Shyluz wrote:Charlia wrote:Charlotte followed her angrily.
"Then you are an idiot if that's what you think. My living isn't a blessing, it's a curse. And do you know what? I don't have a future. Nobody like me could have a future. And do you know what else? Nobody could love me. You don't know what I am. You don't know just how shattered my world is. I can't love anyone, I lost that a long time ago. I can't trust anyone, that will only bring pain. I have counted my blessings. Do you know how many there were? One. And that one blessing is the only thing that stands against my greatest curse--and it's just another reason why I will always, always, be alone."
Her voice lowered.
"You don't know me. So stop trying to pretend that you do."
"Oh, let me get this straight -- I was once, just like you. So yes, in fact, I do know you. And yes, someone does love you. His name is Theriam. And you know this. And you also know that you're being selfish. And you know what else? It's not about you, anymore. And if you really believe that, you wouldn't tell me this. You don't even know what a blessing is." Chess said, waving her off dismissively as she walked down the hallway. "Being alone is what gets you killed."
"I know what a blessing is! I used to have them! Before... before she died." Charlotte almost cried, but she managed to keep her composure. "The only blessing I have now is that no matter what happens..." She cut herself off.
"And if being alone gets me killed, then I'll stay alone, and die! Just like her! She's free from pain, and sorrow, and shame, and everything that would have hurt her. I make myself free. But if I die... I won't have to keep myself this way anymore. That will be true freedom. So keep your friends, and your trust, and your loved ones, I want no part of it!"