Rhomaia wrote:Luminesa wrote:"...He knows nothing...and everything...all at once..." he muttered to himself. "...Many things he will never know, truths that lie in places he will never see...in graves he will never find...He and I exist behind a wall that will never fully break..." He sighed sadly, as he accepted this reality, and he looked at Ruta. He was sure the Jaëgar would wonder what on earth he was talking about, and what it had to do with Alex. Thus, he added something Ruta might not have been expecting. "And yet...strangely enough...the wall is only skin-deep...if he could see beyond that...if anyone could see beyond that...they would know everything...That includes you, Antonius..."
Having given Ruta both nothing and plenty to think about, Rabbit then turned past him, and began to walk away. "I cannot leave the ballroom while the students are there. I hope you have a good night, and please, rest yourself. You have no reason to fear the night. The shadow here will protect you..." he mumbled, as he almost floated past the Professor, he walked so gracefully and quietly.
Narrowing his icy blue eyes at the boy as he scampered off, Ruta gave a flourish of his black blade and let it fade into obsidian dust, the particles that once composed the fearsome weapon dissipated into nothing, like fine ash being scattered to the wind. He was not sure of what to do with the boy. Emotional reinforcement was not at all his strong suit, it seemed. Whenever he did try to reach out to anyone, it always ended up in the same way. Someone got hurt, someone would call him a freak, someone would never want to see his face again for as long as they lived. It would have been comedic for Ruta if it was Alex alone who had reacted this way, and yet that was certainly not the case.
In any case, such things should have been left to the Rabbit. The only time when he was ever needed was when someone needed someone or something dead. That was his job, after all. He was a killer, a murderer, and a monster. They would always see him that way, no matter what he did. Perhaps even the Rabbit saw him as such.
Even still, his mutterings of skin deep walls and mysteries and seeing beyond what one first saw was unnerving to the Jaegar, leaving him completely silent as the masked, enigmatic Professor passed him by, leading to Ruta closing his eyes once more. There was no point in questioning it. Whether or not these were the Rabbit's inner thoughts or mere purposeful ramblings meant to confound him, it didn't matter to him. The inquisitive side of him was much too drained from countless questions and theories as to what he really was, and none of them he could confirm. Not with the Rabbit being the recluse he was. Shaking his head at the thought of standing around and letting the Rabbit again take over the nightwatch, Ruta began to walk in the opposite direction, starting his rounds for the night.
Rabbit walked back toward the ballroom, but for a few moments, before he walked back inside, he stood right outside of the room and thought for a few moments. He knew Ruta had been chilled by what he had said. Of course he was. That was the goal. Ruta wore just as many masks as Rabbit, even without physically wearing one, and Rabbit would tear them all off in due time.
Yes, it is true enough, isn't it? Both of us are paradoxes...Neither of us are supposed to exist, are we?...Or is it...we are not supposed to exist as we are now?...Neither of us are truly concrete...We exist as forces of nature that can never truly join together...it is sad, is it not?...Ah, but I suppose it is what it is...I will continue until I reach my ultimate end.
As he continued standing where he was, he clenched his fists tightly, thinking hard about this train of thought. Why it was coming to this now, he was not entirely sure. However, he did not stop this thought. This was at the core of who he was, even as he let nobody else know it but himself.
...Yes...The beginning has been mine, and the end will be mine...My life is mine, and I will never be used by anyone ever again...I will never be anyone else's tool...anyone else's weapon...Now, I am the hand behind the weapon...I am the force that drives what is to what must be...
With this thought, he walked back into the ballroom, and stood in a corner of the room, waiting for the night to end. Tomorrow would begin the tournament, another day to live and to continue toward the end. That was all Rabbit cared about, that end. It had to happen, before he was figured-out...




