What have you learned today? P4

[Nanatsu no Tsuki]

That working to make things work is a waste and I am not sure why I insist. Stupidity on my part? Hope? Masochism?

Giving and understanding, all the time, without being reciprocated, is bad. It's more than bad. It makes me sad. As that Default song used to say, "I'm wasting my time, I'm wasting my time!" A lot.

I must be getting daft with age. Time to go to bed.

[Tiami]

That Linkin Park is a good band.

[Buffett and Colbert]

That my step-grandmother is an absolute, total bitch. I maintain that she killed my grandfather, but that's another story. Fact is, he died a couple of years ago and lies in a crypt in a cemetery. They have little vases to put flowers in, but she apparently called the place and told them to take it down. It gets better, her first husband lies right next to my grandfather and his vase is full of bright flowers. My dad tried not to show it, but I could tell he was hurt by this. So we bought flowers and laid them at the bottom of the thing anyway. They'll only be there for a day, but whatever. We said a couple of prayers and left. I wanted to cry because my dad was bent up about the thing. For Father's Day, I want to make a proper memorial for him complete with goddamn fucking flowers.

I also learned that I look kind of cute in baseball caps.

[Azaca]

I learned how weird five days of soberness feels. Damn it's just odd!

[Norstal]

That my step-grandmother is an absolute, total bitch. I maintain that she killed my grandfather, but that's another story. Fact is, he died a couple of years ago and lies in a crypt in a cemetery. They have little vases to put flowers in, but she apparently called the place and told them to take it down. It gets better, her first husband lies right next to my grandfather and his vase is full of bright flowers. My dad tried not to show it, but I could tell he was hurt by this. So we bought flowers and laid them at the bottom of the thing anyway. They'll only be there for a day, but whatever. We said a couple of prayers and left. I wanted to cry because my dad was bent up about the thing. For Father's Day, I want to make a proper memorial for him complete with goddamn fucking flowers.

I also learned that I look kind of cute in baseball caps.

Dude what the fuck is wrong with your step-grandmother. That's seriously fucked up.

I also learned that maybe CM will get interested in Buffy, what with all his baseball caps.

[Buffett and Colbert]

That I am alone with this burden. Peachy.

Bull. Soon you'll be seeing me, so I can add to your headaches.

[Azaca]

That I am alone with this burden. Peachy.

What burden? I can help! I need to do something or I feel I may explode! (Not having drugs in my system has really opened up my schedual)

[Norstal]

That I am alone with this burden. Peachy.

What burden? I can help! I need to do something or I feel I may explode! (Not having drugs in my system has really opened up my schedual)

Shhhh, she's asleep. :3

[Tiami]

That I am alone with this burden. Peachy.

What burden? I can help! I need to do something or I feel I may explode! (Not having drugs in my system has really opened up my schedual)

Explode not included.

[Buffett and Colbert]

Dude what the fuck is wrong with your step-grandmother. That's seriously fucked up.

My family is kind of fucked up. My dad, as much as he aggravates me, is actually sane. I find it hard to believe compared to the shit he had to deal with. This woman was a trained nurse and when we visited before he died, she wasn't having him eat right and wasn't even looking at what pills he was taking. He just randomly took a mix of what the doctors gave him as he saw fit. No fucking wonder he looked like shit. She knew. She just didn't care.

I also learned that maybe CM will get interested in Buffy, what with all his baseball caps.

I don't think that's even a remote possibility if I wear anything short of a Roman legionary helmet.

[Azaca]

What burden? I can help! I need to do something or I feel I may explode! (Not having drugs in my system has really opened up my schedual)

Explode not included.

I'm gonna go jump around and dancw like an idiot!

[Grenartia]

Wat.

I tire of the economic threads in NSG. All it is is free-markerteers preaching about privatization and high-fiving each other.

Economics tends to go over my head. I understand the basics, like S&D, and why high and low inflation are bad, but everything else goes over my head.

That there's a Zastava buried in Zeno's local graveyard, and that Zastava is also a Croatian arms company that produces Ak47's and M84 machineguns.

Zeno also learned that Zastava might make a good first name. Zastava Lenovsky... yeah...

That the white thing in the back of Zeno's local graveyard is actually a tool shed. And that the roads branching off cross some railroad tracks... Zeno might explore this area later, or tomorrow. :]

Zeno also heard a very strange bird inside of some guys house. It made a 'sqwa sqwa sqwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak' noise.

And finally, that the people Zeno lives near might actually be drug pushers. Last time Zeno seen a black guy around he got carted off by the cops for selling crack or something.

That Zeno's one of the coolest girls I know of.

[Lucent Dawn]

That my step-grandmother is an absolute, total bitch. I maintain that she killed my grandfather, but that's another story. Fact is, he died a couple of years ago and lies in a crypt in a cemetery. They have little vases to put flowers in, but she apparently called the place and told them to take it down. It gets better, her first husband lies right next to my grandfather and his vase is full of bright flowers. My dad tried not to show it, but I could tell he was hurt by this. So we bought flowers and laid them at the bottom of the thing anyway. They'll only be there for a day, but whatever. We said a couple of prayers and left. I wanted to cry because my dad was bent up about the thing. For Father's Day, I want to make a proper memorial for him complete with goddamn fucking flowers.

I also learned that I look kind of cute in baseball caps.

I'm sorry about the former,
Cheers for the latter.

Good luck with the memorial; I give you my best wishes. Your grandfather deserves to be honored, and it's a shame he didn't receive that honor (at least from your Grandmother).

[Norstal]

Dude what the fuck is wrong with your step-grandmother. That's seriously fucked up.

My family is kind of fucked up. My dad, as much as he aggravates me, is actually sane. I find it hard to believe compared to the shit he had to deal with. This woman was a trained nurse and when we visited before he died, she wasn't having him eat right and wasn't even looking at what pills he was taking. He just randomly took a mix of what the doctors gave him as he saw fit. No fucking wonder he looked like shit. She knew. She just didn't care.

Wow. That sounds like a total bitch alright. Don't worry, she'll get what's coming.

I also learned that maybe CM will get interested in Buffy, what with all his baseball caps.

I don't think that's even a remote possibility if I wear anything short of a Roman legionary helmet.

[Buffett and Colbert]

That my step-grandmother is an absolute, total bitch. I maintain that she killed my grandfather, but that's another story. Fact is, he died a couple of years ago and lies in a crypt in a cemetery. They have little vases to put flowers in, but she apparently called the place and told them to take it down. It gets better, her first husband lies right next to my grandfather and his vase is full of bright flowers. My dad tried not to show it, but I could tell he was hurt by this. So we bought flowers and laid them at the bottom of the thing anyway. They'll only be there for a day, but whatever. We said a couple of prayers and left. I wanted to cry because my dad was bent up about the thing. For Father's Day, I want to make a proper memorial for him complete with goddamn fucking flowers.

I also learned that I look kind of cute in baseball caps.

I'm sorry about the former,
Cheers for the latter.

Good luck with the memorial; I give you my best wishes. Your grandfather deserves to be honored, and it's a shame he didn't receive that honor (at least from your Grandmother).

Whatever. She'll kick the bucket soon anyway. Doesn't matter either way: she's practically dead as it is.

[Grenartia]

That I am alone with this burden. Peachy.

What burden? I can help! I need to do something or I feel I may explode! (Not having drugs in my system has really opened up my schedual)

Try to get a job at a snoball stand. It's not that hard.

[Grenartia]

I'm sorry about the former,
Cheers for the latter.

Good luck with the memorial; I give you my best wishes. Your grandfather deserves to be honored, and it's a shame he didn't receive that honor (at least from your Grandmother).

Whatever. She'll kick the bucket soon anyway. Doesn't matter either way: she's practically dead as it is.

[Nightkill the Emperor]

That Linkin Park is a good band.

[The Merchant Republics]

I've learned never to put my hopes on Vancouver. Blessed idiots. Let down the whole freaking country.

[Galenaima]

That working to make things work is a waste and I am not sure why I insist. Stupidity on my part? Hope? Masochism?

Giving and understanding, all the time, without being reciprocated, is bad. It's more than bad. It makes me sad. As that Default song used to say, "I'm wasting my time, I'm wasting my time!" A lot.

I must be getting daft with age. Time to go to bed.

[Azaca]

That I really would like some speed right now. A lot. Like I would go suck a guys dick for some. But I know I can't have any or I'll go right back to where I was staying for days straight, eating nothing and forcing myself to drink miniscule doses of water. It wasn't fun but the first feeling of euphoria was wonderful. And my mind felt so at one with everything. Like I was in control of the universe. But afterwards, I would have serious chest pains and my heart would beat so rapidly I started thinking I was having heart attacks and my head would start to hurt from how fast my mind was racing. So I would take more and go on binges for days without sleep. It was a terrible adventure, it honestly was. No one should do it ever. My hair(Which I love very much and care deeply for) began falling out and I lost like 15 pounds in a month. It's a slippery slope, too. I started hanging out with friends who would also tweak up. And we didn't do a lot, maybe 15mg, just to feel good. But after a while, I never left my room, and I was snorting like 40-60mg a day. I hated myself for doing it. I hated everything about it. But I couldn't see myself without it. But finally, I had been up for about 27 hours, And was complaining about my addiction on this thread when people were giving me advice about what I should do. And I thought to myself, If these people who I don't even know want me to stop, then I should. What's to stop me right now from putting down the razor and straw and just turning a new leaf? And here I am now, 5 days sober. Sorry, I appear to be rambling, just started getting it all out and now I feel better.

[Buffett and Colbert]

That I really would like some speed right now. A lot. Like I would go suck a guys dick for some. But I know I can't have any or I'll go right back to where I was staying for days straight, eating nothing and forcing myself to drink miniscule doses of water. It wasn't fun but the first feeling of euphoria was wonderful. And my mind felt so at one with everything. Like I was in control of the universe. But afterwards, I would have serious chest pains and my heart would beat so rapidly I started thinking I was having heart attacks and my head would start to hurt from how fast my mind was racing. So I would take more and go on binges for days without sleep. It was a terrible adventure, it honestly was. No one should do it ever. My hair(Which I love very much and care deeply for) began falling out and I lost like 15 pounds in a month. It's a slippery slope, too. I started hanging out with friends who would also tweak up. And we didn't do a lot, maybe 15mg, just to feel good. But after a while, I never left my room, and I was snorting like 40-60mg a day. I hated myself for doing it. I hated everything about it. But I couldn't see myself without it. But finally, I had been up for about 27 hours, And was complaining about my addiction on this thread when people were giving me advice about what I should do. And I thought to myself, If these people who I don't even know want me to stop, then I should. What's to stop me right now from putting down the razor and straw and just turning a new leaf? And here I am now, 5 days sober. Sorry, I appear to be rambling, just started getting it all out and now I feel better.

I'll make you a deal. You don't do drugs and I'll suck that dick for you.

[Azaca]

That I really would like some speed right now. A lot. Like I would go suck a guys dick for some. But I know I can't have any or I'll go right back to where I was staying for days straight, eating nothing and forcing myself to drink miniscule doses of water. It wasn't fun but the first feeling of euphoria was wonderful. And my mind felt so at one with everything. Like I was in control of the universe. But afterwards, I would have serious chest pains and my heart would beat so rapidly I started thinking I was having heart attacks and my head would start to hurt from how fast my mind was racing. So I would take more and go on binges for days without sleep. It was a terrible adventure, it honestly was. No one should do it ever. My hair(Which I love very much and care deeply for) began falling out and I lost like 15 pounds in a month. It's a slippery slope, too. I started hanging out with friends who would also tweak up. And we didn't do a lot, maybe 15mg, just to feel good. But after a while, I never left my room, and I was snorting like 40-60mg a day. I hated myself for doing it. I hated everything about it. But I couldn't see myself without it. But finally, I had been up for about 27 hours, And was complaining about my addiction on this thread when people were giving me advice about what I should do. And I thought to myself, If these people who I don't even know want me to stop, then I should. What's to stop me right now from putting down the razor and straw and just turning a new leaf? And here I am now, 5 days sober. Sorry, I appear to be rambling, just started getting it all out and now I feel better.

I'll make you a deal. You don't do drugs and I'll suck that dick for you.

Deal.

[Grenartia]

That I really would like some speed right now. A lot. Like I would go suck a guys dick for some. But I know I can't have any or I'll go right back to where I was staying for days straight, eating nothing and forcing myself to drink miniscule doses of water. It wasn't fun but the first feeling of euphoria was wonderful. And my mind felt so at one with everything. Like I was in control of the universe. But afterwards, I would have serious chest pains and my heart would beat so rapidly I started thinking I was having heart attacks and my head would start to hurt from how fast my mind was racing. So I would take more and go on binges for days without sleep. It was a terrible adventure, it honestly was. No one should do it ever. My hair(Which I love very much and care deeply for) began falling out and I lost like 15 pounds in a month. It's a slippery slope, too. I started hanging out with friends who would also tweak up. And we didn't do a lot, maybe 15mg, just to feel good. But after a while, I never left my room, and I was snorting like 40-60mg a day. I hated myself for doing it. I hated everything about it. But I couldn't see myself without it. But finally, I had been up for about 27 hours, And was complaining about my addiction on this thread when people were giving me advice about what I should do. And I thought to myself, If these people who I don't even know want me to stop, then I should. What's to stop me right now from putting down the razor and straw and just turning a new leaf? And here I am now, 5 days sober. Sorry, I appear to be rambling, just started getting it all out and now I feel better.

It gets better. I promise. Congratulations on your 5th day.

[Grenartia]

I'll make you a deal. You don't do drugs and I'll suck that dick for you.

Deal.

And I'll be your bitch.