Ariel had already seen her fair share of brawls, and part of her admitted to be amused by such scenes. This one, though, weighed heavier on her than usual, for it highlighted the schisms that were forming on her team. And now with defectors in SHADOCOM, it was only going to get worse. All she could do now was try to keep the team together somehow. She had a bad feeling about this.
On Milena's part, Antoniya's well wishes, however doubtful, was much appreciated. A small, genuine smile on her face, she seemed, at least for a moment, a normal child her age. But whatever glee she took evaporated with Heim's stirring but hollow speech. Reverting back to her usual scowl, Milena clearly doubted Heim's words, and for good reason.
"Dreams are meant to be high, even unimaginable, Antoniya," she said, accepting her hand, "they're difficult, but not impossible."
Getting to her feet, she whispered to the girl, "just so you know, I'd be careful not to trust that woman's (Heim's) words. Her speech may sound stirring, but she is no different from everyone here - using each other as walking sandbags in a merry gathering to save their own skins. I'd be lying if I said I'm any different from them, but at least I don't pretend to like them."
Every word from the esper burned with an indignant hiss. Already, her list of people she despised was growing with every pitying and patronizing look that hit her. She had not admitted to it yet, but every day, the faint, mental whispers of everyone around her were growing. She had been trying to block it out, both out of courtesy and out of fear of Polina. But part of her was tempted to probe, unwilling to let her pride be chewed on by her so-called comrades.
Crawling out of her hiding spot, Anna was miserable, sobbing and sticky. The smell of alcohol reeking from her drenched body, the hapless Mennonite witch bawled her eyes out at the frightening brawl. She had not even finished wiping the gravy and beef off her clothes before the fight occurred. Now, all she could think about was going back to her barracks for a shower, and trying to put the tragic episode behind her.
"I'm soiled," she wept, still distressed by the experience, "in devil's nectar and wheat demons, all! I want to go back! I told you I didn't want to come here! Look what happened!..."
If there was a bigger child than Milena, it would be her.







