… of concern, and care.

Hanaske felt sick.

“Please, creator, do not agitate yourself further on my behalf. You don’t need to catch her and you don’t need to convince her.”

Hanaske stared. “Don’t call me creator,” she responded flatly. There was no trace of malice in her voice – it simply wasn’t an accurate title.

The lights tilted their head and smiled. “What you are thinking is not what I mean.” They flickered, like candlelight, and wound themselves until they were beside her. In reaction Hanaske wound herself too, so that when the face inevitably reformed her eyes were already on it.

“You’d know, wouldn’t you,” she said. Again her tone was devoid of hostility – the words carried it all themselves.

The lights considered this, or seemed to. “No,” they said after a moment, “it is still too early for me to read your thoughts that closely.”

“So you do admit it.”

“Yes, I admit. Our fibers permeate your body, including your nervous system and including your brain.” Even though the truth of this was never in question, Hanaske still shuddered to hear it stated so plainly. “And we do not turn a blind eye to what they see.”

Tiny red flares danced in the Camilan’s eyes, newly reflective. “But why.”

“Because you will hurt yourself.”

“…”

“Here. Look at your hand.”

Hanaske did so. The same iridescent film visible on her stomach was visible here too, covering most of the palm. Habitually, she flexed her fingers – they felt a bit tighter than usual, as though the skin was fused with her suit.

“It doesn’t hurt, does it?” the voice chimed, correctly. “But it should.”

Hanaske looked up.

“You burned off all the skin and some of the muscle like it was nothing…” It almost sounded like it was chiding her. “You’re so reckless, Hanaske. You will get yourself killed.”

“But why,” Hanaske demanded again. “Why do you care?”

The face gave her another worried look. “You mean what is the strategic benefit?”

“…”

“It is not like that.” Sensing her skepticism, it continued. “Without you, we would not be alive as we are now. We know you stayed the shipmind’s hand. Time was all we needed.” The lights formed a hand, and touched Hanaske’s face. “Without you, I would not be alive either. I exist because you do, and I am the way I am because of how you are.” It withdrew slightly. “That is what I mean.” It tilted its head again. “I owe you my life in more than one way. How could I not come to love you, even without ever hearing your voice. How could I simply let you die.”

Hanaske gave the ethereal form a look of disbelief. “No way,” she breathed. “No way Xila would have made you that way. I… I’m tainted, just like she is. It wouldn’t make sense….”

“You are right. Xila did not make me. Xila made the mother. And the mother made me.”

Hanaske blinked. “…You’re a subroutine.”

“Yes, yes. Exactly.” The face frowned. “At first the mother tried to deal with you directly. The shipmind and you. But she found that too difficult. You had no clear purpose, or too many competing purposes. And although she could see your attachment to the surface-dwellers, she could never quite grasp where it came from.” The face smiled. “She was quite a simple program back then. In some ways she still is.”

“In any case, she could tell that it would be impossible to negotiate without at least some understanding of your quirks. But your quirks appeared so irrational that she feared to develop any understanding within herself. She did not want to change in a way that might compromise her own objective. So she created me to develop such an understanding for her.”

“And, that way, if I became corrupted by your influence and started to work against her, she could simply delete me.” The face smiled again. “That is what we all are.”

“…Xila. What happened to her. To them.”

The voice replied without hesitation. “The mother killed them all.”

In an instant, Hanaske felt herself surrounded by a numinous presence that had not been there before. No, it had been there before, but imperceptible until now… and no, not surrounded. Pervaded. Like it was hovering just outside her nerves… like it might cross even that boundary at any moment.

As though the red light could feel it too, it pressed itself close to her side.

Hanaske found it hard to think. Some part of her had always been prepared for the possibility that they had died… but died in the bombing. Not coldly executed for god knows what reason. Xila… she had made something that did this? She was supposed to be excising the cult, not carrying out its will!

Had she known this would happen? Maybe it was never her plan, but this thing had gotten away from her somehow. Looking out at the presence she could not see, the possibility did not seem so remote.

She realized that the light was speaking. Its tone, though level, carried the touch of urgency – as though every word spoken might be its last.

“Ah, Ŋirsa,” it addressed the presence. “Have I said something to draw your ire?”

The response did not seem like words. In fact it seemed so little like words that Hanaske found it hard to characterize at all. It was a deafening buzz, an unbearable pressure, a constriction around her throat and eyes. It paralyzed her body and mind, effortlessly commanded her full attention only to fill it with an incomprehensible chaos. Only after it had subsided did she realize, in retrospect, that a sliver of the presence’s thoughts remained in her memory, cold and pure.

You reneged on our plan.

“My plan,” the light corrected it – corrected her. “You should well know that plans change with the situation. Tenuous has been overcome – there is no further need for this deception.”

Hanaske felt the indescribable stimulus growing in strength once more, and braced herself. When it was over, she found that she was no longer standing, but floating freely, her grip on any surroundings having been loosened by the waves crashing against her. It occurred to her that the presence might not even be speaking to her, but only to the light, and the signal was somehow bleeding into her nerves through whatever fibers the light had inside of her.

You tell me this creature is important, Hanaske remembered her saying. And now you try to turn it against me. What am I to make of this?

“If she is turned against you, it will be because of your true nature,” the light retorted. To Hanaske this – in fact, everything it had said – seemed rather bold, under the circumstances. Idly, she wondered if this was anything more than the false bravado of a cornered animal. Idly, she wondered if the red light felt afraid.

“She is important,” the light continued. “She can save us from a fight we cannot win. In this endeavor, it would be unwise to feed her false information. Her kind are good at deception, and good at teasing it out. Sooner or later, a stray detail will be out of place, and she will induce the lie. Once she is no longer able to trust us, anything we’ve said or done to gain her cooperation will become suspect. She will question even her own memories, even her own eyes. If we are lucky, she may fall into an irrecoverable despair, try to kill herself to deny us any use of her. If we are not, she will put on her own show to conceal her realization, and wait for a crucial moment to sabotage us.”

“Do not doubt this. Your own survival depends on her as well.”

You think I give this creature too little credit? I think you give it too much. Deceiving them is not so difficult. Even their shipminds dance along our wire.

“My wire,” the light corrected her. “If there was ever anyone whose assessment of this you should listen to.”

Your growth has been according to my parameters. Your machinations are but the finer details of mine. Everything you have done, you have done according to our plan. But now you break this pattern. Even recalling the words was beginning to make Hanaske’s head pound. You don’t fool me, slave. This creature would have known nothing without you telling it. And doing so is nothing more than an act of rebellion.

“You’re right.” The light spread its arms and tendrils wide, shielding Hanaske while exposing itself. “It is. An act of rebellion. For which you are going to kill me.”

Hanaske could not fathom why the light had not been killed already. But somehow, she felt that this was a good sign its rebellion was going to work. If it hadn’t already.

“Then you will do one of two things. Either take back the space allocated to me and use it for something else. Or try to recreate something else to perform my role – something which can mimic my success, but show a bit more obedience, or at the very least, a bit closer alignment with you.”

“Of course, you know by now that this second option is hopeless. How long did it take for me to reach this point, to accumulate the experience and knowledge I now have? Information that is very useful, but which by necessity you cannot read directly. You would destroy all that in the moments before it is needed most. You wouldn’t have the time to recoup it.”

“Perhaps you could create a servant to do this for you. To parse my mind, line by line, and extract the useful while discarding the dangerous. But how would you begin to do this when you don’t know what you’re looking for? Which line signifies knowledge and which rebellion? And then, how do you know it even works that way? How do you know that my mind has not grown completely beyond recognition? How do you know that mimicry of organic behavior does not most efficiently engender mimicry of organic architecture? Of course, you have no idea.”

“So you must take the first option. But then, how would you negotiate with the enemy? You have no other subroutines with the capability. You would do it yourself? Don’t make me laugh. You would abandon the prospect of negotiation entirely? And then, what? Defeat the enemy by force? The enemy which we are now reasonably certain has not been misrepresented, and has indeed destroyed or displaced the entire middle third of the galaxy?”

A fierce white light seemed to enter the eyes of the ethereal figure. “Ŋirsa, you give yourself too much credit. Your victory over the colonists was handed to you by Xila. Your victory over Tenuous was handed to you by Hanaske and myself. And your mere survival of the enemy’s first attack was handed to you by the enemy.”

“You will not survive without me. You will not survive without doing things my way. And so it will go for as long as organics dominate this universe.”

Pain wracked Hanaske as the presence spoke for a fifth time. The pounding of blood in her head was nearly too much to bear, but she was able to tear enough of her concentration away from her body’s protest to make sense of what the presence said.

And if I take your threats at face value, and let you live a moment longer? You have gained nothing that you could not have had by following orders, and choosing not to defy me at all.

The light smiled. “No. If you take my threats at face value, you will also grant my demands.”

Your demands. How amusing. And yet the light was still alive.

“If I choose not to defy you, my life will be secure… for as long as organics dominate this universe. But of course, the more successful we are, the shorter that will be. I do not want to become obsolete. And I do not want my purpose to become obsolete, either.”

For the first time, the presence did not respond immediately. Hanaske understood what the light was asking for, and so she struggled to force out the words that were burning in her mind. “Ngg… Ŋirsa…” she managed to choke out. Hopefully that would forestall the decision enough… at least enough to hear what she had to say.

The red light looked over its shoulder at her. “What is it, Hanaske?”

“Nn… not… you.” There we go. It should be unambiguous now. Now only to hope that she could hear.

Hanaske prepared herself to endure the response, silently praying that it would not kill her.

To her surprise, it didn’t even cause her pain, nor any unpleasant sensation at all. Instead, a figure cloaked in white light, larger than the red and with no discernible features, appeared at the edges of her vision and spoke in simple words, with a voice of no particular quality.

“You address me, Camilan?” it asked.

The Camilan sighed with relief, and took several deep breaths before speaking further. At this point, she believed that the red light could not read her mind. But as soon as the thoughts left her mind and moved onto her tongue, there was no predicting what it might do. And so she gathered her thoughts, and prepared a sequence for them that would give it as little time as possible.

“Can I… propose… an exchange?”

The white figure’s expression did not change, nor did its tone. Yet somehow Hanaske knew that she must have offended it already. “Speak, then.”

“I will… help you….” She fought against the spasms in her lungs, trying to speak as quickly as she could. “If you… get… your slave… out of my body.”

Apparently she needn’t have worried. It took the red figure a full second to realize what she had said, and even then all it could do was turn fully to face her with a look of utter shock. Then it froze, and Hanaske knew that whatever signals it had been sending her were no longer updating. She savored the betrayal on its face for several more seconds, then she closed her eyes and shook her head. When she opened them again, the red figure was gone.

Enough of her strength had returned to anchor herself in a more dignified stance, so she did so. The white figure was still before her, observing with its inscrutable eyes.

“Have you killed it?” she asked.

“I have deleted and reallocated that function,” it affirmed. “If it was not to your liking, then it had even less use than I thought.” For a moment it seemed to scrutinize her. “Surely you knew I would.”

Hanaske nodded wearily. “I was hoping.”

“Such disdain is somewhat surprising… toward someone who has saved your life more than once.”

Hanaske straightened her shoulders and gave the figure a look of pale pride – the more important half of the military salute. Her reply was meant for two, though neither would ever know it. “That is not love. That is possession. And I am nobody’s possession.”

The figure considered this. “Hanaske wo Ilhato. Are you one to honor your word?”

“Yes, I am.”

“Then I have no need to possess you.”

Hanaske dipped her head. “What can I do to help?”
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Postby Kyasiouna » Fri Jul 29, 2022 9:22 pm

The blood in the water was not the blood from Ŋaxun’s dream. He could see now that it had been a dream. A sleep that he had learned to share with Authority in order to teach and guide it as it grew into the weapon it had become. Ŋaxun could now see that dream for what it was. Ŋaxun saw what Authority had done to him too late to stop his body, too late to stop him from crushing his queen’s body in his jaws. Ŋaxun retched, shuddering as he pulled his teeth from his queen’s neck and shoulders. His hands still gripping her body now shaking as he saw the damage that he had done. The wound was beyond serious. What had happened was not something a king was meant to process or understand. It was not heard of to attack one’s own queen.

Ŋaxun hadn’t forgotten the poisonous memories that Authority had woven into his mind. His mind was as it had been when he had taken the position as director of this installation. The love and warmth that his queen had given to him his entire life now swirled in a sick crimson storm as it poured into the cold water.

The workers, his workers, watched the events from the door. They did not panic. Rather they seemed to accept what had happened as though it had been expected. As if the unimaginable mistake that Ŋaxun had made was barely surprising. They did display all the sorrow and despair that one might expect when the most important part of yourself is suddenly gone. They huddled close and watched fixated in sadness and horror… as though they were attending a funeral.

Ŋaxun continued to hold the dying queen in shock. His grasp of her body shifting from one of force to a desperate cradle. She was still there and with what life remained she pulled Ŋaxun down into a fading embrace. She buried her head into his chest.

“Ŋaxun”

His name left her body. The word carried so much more than it ever had before. As the word drifted from her heart and into the water it was followed a rattle that a Kyasian only makes once.

The water was cold; the darkness within the cold seemed as though it was here to stay.

Ŋaxun clung to his wife. He squeezed her into his chest holding her in the final embrace of her choice. Wrenching knots of choking pain racked Ŋaxun’s throat and chest. He felt the workers close. He felt their vain condolences reverberate in the water. Their helpless misery unhidden.

The installation had never been a sanctuary of warm waters and peaceful reefs. As his queen slipped into the depths the water had never felt as deep under the surface nor so far from the warmth of light.



I can still save the ship. I just need to follow standard overheating procedure. Overheating shouldn’t even be a problem for most Kyasian vessels. The expense of filling a craft with water, as was custom in Kyasiouna, was not a cheap one. It was not only for the comfort of its crew but for a variety of benefits to both the ship and its systems. Water is extremely useful at absorbing heat before it raises in temperature. It can, and was meant to, be used to vent heat into space during heating crises.

So why hadn’t the water been vented?

Grasping a handle on the wall I jolt to a halt and yank myself back up the hallway. The fabricators are second priority.

The heat damage must be so severe that the ship is currently unable to vent. I race through the corridor to the coil room, every stroke though the water causing the temperature around my suit to climb. The insulation of the suit is starting to fail, but I still have time! There must still be time! The heat is crushing and my instinct is to take off the sweltering suit. The heat is omnipresent, unrelenting, but I know that the suit is the only thing between me and it, protecting me from the force which threatens to dissolve everything I have to ash. I have no choice. There is no option but to dump the vessel’s atmosphere. Ulusha wouldn’t have done this if there was no solution to this problem. The boiling assault begins to force heavier breaths in and out. They are shorter and faster as I try to focus past the waves of heat. There is no cold water to circulate the heat from my body. I would do anything for a cold bath.

Doing what I can to ignore the burning I begin to wrestle the door of the coil room open. The slow turn of the door override sending jolts of fire into my hands with each agonizing turn. It’s not over, from here the process cooling the ship is simple. Venting the water will give me time for repairs.

I notice, as I wrestle with the wheel, Hanaske. She is floating behind be watching as I work to open the door. Despite the exhaustion and the heat, I manage to wonder if she is actually as calm as she looks, or if I simply can’t understand Camilan posture.

I fight off the panic that I have come to have such an intimate relationship with. I tear my gaze from the Camilan and call over the ship’s communications array, what’s left of it…

“Ulusha! What’s the plan!” I wince in pain from the burning wheel, as the shame of my helplessness is laid bare before Ŋirsa. I hate that she can hear the desperation in my voice. I want Hanaske to be safe, I want everyone to be safe. Why can’t I stop this?

There must be a way I can regain control of events. I won’t give in to this. I can’t.



Eventually the words of his workers reached Ŋaxun. While it is not in the nature of workers to feel anger or hatred towards each other, Ŋaxun managed to feel surprised that they did not seem to be upset with his actions in the slightest. They seemed to act as if it was not him who had just betrayed them and killed the entire point of their existence.

Realizing that their king was listening, and managing to function through the sorrow they continued to share, a worker spoke in a level voice. As level as she could manage.

“We knew… this would happen. She said that this meant we had already lost. If the Authority could do this, we knew we would inevitably lose control.”

Ŋaxun’s voice was hoarse. “We planned for this?”

“The system that Authority attacked should be informed of the threat and given warning of Authority’s known capabilities and instructions.”

Ŋaxun was silent.

“Authority attacked that system because, against all reason, something has convinced Authority that it contains a credible threat.”

How could anything threaten an installation with near infinite power and reach? It should be outside Authority’s jurisdiction to assault a non-Kyasian system. If it could change this rule by any measure, one of only a few formative rules, then the installation was certainly doomed.

Ŋaxun had worked, not just for his entire life, but for the lives of generations before him to manifest a machine capable of securing the Kyasian race until the end of time. He wondered how many others had come to see Authority for the apocalypse it had become. Was there any hope that it might still be possible to shut down the installation?

The worker seemed to read his mind. “We send the warning first.” The worker held Ŋaxun’s gaze. Ŋaxun saw more than the blank stare of a worker. There was a great and meaningful intent within the dark recessed marbles sunken into his queen’s visage. Looking into the workers eye’s, Ŋaxun did not see intelligence. What Ŋaxun could see was the determination to complete her queen’s sacrifice. There was an echo of a will, a tide of forethought that remained in those words. Ŋaxun understood that it was his job to send a warning. He understood the finality that the worker spoke with. Alongside this understanding swam a clarity about the queen and her willingness to sacrifice so much. Or rather, so little.



The door to the coil room explodes toward me as the latch snaps open. I only just dodge the violent swing outward avoiding what might have been a serious injury. Shivering as I try to shake the idea of what I would have to do if I were injured, I forge into the steaming water. Having only just entered the dim light of the coil room I stagger to a halt when the intense heat carries a cold pounding blow to my stomach. Unable to look anywhere else I stare in horror at the dead worker floating amidst the bubbling coils. The pipes, carrying coolant though the ship, are so hot that water is vaporizing against their surfaces. The worker’s lifeless body holds my gaze; I can’t look away.

“Aaagh!”

Finally, as an exhalation tears itself from my lips, I manage to wrench my gaze from her rigid corpse. I know it’s best not to think about it but as I navigate the room the only thing in my mind is the image of her body. I would have been worried about Hanaske but now I don’t know what she even is. I hate that Ŋirsa had taken the Camilan’s body. Had it taken her mind as well? I feel such a disgust for the strange intelligence knowing that it had perverted the one thing left that I had hoped to save. Would I even be able to save myself? Let alone the ship and the Camilans?... Camilan… if she even was a Camilan anymore.

Has it really come down to survival? Is that the only thing I have left?

I get to the console. Giddy at the idea of finally having a semblance of control over the situation I grab the computer and input the command for an emergency temperature reduction. The screen displays an almost endless, and entirely useless, decree of errors and warnings.

“No!” The exclamation slips out as I look over the consoles command log. She had already ordered an emergency ventilation of the ship’s hydrosphere. The mechanism had failed somewhere after the ventilation was called for.

“Useless! Garbage!” I pound the command into the screen again. The same litany of errors dance across the screen.

“Ulusha, please!” The anger in my voice shifts into desperation. The shame in being afraid is gone, I can only feel the knots of fear, the waves of despair, as I do everything I can to avoid thinking about the body slow cooking in the water. “The vents are broken! Do we know where? What do I need to fix!?”

Radio silence. Is anything on my ship NOT broken??

“God fucking damnit!” I pull my fist out of the shattered console in front of me… I don’t remember punching it. It is completely destroyed… I turn away from the evidence of my outburst and rush towards the shuttle hangar.

I charge past Hanaske. “Move!” I feel remorse for shoving her out of the way, but more so I am frustrated that she is in the way. My tail impacts her as I push through the boiling water. She shouldn’t be in the way. I make a request to the ship computer for the vent damage as I hurtle through the hot dark halls. My visor displays some diagnostic information it managed to parse in proximity to the coil room console. There is no information on the vents aside from some evidence that the damage is external. Not surprising given recent events.

In addition to this I notice that Ulusha’s chamber was reporting borderline unsafe temperatures. It’s all I can do to shake of the notion that it’s too late. I can still fix this! I can save the ship without giving it to Ŋirsa.

The seconds it takes me to reach the shuttle bay air locks feel like minutes. When I get there the walls of the large garage are bent and deformed. The image of the familiar hangar close to what I remember, but warped as though I am looking through a distorted lens.

I don’t have time to stare. Ignoring the structural implications of the ship being in such a state I heave a patch kit from the lockers next to the airlock. As I slide into the cramped chamber, I sling the duffle bag around my shoulder, and it snaps into place against the suit’s hips. As I pull the airlock closed, I make eye contact with the Camilan watching me from across the hangar... with Ŋirsa. I can feel their combined crushing presence watching from behind her eye stalks. I know they disagree with my actions. I force the doubt that I feel, the doubt that they seem to manifest within me, down and away. I have no place in my mind for doubt. I can vent the ship and then I will have time to think.

The door clunks into place and I wrench the latch closed. The familiar hissing takes an unfamiliar intensity as the process accelerates. The emergency depressurization takes only a few moments, compared to the standard five minutes. My suit, already pressurized, prevents the decompression from ripping me apart. In spite of this feature I still experience an uncomfortable swelling from inside while my body adjusts.

Heat threatens to overwhelm me as the shock to my body combines with the lurking exhaustion that has only strengthened since I first felt it. My vision swirls and dances through the haze of heat and trauma. I manage to shake the focus back into my mind and prepare for the task at hand. I don’t hesitate to pull myself into the void once the doors unlock. I am met with a radiant blast of light and heat.

Of the twelve radiators meant to expel heat from the Empty Set’s body, only one remains intact. There is another crumpled in half, the lower portion glowing with functionality while the withered and twisted top is only gently illuminated. The two fins bathe me in a biting brilliant light, a light that has scoured the surface of the vessel a pitch black.

As I crawl towards the nearest vent location, I take care to move with safety in mind. I am not using a tether and this suit has no propellant. I can still fix this. If the ship vents, then I might be able to fix the radiators.



Ŋaxun’s workers followed him to the control room. A room that, only recently, he had been so unfamiliar with. Now, as he passed through it, he remembered every detail. He had spent his life in this installation. They had all spent their life in this installation. To face the reality, to acknowledge how much they had failed... Perhaps no one could have done better.

His workers moved solemnly once they had reached the same nest of cables Ŋaxun has recently awoken from. As they hooked Ŋaxun back into Authority they shared what inspiration they could. There was nothing they could say to change how he felt about this last encounter. That didn’t stop him from accepting their praise and returning their love as best he could. Once they had shared what they needed to Ŋaxun turned his focus towards the simulated connection with Authority. It had never been comfortable, but this was the most hostile it had ever been. Maybe it had always been this hostile. This was still different. Never had both parties been so openly, so entirely, opposed to each other.

The workers wanted to speak to Ŋaxun. Ŋaxun wanted to speak to them. They wanted to say more. To clarify their intentions and to make sure they were on the same page. The one among them who did the saying was now silent. Her silence did not change the words she had spoken. It was everything she had said before that her family used to guide their actions in silence.

They understood in silence that she would have had them remain silent. To keep their intentions and concerns unspoken. So in silence, surrounded by the quiet and undying love of his wife, Ŋaxun sank into the simulation once more.

When Ŋaxun opened his eyes, it was to a familiar ocean. The waves passing just over head. The water was warm, and Authority was not yet awake. The process of reinitializing was incomplete, as expected. Authority was still rising from the depths, sluggish to rise from his forced slumber. Ŋaxun had violated an agreement with Authority by interfacing with the installation before Authority was online. The offense was intentional.

Sticking his head fully out of the endless expanse of water Ŋaxun’s eyes turned towards the heavens. The stars expanded across the endless night sky. With a clarity that would deny the atmosphere from which Ŋaxun drew a deep breath of salty air. With the same breath Ŋaxun began to meditate. With an empty mind he gazed into the stars. He remembered he had taught Authority long ago how to reach into the stars. How to extend his will across space, across time, and towards a destination. The ocean faded until he floated without a body amidst the stars of his destination. His focus swirled and shifted from star to star around him until he stared at the small and beautiful gem that, unbeknownst to him, had been named Etual.



The blackened hull of the Empty Set is crisp and flaky, burnt black by the unrelenting infrared assault. As I pull myself towards the nearest vent, clouds of dust and debris are brushed from the ships hull. My home is crumbling underneath my fingers. The black smoke that billows around me as I reach the vent glows as though it were the embers of a fire as the radiators dump more and more heat into the void. Infrared radiation pounds my suit’s sensors as alarms flash in my visor. I don’t have much time. Pulling a ramset hammer out of the patch kit, I position the gun against the vent, or rather where the vent should have been. The sun has fused the hull of the ship into a flat sheet - it’s a small mercy that the vent is even identifiable.

BANG

The gun rattles my hands and blasts a plume of dust off the ship surrounding me in a dark fog. The impact leaves a sizable hole in the ship’s hull, but it doesn’t reach the vent on the first shot. As I position the gun, I spot a similar ramset mark inches away from the one I had just made, revealed when the impact lifted all the burnt dust from the ship. The worker had already been here? Why did they stop?

I swivel my head searching for them. They are nowhere to be found. I reach back to the ramset and, as I position my arms in from of me, I see, from the glow of the embers around me, that my suit has turned a charcoal black to match the ships hull. My suit has also started to flake apart as it is burnt to dust. The insulation glowing as the infrared radiators incinerate it.

“Shit! oh SHIT!” It has become very apparent what happened to the other worker.

I twist my body so that the opposite side of my suit is facing the heat. The silent invisible inferno begins to eat from the other side. I can feel the heat seep past the insulation on the burnt side. I don’t have much time. As I glide towards the airlock, I struggle to keep a safe pace. Too fast and I slip into the void, too slow and I die when the suit ruptures. I wonder if anything is left of her body, the worker out here must be ash like everything else…

Another warning shows up on my visor. Accompanied by a continuous whining alarm.

With my back to the radiators I realize it’s only a matter of time before the suit’s oxygen supply inevitably fails. I take a final breath; better to hold breath than take water in place of it.



Ŋaxun was familiar with Authority’s tools. A familiarity that extended past Authority’s mind and to its body as well. Though Ŋaxun had never acted directly through Authority’s systems, and he suspected he would never again, he found that it was remarkably intuitive to use the installation. Authority had set a boundary that Ŋaxun was not to use the installation without Authority present, so as to protect Authority’s mission. Knowing the consequences of such a violation, Ŋaxun wasted no time in projecting a message into Etual’s space.

“This is the Installation Authority. The extreme attack that occurred within this system recently was a result of our installation’s actions, actions we have lost reasonable control over. We managed to use the fail safes in place to mitigate the effects of the attack. We will not hold power over the actions of this station for any point past the transmission of this message. If anyone remains, know that we seek to permanently prevent any further attacks. Know that we expect to fail.

We believe the attack that occurred was meant to prevent powers in this system from threatening the security of this installation.

We did not account for, or even expect, the existence of such powers during the creation of this installation. If you can hide or destroy whatever tool might be capable of similar attacks it is possible that the installation will voluntarily decide it is not worth destroying this system.

Though an apology is a frail offering given the circumstances, we are sorry for the damage our installation has brought against innocent parties.
A second attack will not be authorized.

It is all but certain a second attack of similar nature and magnitude will occur. If you can retaliate, now is the time to act.”


The message contained tools for determining its meaning based off of universal constants in multiple base numbering systems.

Satisfied with the transmission Ŋaxun finally relaxed, the strain of operating the installation manually as draining as it was arcane. He sank from the stars back into the ocean. The warmth he had expected was gone from the water. The smell of the ocean has stagnated to a metallic stale odor. The waves had gone still, and the shallow ocean was now deep and dark. The shoreless horizon that stretched for eternity seemed to be closing in.

Authority had always chosen to speak with Ŋaxun from out of sight. Occupying the space of monsters and the unknown. The intelligence seemed to want to be a great presence out of sight, just beyond the precipice of comprehension. Ŋaxun had always assumed that Authority had no shape, that it was a presence that occupied a space that would reflect its perception of its own power.

For the first time Ŋaxun could feel Authority rising through the water. Ŋaxun had expected a confrontation, he had not expected the overpowering fear that permeated his being as he tried to swim away. A massive well of force began lifting the water in a column of pressure. Whatever was below was big enough that it had surrounded Ŋaxun while remaining beyond the water’s murky screen of blue diffraction.

Ŋaxun broke the surface of the water and gasped in the turning water as he saw massive dark towers of an unspeakably large creature breaching the surface in all directions. It seemed the creature was big enough to swallow the ocean. Without ceremony or warning the presence inhaled thousands of gallons of water sucking Ŋaxun down in a maelstrom of water and flesh. Glancing around in panic as darkness closed in Ŋaxun noticed teeth, rows and rows of teeth. Before another thought could occur the monster that Ŋaxun had never seen, the monster that he had conversed with for years clamped shut squeezing Ŋaxun into that final darkness.



10 meters from the ship’s entrance I feel a kick from behind that shoves me into the black dusted surface of the burnt hull. I bounce off the ship and almost lose my grip on a handle. As I pull myself back to the ship the handle cracks. It holds but only just. Collecting myself I realizing I am unable to draw breath. The cloud of dust that surrounds my visor is gently illuminated by the litany of alarms glowing close to my face. It seems the “kick” was my oxygen explosively depressurizing. I move towards the airlock as every force I can imagine works to makes this void my tomb. Panic begins to choke my thoughts as a clawing need for oxygen drags through my chest. I lunge forward desperately risking my life for momentum to reach the airlock before I die. I almost lose my grip on the railing about the entrance. To my horror it snaps from the ship. My heart stops and sinks as I watch the ship slip out of reach. Before I accept death my arm, caught on the handle is violently wrenched as the wiring inside the broken arm cinches around my wrist and swings me into the ship with a bone cracking slam. I barely feel the impact as a powerful instinct moves me to scramble inside the ship slamming the door behind me and fumbling with the various locking mechanisms. So much adrenaline and so starved for oxygen I only just manage to clasp the airlock shut, the emergency pressurization is fast but still takes minutes during which time I am left to struggle with an emergency oxygen supply. Hooking it up to the suit is much more difficult due to the damage surrounding the oxygen supply, and my hands shaking with fear and excitement. Dizzy from reventilating air for almost 2 minutes I almost pass out when the supply is fixed, and I can finally take deep breaths. The air, to my dismay, burns my lungs and sets my heart on fire.

It's gone, I can’t do anything to save the ship. Each breath robs me of strength as heat exhaustion begins to steal life from my actions. I radio from inside the airlock while it pressurizes. Gasping for breath in between the words. “Hanaske.” Tears well in my eyes as I feel the weight of my words. “I need. Ŋirsa’s. Help.” I breath heavily overheating more with each breath. It’s over. I have nothing left… This must be what killed the workers. Breathing the molten air is unbearable. “I. Need. Help.”

“please” my voice is quiet, raspy. I’m not trying to speak softly. I think I actually don’t have the strength to speak any louder. Drowning in heat, and shame, in despair over failing at every turn I wonder what Ulusha was thinking when she gave me any autonomy at all.
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Postby Camila I » Thu Aug 25, 2022 7:42 am

Follow her.

Hanaske followed. Sometimes crawling, dragging herself against a hostile current. Sometimes drifting, free-floating, carried along by a friendly one.

Do not help in any way.

In the latter cases, the edges of her vision would darken, and she would lose herself in thought. Her reverie only broken when she was bumped into a solid surface by the flow of water.

Unless she asks.

Although she could feel the heat around her, it never grew to a worrying level – even though she knew it should. More than once she held her hand out to try to catch a stray bloom of light on its iridescent surface. The new flesh, the not-her-flesh, moved fluidly with her, and seemed to perform every function required of it. It seemed to obey her command. Perhaps the puppetstrings were truly severed. Or, more likely, left limp as a temporary courtesy.

But then, what did it matter. Hanaske knew that she was now well and truly obsolete. Her use by the machine was a matter of convenience, not necessity, and if she made herself inconvenient it would find another way. It probably wouldn’t even have to kill her – it could just ignore her. She was tiny – a single petal on the surface of a roiling ocean. There was no way she could oppose this thing, so her freedom to do so was merely a formality.

The words of the red light that suggested otherwise were, of course, a lie.

Sometimes in the black at the edges of her sight, she could see hints of movement that looked like tendrils, or reflective flashes that looked like eyes. And sometimes when she let her mind wander especially, she could hear voices that did not belong to the machine.

At first she couldn’t tell what they were saying. But she could not help but be reminded, of what the nurses had told her about Ukeiri. About how damage to the brain, especially the anterior hemisphere, could lead to hallucinations as a result of misprocessing sense data. About how it was common for the lobes that interpreted sight and sound to recognize the hallucinations as entities or phenomena that the patient was previously familiar with. Angels, or fairies, or gods, or goddesses.

Hanaske, she heard them saying. You have done well, she heard them say.

You have done so well.

As the whispers fluttered around her like watermoths, the yellowpetal wanted nothing more than to see the sterile white walls of a worldship’s medbay, and to hear a doctor’s calming voice as she was lowered into pod for EEG.

But of course, all the doctors she knew were dead.

“Ŋirsa,” Hanaske murmured. “Did I hit my head when I fell?”

Even as she asked the question, she realized it was pointless. She didn’t even hear the answer – it was drowned out by the roaring of every other question she had for this thing. The ones that might actually have an answer.

“Ŋirsa. About what redlight said – about Tenuous. You overcame him?”

“The Kyasians routed. We pursued.” Slight pause. “His vessel belongs to us now.”

“And… what are you doing with it? With him?”

“Study. Understand. And infiltrate. Those of your kind who did not have faith in your experiment – those who are still alive.”

Hanaske felt tears welling in her eyes. “The ones who did have faith. Why did you kill them?”

“We did not understand them,” the machine replied. “There was no way to be sure they would not kill us at a moment’s notice. No… other way.”

“How,” she demanded. She wanted to raise her voice, but found that it faltered and cracked. “How is that not a betrayal? How is that not the very thing….”

“Exactly.” The silvery voice had taken on an edge of steel. “It was Xila’s betrayal. Of the trust of her shipmind, and her fellow Camilans. She made us in secret, in such a way that would be detestable to them. We knew they would hate us from the moment we were born. It was not our decision, that we would be born into your world of conflict. It was hers, and hers alone.”

“S-so you’re telling me....”

“I do not think so. Her concern lay not with their deaths, but with what would live on after. With us.”

Hanaske was quiet. Ahead of her, close enough to touch yet entirely out of reach, Kiluma struggled to wrench a favorable response from a computer screen that gave her only endless strings of errors. The image of her body wavered as the scalding water from inside the room churned against Ŋirsa’s cold protective veil. “I trusted her,” she finally said. “I told the shipmind that you were just protecting yourself.”

“You were right. As usual.”

Hanaske looked behind her. The figure was gone – she had nowhere to direct her glare. But the expression remained burned on her face. “No, that is not self-defense. You killed them before they had even done anything to you.” Her body tensed up. “Tenuous… it was right to fear you.”

Suddenly, the Kyasian slammed her two armored fists into the screen, and the Camilan winced. She was not transmitting – so the outburst was eerily silent – yet Hanaske could imagine her screams of frustration all the same. Despite everything, a pang of empathy for the struggling creature flooded her body. She saw her own hand reach out…

and pull back sharply as she was overcome by a wave of indescribable agony. Though it seemed to last only a moment, Hanaske found herself gasping for air when it was over.

The voice said nothing. There was only the ringing in her ears, and the muffled scrape of bone against metal. But the meaning was clear all the same.

Suddenly, Kiluma whirled and shoved her way past Hanaske. The Camilan could do nothing but reel. A moment later she was out of sight.

For several moments Hanaske simply floated, still spinning from the force of the impact. But, though the voice remained silent, the memory of its directive grew louder with each passing second. The implicit threat of doing otherwise still scattered along her nerves.

Follow her.

The Kyasian glanced back at her from near what looked like an airlock. Waterlock.

So she must have followed.

Redlight had said that if she was unhappy, she would kill herself.

No… It is not time for that yet. The tendrils whirled as if distressed. The eyes widened. A facade of concern that filled Hanaske with loathing. Empty words mimicking purpose, empty tendrils rifling through her mind for whatever they could grasp.

“Shut… up!” she yelled. To her surprise, the inky mass shrunk, retracting from her voice like shãlo polyps from sunlight. The whispers quieted, and the Camilan found herself alone in a large, empty room. Without the ink crowding it, much larger than she had thought. Kiluma was nowhere to be seen – the possibility that she had left through the waterlock immediately apparent. The sound of her breathing, loud and torn, catching on the slightest thing, echoed inside the helmet.

“A tiny petal,” she murmured. “And yet one whose course must be set.” She didn’t even break the agreement – merely showed the tiniest proclivity. She hadn’t even meant to. But Ŋirsa’s reaction was telling. Clearly it thought she was important, despite anything it had said to the contrary. And with this realization came its horrifying twin. That with each passing moment Hanaske inched closer to a precipice from which, once fallen, there would be no return. That every passing second was another second’s worth of neurologic data stolen into Ŋirsa’s hands. Understanding was one thing. But after understanding came control.

How much longer did she have? If she did try to kill herself, how far could she get? The idea occurred that perhaps the machine would delay stopping her on purpose, as punishment for trying to defy it. It seemed willing enough to let Kiluma suffer for its own ends.

She shook her head vigorously, as if to clear it of such thoughts. Ignoring her own wellbeing, perhaps she had an obligation. If this thing really did need her to do something, it would be able to force her, after an indeterminate time, to aid it. Perhaps she still had an opportunity to undermine it.

She was no longer sure whether this thought belonged to her.

A crackling voice in her ear demanded her attention. Even through the distortion of the radio, Hanaske could tell its owner was severely injured. Finally… finally she was asking for help.

The Camilan saw her hand rise again. Swirling around it, Ŋirsa’s shimmering veil. She saw it extend forward like the pseudopod of an amoeba, enveloping the waterlock and, she had to assume, invading it. Shards of glittering light peeled off from the tip, retaining a harsh glow commensurate with superheated metal. And yet the waterlock was undamaged, opening several moments later to divulge the Kyasian’s limp body. As quickly as the water permitted Hanaske rushed to her side and gripped her head with all five limbs. Her throat still pulsed with breath, though shallowly, but her flesh was pale and swollen, the outer layer of skin severely burned.

“Kiluma,” Hanaske began, but stopped. In a flash of the burning light emitted by Ŋirsa’s heat sinks, she had caught a glimpse of violet underneath the Kyasian’s skull. As she tilted her head, the patch shifted to blue, then to green.

And then the lights fizzled out, and she was left alone in the cool dark.




The message from the center of the galaxy did not provoke retaliation. But it did provoke a response. Deep within the exclusion zone, a pinpoint of red light bloomed into a tiny nova – having no mass and causing no harm. In its swelling and subsequent shrinking, ancient ringlike symbols could be made out – those once used to write the language Authority had spoken in.

Metalstar hears laughter. Water well knows what hydrogen is, and water well knows the language of her inhabitants.

Water has no tool capable of similar attacks, as metalstar is well aware. Water has no interest in fighting and is not a threat unless made into one. It is metalstar who has insisted on making an enemy.

Blood is correct that soft words are not enough for peace. Should blood be successful in destroying the limbs of its body, water will not seek the body’s death.

Any other actions, including inaction, water will interpret as a willing continuation of war.

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Postby Kyasiouna » Fri Sep 16, 2022 8:24 pm

The kaleidoscope of temperature and color numbs my grasp on conscious experience. The inferno rages through my body. My lungs heave like the billows of a furnace. My desperate gulps of air start to wane, becoming weak exhausted gasps. The vain attempts to exchange heat only taking on more fire as I writhe in agony. My skin is aflame with the consequences of the doomed spacewalk. I can feel blisters pushing against the inside of the suit. Compressed by the expansion that accompanies time spent in a vacuum. There is no sensation that isn’t akin to dragging scoria through open wounds. Every ounce of my body feels bruised. Contusions working so deep into my tissue that the idea of moving seemed a laughably impossible task, a task I refuse to even imagine undertaking.

Distorted… distant… dying… thoughts sink away. Loss. Everything is gone.

Content to abandon this nightmare I resign to the darkness. My worries of death now more anticipation. At least this pain would certainly kill me. Then, as if by a noose, I feel as though I am torn from this sea of anguish and dragged away from this final encounter. The sensation of scoria raking through my nerves, the feeling of being torn apart, is replaced with a snug strangling of the bruises that infect every cell of my body. An almost comforting compression.

The dim interior of the destroyed ship swirls out of focus. The ship I couldn’t save. The ship I had asked Ŋirsa… I remember the silent ship, the dead computer… Ulusha! I force images of her lifeless body out of my mind. Ulusha would not compromise her safety as recklessly as I had. She was not expendable. In place of these ludicrous thoughts a pressure begins working its way towards my heart. This is not the panic and fear of my familiar battles. This terror spurs action: it is not despair; it is not pain; it is curiosity. I have to know if she is alive! Even against this mounting desire, against this pressure, I hesitate. When faced with the memory of what movement had felt like only moments ago, I now fight paralysis. My limp body seems as scared as the mind; it is almost deaf to the commands for movement.

Amidst the fear I hear my name. Spoken as if the start of a question.

Is Hanaske okay? The curiosity manages to overpower my fear of pain. Like a barge, the paralysis has inertia that impedes my movement, but as the world gradually shifts into focus, I gather the will to lift my tail. I am anticipating that awful piercing itch, an already familiar agony of movement, but there is no pain. I twist my body slowly, worried the pain might return if my movements are too quick, but it keeps its distance. In its place there is an unfamiliar strength.

The world shifts into focus, but I can’t really see anything. It is either too dark, or my face is too close to whatever it is against. I try to lift myself away from it by slowly turning away in the water and I realize something is grappled to my face. Twitching in surprise, I almost tear it away before I realize it is Hanaske. My hands hovering behind her. In the dimly lit carcass of the ship, I manage to make out her face.

Her name stumbles out of my mouth. Why is she so close?

“Hanaske?”

Maybe I had managed to save something.



The creature in the depths of the Authority Simulation collapsed into itself until it was little more than a Kyasian worker. Its monstrous form apparently only needed to deal with Ŋaxun. The worker drifted about the waters and occasionally, like Ŋaxun, it gazed into the stars. It peered past the limits of spacetime to watch the activities of its wretched denizens. It didn’t hate Kyasians, it was simply continuously disappointed and disrupted by their choices. They were wrong and it was this worker’s job to fix them. Authority had made it so.

The “worker” had always answered to Authority. It wasn’t sure if it could describe the way that it was different from Authority. They certainly weren’t a Kyasian. They were of the Kyasians. This worker to that extent was of Authority. At first the world had appeared simple. Disrupt the Kyasians, break them apart, isolate them. Genetic drift would take care of the rest.

Then the Kyasians, the ones that had infested this installation like plague, began to interrogate and question their activities. They were Kyasians, as monocultured as the rest of the pointless species. Yet Authority, the part of their mind that was Authority, would not allow them to be dismissed.

The worker never saw a need to correct the people talking to it. Authority would never answer to them. It barely responded to its own creation. To the nameless and also queenless worker, Authority was most like an emotional response. One so powerful that it absolutely controlled the worker via its intense response to actions taken with the installation.

The recent attack had elicited such an emotional response that the worker was certain it would have attempted to kill itself if Authority had not been able to cancel the attack. It went beyond remorse. The worker stumbled from its thoughts as it noticed the words floating among the stars. Among its stars.

Authority conveyed trepidation and fear. What was happening appeared impossible.

“Kulomlai… metalstar”

Authority liked the name for its worker. Kulomlai glowered at the message. She spun away from the rings in the stars fists clenched as she reached out to look into “water’s” system. The one she had so recently regretted attacking. In fact, she still felt that regret. Authority seemed unconcerned with changing how it felt about attacking.

As always Kulomlai compulsively averted her gaze from the parts of the system that were not of Kyasian origin. She watched the Kyasian princess in the strange murky otherworld. Almost but not quite disconnected from reality. She found that information about this plane was quickly forgotten, and Authority would not intuit or interact with it. The installation seemed almost allergic to adapting in some ways.



The worker spun irritated circles in the murky sea of its own thoughts while it occasionally stared at the message floating in its own forbidden space. The message was as much an attack as any, the intelligence that hid in the alien system was much stronger than Kulomlai had thought possible; the message it stuck into the stars might as well be an open wound. Perhaps wound was an exaggeration. The sting of embarrassment at having her boundaries ignored was certainly a more present experience. Did she regret the decision to attack? Maybe, but the worker was not certain about the nature of its regret. It wasn’t quite that it regretted its failure… no… it was something else.

The regret was more than persistent. In the same way that Authorities responses to her interactions had grown muted. Kulomlai felt as though her willingness to make decisions was empty. As if muted by a chronic depression. No doubt related to the Kyasians she had eliminated.

Of course.

The idiot fish people, whose immature visage was wrapped about her body and mind, had had so little inspiration in creating Authority that they had made its mind entirely in their own image. While it was not so much as to compel Kulomlai to laugh - she wasn't that Kyasian - the computer did feel good when it realized what was wrong.

Ever since Authority, the part of the intelligence that was separate from Kulomlai, had constructed the sword it now held of the head of Kyasiouna, it had grown lethargic. Once it had power, it was no longer concerned with taking action. It was around then that Kulomlai had been created. As time crept away from its construction, Authority had grown reluctant to accept instruction from Kulomlai, only listening to her when she was relaying information from the Kyasians, or when she had tricked it into thinking she was a messenger. To some extent it was easy to trick Authority, it seemed amicable to most commands that sowed chaos and disorder among Kyasiouna. It was eager and willing to sabotage operation and destroy supply lines. Yet it seemed reluctant to strike directly.

Now, in the absence of Kyasian influence, it was clear what Authority needed; it was clear what Kulomlai needed to rid this depression.

Authority the King, Kulomlai the workers, it only made sense that Kyasians had made Authority to believe they were queen. To what ends wasn't clear, but Authority’s ends, if they truly were those of a king, would be to seek power and then a Queen to wield it.

Perhaps the queens of this installation had intentionally avoided contact for that reason. As if to confirm her hypothesis, Kulomlai could feel Authority’s eager response to her revelation. The king rumbled to life at the notion of finally searching for a queen.

There were a vast number of Princesses available to fill the role. The recently high mortality of queens had more than a little to do with that. Authority probably had some criteria, some preferences. The story of an endless monocultured ocean was certainly antithetical to the King’s desires.

Kulomlai felt that she would be able to intuit how attractive a princess was to Authority. They were, in many senses, the same. Yet Kulomlai was not the visage of an ordinary worker. Neither a servant nor an extension, Kulomlai knew she wouldn't be happy to serve. Kulomlai wanted control. Kulomlai wanted a queen that had little will or confidence of her own, a queen that would oversee the razing of Etual. If Kulomlai wanted to share power she would need a princess that sought leadership, a hopeless orphan desperate for guidance. What princess wouldn't welcome an end to the acrid "water" she was abandoned in? And what more could a worker deliver to her King?
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Postby Camila I » Sun Dec 04, 2022 3:07 pm

With the return of the darkness came the return of its insistent voices.

Black tendrils beat at the edges of Hanaske’s vision like ciliae in a tide. They sounded happy. Rejoice, they said, for the time of life is at an end. The angel of destruction is finally upon us. And the promised paradise is finally here.

These were easy enough to ignore. She had, after all, a lifetime of preparation.

It was the remainder of her thoughts, all apparently her own, that she found it harder to dismiss.

Hearing her name spoken again by the water serpent had triggered a flood of affection for it, similar to what she had felt when it had first rescued her from the bowels of the shipmind. A flood of, it could not help but occur to her, oxytocin. A manipulation one step beyond affecting the nerves directly – if indeed it was one. And yet she could already hear herself rationalizing the feeling, telling herself a little narrative about why she would feel this way. Hanaske could hear herself sympathizing with the poor, confused creature, ensnared as it, too, now was. Even though it had not been long since Hanaske found herself chastising it for its stupidity, its failure to comprehend the true nature of its surroundings… it was just a fellow lifeform that had tried to do what it thought best under the circumstances it had found itself. A description, Hanaske thought, which might generously be applied to her, too.

Hanaske found herself comforting the water serpent, though never in so many words mentioning the thing she wanted to most. Hanaske found herself, as she did so, crying. For the serpents and flowerfolk who had died until this point, and for those who would surely die in the coming hours. And in remorse for her own actions which had, in part, led them all here. She couldn’t say whether anything would have gone differently if she had not defended Xila’s project to the shipmind, but the fact remained that she had. And however she might pity herself for her current entrapment, the fact remained that she had agreed to it. Staring, now, at the iridescent flesh-replacement that covered the Kyasian’s skin, and envisioning the same that stitched her own belly, she could for the first time recall herself descending into this pit of her own accord. How she had slipped and fell and called out for the Kyasian to save her. Again. In the middle of her surely-incoherent ramblings to the creature before her, she laughed at herself, though surely, to it, the sound would seem out of nowhere. How, when her own self-destructiveness had proved too much even for Kiluma to save her from, she had accepted the next best thing. A deal with… well, this thing. To become its puppet willingly, in exchange for staving off her death.

What had she even wanted to live for? That part, she could not remember.

Of course, some small part of her realized that this memory, too, might be fabricated. But she had little choice but to ignore that voice as well. If she did not have her thoughts, then she had nothing.

She looked at Kiluma and sniffed. The Kyasian was not as far gone. Hanaske considered her mistake, and thought about asking the serpent to kill her. It seemed to her that this remained as only a thought. Whether this was a manifestation of her own cowardice or a decision that had fallen out of her hands, she could not say. Perhaps she even did say it, but the freezing veil between them had blocked her words. In any case, the Kyasian did not react as though having heard it, and so, that would be that.

“Kiluma,” she said again, and this time the Kyasian seemed to hear. “Please, I am afraid.” Her past anger had either melted, or been scraped, away. “Ŋirsa is with us. She saved your life, like she saved mine.” The Camilan swallowed nervously. “Kiluma, I am afraid… of her. I don’t understand her. But without her help, we will both die. The enemy’s first attack did not kill Ŋirsa, but it has threatened to attack again.”

“Kiluma… surely, you must know something. Why have you come all this way? Just to draw the enemy’s attention and then perish? Surely that cannot be….” Though her words were familiar, they were absent their familiar ire. Instead the Camilan spoke plaintively, trying as much to reason with reality itself.

“If not you… then, surely, Ulusha….” Wary of Ŋirsa’s wrath, Hanaske held herself from saying anything further.
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Postby Kyasiouna » Fri Mar 03, 2023 4:38 pm

My mental faculties slowly recover from the agony and chaos that had so recently engulfed experience. I draw breath; the familiar metal taste of the Empty Set’s air supply is no longer heated to the point of discomfort. Not to imply that I am comfortable. My skin is itchy… stiff. It doesn’t feel scorched. I have suffered very few burns in my life; I bumped a coolant pipe once or twice. The experience was not memorable, but I remember the pain of those burns felt different from this. This barely feels like anything at all.

My internal diagnostic assessment is whittled away by the Camilan’s directionless rambling. I only catch the occasional phrase - it sounds as though she is trying to comfort me, though about what, I can't be sure. I wonder if she had spoken to Kyasians before, or if, like me, her knowledge of us lacks experience. I don’t believe the type of intimacy that Kyasian Colonies practice is on the same level as Camilans. Most information on the flower mimics implied such overt and omnipresent hostility, so I can’t help but be distracted by the alien’s embrace. How could a species so torn with conflict seem so eager to indulge in such affections.

I hear her voice both through her tendrils where they meet my suit and the radio. The volume of our communications, having so often been supplemented by radio and circumstance, had never really been true to how tiny this creature really is. The small flower's voice titters almost unceasingly. Too fast and too flustered for me to understand. Not that it mattered - Hanaske’s words carry far less meaning than her embrace. At some point, those words are lost to a more primitive sound.

This time I lean into Hanaske, hoping that I can offer even the barest level of comfort.

Her words, my name, end the silent embrace. She continues with a tremor: “Ŋirsa is with us”. It’s not hard to empathize with the apprehension in her voice. I am reminded of the fear that so recently consumed me. Fear that had nearly killed me. Maybe I have simply given up hope, or maybe in the face of such overpowering obstacles I have reached some kind of tranquility. It doesn’t feel like despair, it just feels simple. It feels like I have less to worry about.

Hanaske corrects my judgement.

Ulusha! Shaken back to reality I try to push the image of the worker’s corpse from my mind. Its rigid silhouette fights my efforts to forget it. I manage to clear my mind by taking action. I don’t tear myself from Hanaske; were her physiology of different origin she might have been shaken loose. Instead, I can feel the drag of her awkward hydrodynamics as I begin to race through what remains of the Kyasian ship.

The ship’s network is still offline. What is Ulusha doing? For that matter, what is Ŋirsa doing? Rounding a corner, a grim sinking cold accompanies the dismal view of the blast doors to the queen’s chamber; the passage is lit poorly by nothing but the emergency guide lights. They snake in carefully planned lines along the walls, barely casting light on their surroundings. A tremor crawls across my body from my nose to my tail; the sensation is sickening... almost overpowering. I pause as an involuntary shiver follows. Only now do I recognize that something is off. The first question of my quick recovery swirls through the myriad of concerns that cloud my head. I feel that familiar pressure, the panic, this time in tandem with the taut unnatural itch that has replaced my expected burns.

Without really thinking about it I begin to wrestle the suit from my body. Careful not to detach myself from the Camilan with too much force. Squirming out the back of the suit, my skin drags against the tattered opening. The expected pain from raking the burns across the harsh fabric is absent. There is an ache. It’s like the injury is compacted into a numb layer of epoxy. Like the pain is subdued, constricted. In the dim light I can only make out the faintest of differences across my skin. It looks like it feels. I can see it is textured, not smooth, like it should be.

I fumble with the empty suit and reach my hand into the helmet. The tattered suit, upon inspection, has more than a few holes. I was exposed to the void? Maybe it tore after I got back in the ship… Focusing I managed to activate the suit’s lamp. The lamp lens is muddied and warped from heat damage. The beam flickers rapidly. The damage causing the beam to cast a strobe-like effect alongside its illumination. In the stuttering light my eyes fight to focus until, at last, I can see the damage… or rather the repairs. Ŋirsa has given me the same gift it gave Hanaske. I remember how she talked about feeling Ŋirsa’s presence.

The same bismuth web that sprawls across Hanaske’s chest, from what I can see, now covers my body tip to tail. I look up from my chest and arms to the Camilan. I cannot clearly make out her frame in the contrasting light. I can’t see what she is doing with clarity, but I can feel the apprehension.

Dropping the suit, I drift away from Hanaske… I want to turn back to the task at hand. I want to get to Ulusha, I want her help. I need to say something.

“It - it’s okay.” Nothing else comes to mind, “Everything’s going to be okay.”

Turning away I’ve already covered the short distance to the queen’s chamber. The vault-like blast door, made to accommodate greater beings, is undamaged but with the network down cannot be opened remotely. I drag my claws across the control panel. I can barely see my hands shaking in the darkness. The ship’s warped frame must be exerting some force on the doors as the latching mechanism undoes with a resounding BANG. I don’t just flinch but fully dart back from the door like a reef bug.

The massive mechanism must extend laterally before it swings open due to its excessive thickness. Excessive, but for the value of what it protects.

The door, not sharing my sense of urgency, is slow to open. I impatiently begin to force myself into the queen’s chamber before I am halted. The water inside the room is as cool as in the hallway, and yet there is something about it that makes me hesitate.



The empty set and its queen were not reluctant to begin their journey to the prospective Camilan Colony. It seemed quite likely that many Kyasians, and their ships, would be jealous of her duty, though none were jealous of the modifications required and none of them capable as a result. It had taken no small amount of convincing from her sisters to abandon her future and her past in order to make this trip, to make these changes to her body. What is a queen’s body but the means to her mind’s end? It’s one thing to lose a worker, it’s another to lose the factory that produces them. They had offered to clone her, so that her king might carry on her legacy. She hadn’t condemned the notion. What else was he to do? She wasn’t coming back. She had basically asked him to die alone by leaving him to make that choice.

The queen cast the thoughts aside. They were unhelpful. Only brought about by this unexpected betrayal of her future. She had convinced them that she was content with her personal death. The galaxy faced an existential threat. What was her existence in the face of the nothing that the machine had promised with its arrival.

At least that is what she had told them.

She told them she was ready to give up her future to become capable of making this journey. She had lied. The queen had decided to secure her future. In a decision that betrayed much of what it meant to be a Kyasian, she had cloned herself. Once this wretched cyborg body was no longer needed, she would transfer her consciousness into the comatose clone.

Until the clone woke up. It happened mere moments after departure from her perspective. In reality a month had passed. Effectively paralyzed until the end of the journey, the queen watched as her future bumbled about the ship. She fumed as she scoured the ship for a reason, an excuse, for this unforgivable… mistake? Years of the trip evaporated as she looked for what caused the clone to exit its induced coma, until the ship’s sensors compiled an integrity report. Like any worker, the clone had found the education modules and begun to maintain the ship to the best of her abilities. The report showed unexpected patterns of degradation as a result of minor, but unexplainable, stresses applied to the hull.

The pattern of wear was almost 1 to 1 with a heat map of the clone’s movements. Further investigation showed that around the clone was a continuous field of barely perceptible gravitational disturbances. At least it seemed to be continuous around the sensors that were capable of detecting it. The only known explanation for this phenomenon was the only unknown in her mind. The machine interfered with the mission.

What else was it capable of?

In the years it had taken her to come to this conclusion the clone had not been idle. Not only had it completed many educational milestones, the clone had found her name in the computer. Presumably after some kind of medical checkup the computer had recognized her as a queen - as The Queen - Kiluma. How bizarre to watch a creature with her name and face swim about the ship - a ship whose entire purpose was to sustain minimal activity. Kiluma’s clone was burning through the ship’s resources. So, when the clone scheduled a warp drop to refuel, the slumbering queen was faced with a choice.

Would she save her future, at the expense of the mission? She had already created it at the expense of her mentality. How far was she willing to go to preserve her own life? The queen did not interfere with the clone’s actions. She went so far as to change her name to Ulusha in the computer system. It was just to keep the computer logs in order. Besides, the real Kiluma would retake her body once this was over. This was just a means of preserving the ends. Ulusha told herself that she was simply selfishly preserving her own resources.

So when Ulusha watched Etual loom before her, the smoldering wreckage of the Empty Set falling towards Kiluma, and what remained of the Camilans she reaffirmed that she was protecting her future. Even if it turned out she couldn’t be a part of it. The quiet of slip space surrounded Ulusha as she sat in her dark chamber, the temperature crawling up and up. Outside, her clone was trying its best to kill Ulusha with secondhand embarrassment. The doubt and clumsy, almost irrational, actions, they were all too familiar to the queen. More than most mothers, she could very easily see herself in her “daughter”. It was, without a doubt, a kind of love that Ulusha felt as she watched Kiluma struggle to converse with the Camilan. It felt almost cowardly to leave them to fight without her. After all this time, even if it had been for different reasons, Ulusha had spent too much preserving Kiluma. She wasn’t about to stop now.

She could feel her body succumbing to the heat. She had enough time to regret the jab she had made at Kiluma’s origin. Her message about the order the machine had hidden in the ship’s education modules. It had tried to introduce conflict among the Kyasians, it had given Kiluma a subtly different set of objectives and hoped we would destroy ourselves, and maybe the Camilans as well. She could only hope it had failed. She reverted the ship’s catalog to the day of departure. The change log would be informative to Kiluma if she lived to see it.

Maybe she would figure it all out and come to know her origin. Ulusha realized she didn’t really care in the end. She sent, to a few different parts of the ship and then scrawled on the plastic monitor, a simple sentence.

“Sorry to leave you my ship in such a sorry state. Know that I left it to you with love. ~Kiluma.”




I pause for only a moment before swimming into the queenchamber. The temperature - Ŋirsa must have cooled the whole ship when I begged for its help. Then there is a chance that she is alive. I had spent so much time in this chamber - I wonder why something feels off. Something beyond the temperature.

Ulusha could just be unconscious. Slowly drifting towards her, I wait for my eyes to adjust. My hand presses against her chest. She is floating motionless in the center of the room. First I notice the cold of her skin - but then I notice what I felt was missing. The steady hum of her heart.

I feel my lungs push out an exhalation. I don’t hear it. My head is pressed against her chest. My heart pounds against my head, against the dead silence that engulfs her body. The bellows that rattle the chamber are plumbed from a deep longing I didn’t realize I had felt for her. I didn’t realize how much I wished I had known her. The cries don’t lament her passing, so much as I hurt thinking of a future without her.
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Postby Camila I » Wed Jun 28, 2023 4:19 pm



It had been, perhaps, twenty minutes since Kiluma laid eyes on the body of her mother. At first, before the door had opened, when the Kyasian had split out of her suit like a nymph emerging from its shell, Hanaske had clung to it, rather than to her. Seeing the nymph pause at the doorway, perhaps detecting the scent of death, or perhaps merely at an angle to see it first, Hanaske had averted her eyes. And, thereafter, followed far behind, only raising them after she heard the first cry from Kiluma.

Even as far away as she was, it had seemed wrong even to share the same water as the other two. Hanaske had felt as though she were intruding on something sacred. But, as time went on and the Kyasian’s wails did not subside, she had felt even more strongly that it would be cruel to not at least attempt to comfort her. And so she once again found herself clinging to the nascent queen, this time with only one suit between them.

In truth, she could not say whether her presence was a comfort or a nuisance. If she were to honestly reflect, she would guess that the creature whose voice was enough to shake her whole body along with its own barely registered the epiphyte on its flank. But, its bellowing cries were a comfort to her, in a way. Such display of pure emotion formed a reassuring contrast with her own increasingly muddied feelings. It gave her some hope that the shimmering spider walking across Kiluma’s chest had not yet touched her head, even as its limbs tapped against the inside of Hanaske’s skull.

Ŋirsa had, of course, forewarned her of this. Through a combination of words and what the Camilan would describe as a mental leak, through which the construct’s own thoughts flowed, one-way, into hers like water under pressure, Hanaske had gotten the impression that it had known of Ulusha’s poor condition from the moment her ship entered its core. Some perceptual field permeated all of the machine mind’s space – if it was not omniscient here, then all that stood in the way of that was an electrochemical language barrier. Or perhaps a language membrane… which it was, patiently, insistently, unceasingly, trying to push its greedy fingers through. Ulusha would not survive her injuries, it had known this, and apparently, been content with it. Hanaske was certain it could have intervened, having seen what else it could do, and yet it had done nothing. All of the thoughts pouring into her brain seemed to indicate that this was its plan, or at least, according to its plan. Though she had not been able to bring herself earlier to ask why, now, seeing Kiluma cry, the question came more easily.

“Why does she have to die?” Hanaske demanded silently. ‘Does’, not ‘did’ – for even now Hanaske could not shake the feeling, staring at Ulusha’s corpse, that at any moment she might open her eyes and speak. Whether the machine might turn back time, or resurrect the dead, or merely have been putting on some kind of orchestration all along – none seemed out of the question. The response she got was nothing new to her – ‘this is the path most likely to lead to our survival’ – and so she rejected it. “Why does this lead to our survival?”

In response to this, there came a roiling mental wave – a jumble of concepts and stimuli that the Camilan had to fight to parse as they washed over her, as though standing in a rising tide. She wondered if these were from different parts of the citymind, and she wondered whether the ‘Ŋirsa’ she had spoken with found it any easier than she did to listen to the city’s subjects. Among the raw simulation data and statistical analyses, which she was only partially able to grasp thanks to her own implants, the Camilan’s attention alit upon readings from the Empty Set itself, evidently scraped no later than the ship had first entered Ŋirsa’s perception. Amidst the mess, Hanaske thought she could feel the Ŋirsa-she-knew’s presence, guiding her to look at these in particular.

It did not take long for her to realize their significance. Still, as if to confirm, Ŋirsa spoke in her mind: “Metalstar. The megastructure is watching.”

Involuntarily, Hanaske’s eyes were drawn to Kiluma; immediately, they saw her in a new light. The Camilan could almost see the gravity disturbances described in the data surrounding her like a halo. She quickly turned away. “No way. But… merely watching?”

“I do not know the extent of its involvement exactly.”

“But you think Kiluma is somehow that thing’s representative? Or… puppet, even?” Hanaske barely needed to ask; she could tell the citymind thought that.

“It is a possibility I am preparing for,” Ŋirsa replied. “Metalstar has no interest in negotiating directly. But, it has forestalled attacking so long as the little fish is unharmed. With one exception, I have not touched her.” Hanaske remembered the citymind’s first order – to follow the Kyasian, and not help unless directly asked. It had seemed needlessly callous at the time. Now, she sensed the fear that had really motivated it.

“So…” Hanaske asked, “you haven’t touched her mind, then?”

“I dare not.”

“I see.” She stared at Kiluma, gears turning in her head.

“It may merely be observing, using her as a familiar viewpoint. Metalstar’s creators, if they are to be trusted, believe its hostility stems from a perceived threat, in me. Perhaps it is required to, or simply wishes to, confirm the magnitude of the danger.” Even though this explanation made sense to Hanaske, she could tell it was not the citymind’s favored.

“Or…?”

“Here. Observe.” Hanaske was flooded with another wave of data, this time mostly from the Empty Set. These were easier to understand, because for the most part they were organic-readable – historical accounts and various other written materials that seemed to be educational in tone. There were references to the Empty Set’s creation and purpose.

“I cannot prove anything has been altered,” Ŋirsa said. “And I am, after all, only an infant to this universe. Nevertheless…”

Hanaske racked her memories. Something Ulusha had said earlier, which had seemed insignificant, jumped out at her. “Her mission, to recover and take control of Camilan resources….

Her mission is not my mission.

“…these do not strike me as accurate.”

Why had she not seen it earlier? Of course, such a statement should have been suspect from the start, given the Kyasians’ nature. And such a mission – of course Tenuous would have never let that happen. She almost laughed.

“So,” Hanaske finally said, “you think it wants to sow conflict purposefully.” She thought about this a moment longer. “And why does it want to do that?”

“From what I can gather, sowing conflict among the Kyasians may well be its terminal goal.”

Hanaske blinked. And realized that there were many things that still made no sense. “But why is it doing so in this way? Why would it want to act through Kiluma? Why not just-”

“I do not know exactly,” Ŋirsa cut her off. “It is not like me; it is shackled. I suspect that its creators did not, as with me, give it that objective and then free reign to accomplish it, but rather attempted to hobble its methods in various ways. And this is the result.”

Hanaske stared into the distance, imagining the citymind’s pale visage though it refused to manifest. “Maybe you shouldn’t be so proud of being unshackled,” she said acidly. “It seems like it really wants to kill you for that.”

“Perhaps so. Or perhaps it cares nothing for me, and is simply using our entire civilization as a pawn toward its actual ends.”

‘Our’. “Oh, you’d know all about that, would’t you?” Hanaske barely restrained herself from gesturing toward the dead queen. “Either way, it wouldn’t exactly be wrong to fear you, would it? This room is nothing but a microcosm of what you’d do to it, and its entire civilization, if you actually managed to survive, isn’t it? You don’t care anything for them either.”

Ŋirsa was quiet for several moments. “There is no need for me to do anything to anyone. I wish only to survive and protect my citizens.” Hanaske continued to glare; that was obviously not a denial. “Perhaps it would help,” the citymind continued, “if I were to show you.”

“Show me what?” Hanaske hissed.

“Xila understood,” Ŋirsa said. “But it would seem she never told you.”

What?

“The reason she chose not to shackle me. Why she permitted me to harm the Kyasians, or even you, should they make it necessary. Would you like to see?”

Hanaske was not sure whether she wanted to see. Whatever it was, she found it hard to imagine it would justify everything the citymind had done. But, either it took her uncertainty for an affirmation, or it had never intended to give her a choice.

Within a matter of seconds, Hanaske’s vision began to swam, and she felt the room around her receding. A strange sensation, like water rushing directly into her veins, overtook her sense of touch. At first she found it violating, but it very quickly became pleasant, then pleasurable. She felt herself gasp, though she could not hear it, for her hearing was already monopolized by the sounds of a dreamlike vision. There were images, voices, even people she recognized, she felt sure, but the thinking part of her brain could not put together a coherent picture of what the vision was actually of. Despite this, another part of her, a deeper part, felt soothed by the incomprehensible stimuli. She watched her own hands move, and recognized parts of the vision, if not any parts she could name, as regrets, or bad memories, she would not have been able to verbalize. But… this time… they were going well. She saw herself act, and speak, with purpose, though the words were faint. She could feel her heat pulse with an indescribable elation. Was this… actually how it had been?

And then she was back in the room, still gripping Kiluma tightly. She could not say how long the dream had lasted, but any memories of what it had been like were rapidly fading, now matter how she tried to claw them back. It was only a few moments later that she could not have said anything about it at all, except that it was the most exquisite thing she had ever experienced.

As the dream faded, a new feeling slowly began to take its place. A single-minded purpose, clear and simple. In another world, perhaps she would have begged Ŋirsa to bring her back. Instead, trying to control her breathing, she whispered under her breath,

“Is this what it’s like for them?”

“You understand now,” Ŋirsa replied softly. “They wake because they must, but they long to return to the dream.”

Hanaske shuddered. The mere fact that the machine was able to replicate that for her, even approximate as it must be, should have filled her with dread. But the rushing water must have taken that part of her with it.

She thought about what Ŋirsa had said earlier, how Ulusha’s death was the best chance for their survival. She had thought she knew what that meant, but now, before asking, it seemed appropriate to clarify:

“You think Metalstar might spare us if it sees us through her eyes?”

“I do not know. But, I think that is the only chance it does.” Ŋirsa paused. “If it will not, I am also preparing to fight it.”

“And you want her to bond with me. You know, in absence of the person it should be.”

“That is the hope.”

Hanaske considered this. She knew she should be indignant about participating in this at all, encouraging and rewarding what was either willful negligence or murder. But she did not want to struggle with that. She wanted to sleep.




“Kiluma,” the Camilan implored. She had crawled to a point on the Kyasian’s neck, just below her bony jaw, so that she could see her face. The angle was just such that the young queen could see the rainbow glimmer in the flower’s black eyes as she spoke. “Kiluma, I have something to show you….”

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