Sanghyeok wrote:
There was the soft sound of conversation, and Kehrer opened his eyes. Just above him, there was a flash of white, and he wondered if he had fallen back into unconsciousness again. Fear permeated his body, until he looked closely and realised it was a doctor's coat.
That's right, there was a doctor. For some reason, he had forgotten that simple fact. Kehrer now understood: even if his liver had been replaced with a flash-cloned version and his blood vessels swept clear of all traces of alcohol, his mind was still corrupted, his memory blurry and failing.
"King Kehrer?"
Hearing his name being called out, he looked up at the doctor standing before him.
"Ah...yes?"
"As I was saying, King Kehrer, you might continue to experience some symptoms of withdraw from alcohol intake. I was informed by your guards about your situation, and although hallucinations and falling unconscious are certainly not common, they are nonetheless not a sign to be worried. I have told your guards to inform me if there are any developments or worsening of your condition, but as of present there is no cause for alarm."
Kehrer nodded, using a tremendous amount of his effort to do so.
The doctor turned towards his guards, and her voice lowered. Kehrer strained to hear what she was saying, but he couldn't make out much more than "refrain from alcohol". His guards uttered their acknowledgement, and the doctor left right as Kehrer felt something pressing against his arm.
"Energy infusion, as the doctor ordered for you" his guard explained, "it should improve your condition." He turned around, showing Kehrer the strange looking instrument. There were some symbols he couldn't recognise, but there was indeed "50ml" written on the side in bright lettering.
Kehrer stared at the words for a while, praying this world's more advanced medical technology could at least restore his functioning. He felt hopeful; at least the fatigue and pain were gone for now, and his thoughts were becoming clearer.
"Are you feeling better already, King Kehrer?" his guard asked. "If you are well enough, perhaps you can rejoin the others and finish your lunch."
The world was a kaleidoscope spiraling inward in blurred fractals. Alastair found it impossible to concentrate on a singular sight, touch, sound, and responding to the doctor...he hadn't the energy. He lacked the will. Her words were a jumbled mess coating him in pain and confusion, and his mouth was leaden, his muscles stone. His body was trapped in its own sluggish timeline while the universe unfolded around him in a time lapse.
He took a shuddering breath, nodded his head. Tears dripped from his face into his lap where his hands rested. His palms faced upward in supplication, begging him to cry into them, to not sink into immobility again. It was okay if he collapsed again; it was okay that he could not stop shivering. His blanket was wrapped around him, and he could not stop shivering.
The speed of the surrounding world soon prompted the doctor to leave, and Alastair found one of his guards rolling up his right sleeve. Another steadied his arm while the first injected something into his vein that only stung slightly when it penetrated his skin. He was so detached that the words "energy infusion" meant nothing to him, that the lettering on the syringe, foreign as it was, failed to captivate his attention.
After only a few seconds, the whispers of vitality swirled within him. The paces of his milieu and his own tortured mind evened out, and the lead evaporated, the stoniness softened.
"Are you feeling better already, King Kehrer?" A guard, inquiring about his condition. Yes, this guard, Muntz--the one who had just injected him with what was likely pure adrenaline. "If you are well enough, perhaps you can rejoin the others and finish your lunch."
"I finished my lunch," Alastair reminded him. "I devoured everything." Suddenly, he was reminded that he was utterly disgusted by himself. "I do not want to reconvene with anyone." Was there bitterness in his voice? He did not care. "It would be best if no one...know one ever saw me. Again. If...no one here ever saw me ever again." Throughout this whole ordeal, he had been crying. He blew his nose into a tissue now, crumpled it up, and crushed it underneath his grip to steady himself. He was completely serious in not wanting to interact with the other leaders after the massive coxcomb he had made of himself.
"I...I think...I...do I...do...I...need help?" The question was so difficult to articulate, but God, it had been swirling around for a long time. "What is wrong with me? Why am I like this? I--" He broke off. Sniffed. Blew his nose again. "Why am I such a failure?"