Free Empire of the Low Isles wrote:Luminesa wrote:
He wasn't sure what all the pain was. He was a huge knot of confusion and sadness. He had watched Hyperion pummel him, after he knew he was being controlled. Raven did so as well, as did Nyx and others. Now Charlotte was joining in, and God knew there was no changing her mind, if she really thought those awful things about him. He felt tired, aching, and scared. He felt he was losing friends left and right.
Was it something I did?
Am I really not faithful enough?
Do I really deserve all this?
Why am I so weak?
He leaned his head against Raphael's shoulder, not wanting him to leave. He was terrified for the future, wondering if somehow he was going to end-up all alone again. Just like the beginning.
Raphael rubbed Lux's shoulder lightly and rested his head on top of his brother's. "Come on Lux. Everything'll be fine, okay?"
"...I am sorry...I am sorry I hurt all of you...It is my fault, I should not have wandered away...or made myself vulnerable...I am sorry...I want all of this to end, but every time I want to, it seems I only make things worse...I do not know...Who can I trust? Who can I trust to not hurt me?" He blurted the last two lines out in anguish, as he understood what was hurting him.




