Personification Life OOC IX [CLOSED]

[The New Velociraptor Empire]

I have only one thing to say...

*cries*

[Rygondria]

well i am stuck handing out candy see you all later and good luck swith

[Morlodania]

But...

Um, how...

Why not just stick to it without teaching? There's still stuff to do...

I don't like change.

I agree change is not the most wanted of things, however, it can be at times, the most necessary of things.

Let me tell from personal experience. Back when I joined, i always knew i would do good and that things would change for me. However, second i was in basic, i knew i would miss my family, it was to a point to where i cried at times when no one was around or when they were i kept it to myself. Overtime, and a little help from a guy who took the photo for my CAC who told me a story, i shaped up and got to work. Thpugh would still breakdown a bit every time i got the chance to call mom or dad. Flash forward to now and i still cry every time i have to leave Dayton and head back to Arizona because i know i won't get to see them, bit in the end i knew that this is the choice i made and i made it because i couldn't live with my mom or my dad forever, i needed to better my life so that one day i could have my own family.

TL; too lazy to read, change is necessary for the better

Oh, that's right, you're Army...
HEY GUESS WHAT, I'M IN AIT!

[The Drone Empire]

*thinks about IRC yesterday. only remembers the idiotic derp wars between Mandi, Mon, Bran, Torsi and myself.* Uhhh...

Anyone ever see the movie, "Nanny McPhee"? "When you need me but do not want me, I will stay. When you want me but no longer need me, then I will go." Not that Swith was ever not wanted, but it goes hand in hand with the idea that every teacher and mentor must eventually step back. Not just in the movies, but in real life too. Teachers, parents, it's part of learning, and part of life.

Swith, you've proven to be a incredibly strong young woman the entirety of the time I've known you, not just in RP'ing but real life as well. I know that you're continuing to use that strength right now in the real world, and now I can't be selfish and beg for it to remain here. You have to put it where you need it, and we're too strong now to piggyback on you anymore. You've inspired me and taught me a lot, not just in writing, but in putting my foot down with others and expecting more from people who can do more (you wouldn't see it on this website, but it has happened). That doesn't mean I'm not going to miss you, though. I'm going to miss viewing my posts, seeing your username in the IC, and getting all excited to see what you put down. I'm going to miss seeing Naomi being all quirky, or Swith all classy, or Minerva all cool and serious. I feel like there's more I wanted to see. But looking at things from a realistic perspective, when things end, we seldom feel like that was all there really was. But they need to end anyway, because all things come to an end.

I wish there was more I could do to assist you personally, but when it comes right down to it, all I can do are the things you've advised us. I don't feel like I can do it. I don't feel like I can grip that torch and properly wave it for others to follow. I don't see a lot in myself. But if you say I can, and that more of us can, then I have to believe so and try. It's always hard to make the first unassisted steps, but we need to make them before we start to run.

I wish you all the best of luck in whatever struggles you face. If you're ever feeling down or alone, don't, because Miss Gio is always sending her best regards, holding your hand in spirit, from miles away.

Damn, Gio, making me look bad, what with your Nanny McPhee's and words.

Just kidding of course, I just don't have the time to type up something so damn kind.

[Germanic Templars]

I agree change is not the most wanted of things, however, it can be at times, the most necessary of things.

Let me tell from personal experience. Back when I joined, i always knew i would do good and that things would change for me. However, second i was in basic, i knew i would miss my family, it was to a point to where i cried at times when no one was around or when they were i kept it to myself. Overtime, and a little help from a guy who took the photo for my CAC who told me a story, i shaped up and got to work. Thpugh would still breakdown a bit every time i got the chance to call mom or dad. Flash forward to now and i still cry every time i have to leave Dayton and head back to Arizona because i know i won't get to see them, bit in the end i knew that this is the choice i made and i made it because i couldn't live with my mom or my dad forever, i needed to better my life so that one day i could have my own family.

TL; too lazy to read, change is necessary for the better

Oh, that's right, you're Army...
HEY GUESS WHAT, I'M IN AIT!

Congrats, i am in ft. Huachuca. What is your mos?

[Rygondria]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sOnqjkJTMaA
Happy Halloween everyone!

[Morlodania]

Oh, that's right, you're Army...
HEY GUESS WHAT, I'M IN AIT!

Congrats, i am in ft. Huachuca. What is your mos?

92G

[Cerillium]

Will be back under my puppet.

[The Thade]

And now I'm back. On to the next post.

[Tiltjuice]

One of my besetting sins - but also the only reason I've made it this far - is the ability to make snap decisions. Usually they work out for the better. Lately, though, I've been going off the rails. I nearly ran someone over this week (or was it last week?). I've been forgetting to lock the doors. I've been falling asleep while at work (while the CEO is in the building doing spot visits, AND during performance review season no less!).

I'm doing too many things at once. Something has got to give, and unfortunately, that's PL. Fortunately, most of my characters are parked, with the only exception being MB (with Sapphire). Once that side story is done, I'm out of NationStates, unless absolutely needed to defuse something.
This is a lovely RP, and I hope you all find it in yourselves to continue its success.

Tilt out, with one last penguin for you all.

[Rygondria]

One of my besetting sins - but also the only reason I've made it this far - is the ability to make snap decisions. Usually they work out for the better. Lately, though, I've been going off the rails. I nearly ran someone over this week (or was it last week?). I've been forgetting to lock the doors. I've been falling asleep while at work (while the CEO is in the building doing spot visits, AND during performance review season no less!).

I'm doing too many things at once. Something has got to give, and unfortunately, that's PL. Fortunately, most of my characters are parked, with the only exception being MB (with Sapphire). Once that side story is done, I'm out of NationStates, unless absolutely needed to defuse something.
This is a lovely RP, and I hope you all find it in yourselves to continue its success.

Tilt out, with one last penguin for you all.

well i will see you on the trail friend *tips cowboy hat*

[Giovenith]

One of my besetting sins - but also the only reason I've made it this far - is the ability to make snap decisions. Usually they work out for the better. Lately, though, I've been going off the rails. I nearly ran someone over this week (or was it last week?). I've been forgetting to lock the doors. I've been falling asleep while at work (while the CEO is in the building doing spot visits, AND during performance review season no less!).

I'm doing too many things at once. Something has got to give, and unfortunately, that's PL. Fortunately, most of my characters are parked, with the only exception being MB (with Sapphire). Once that side story is done, I'm out of NationStates, unless absolutely needed to defuse something.
This is a lovely RP, and I hope you all find it in yourselves to continue its success.

Tilt out, with one last penguin for you all.

Awwww, Tilt. Now I gotta give you a heartfelt good-bye speech too?

But seriously, RL before PL. I'm going to miss you just as much as Swith. You are both some of the hugest backbones that make this RP. You need to be happy and healthy in life, and if that means letting us go, then by all means fly away. We love you regardless if you're here or not. Like Swith, you have our far away support no matter where you go.

[Torsiedelle]

At this point, that leaves Cer & Min to hold down the fort, meaning that some more are going to have to step up to help.

[Tiltjuice]

One of my besetting sins - but also the only reason I've made it this far - is the ability to make snap decisions. Usually they work out for the better. Lately, though, I've been going off the rails. I nearly ran someone over this week (or was it last week?). I've been forgetting to lock the doors. I've been falling asleep while at work (while the CEO is in the building doing spot visits, AND during performance review season no less!).

I'm doing too many things at once. Something has got to give, and unfortunately, that's PL. Fortunately, most of my characters are parked, with the only exception being MB (with Sapphire). Once that side story is done, I'm out of NationStates, unless absolutely needed to defuse something.
This is a lovely RP, and I hope you all find it in yourselves to continue its success.

Tilt out, with one last penguin for you all.

Awwww, Tilt. Now I gotta give you a heartfelt good-bye speech too?

But seriously, RL before PL. I'm going to miss you just as much as Swith. You are both some of the hugest backbones that make this RP. You need to be happy and healthy in life, and if that means letting us go, then by all means fly away. We love you regardless if you're here or not. Like Swith, you have our far away support no matter where you go.

[Giovenith]

At this point, that leaves Cer & Min to hold down the fort, meaning that some more are going to have to step up to help.

Is this the part where we all stare at each other awkwardly until someone gives in and agrees to do it?

[Monfrox]

At this point, that leaves Cer & Min to hold down the fort, meaning that some more are going to have to step up to help.

Is this the part where we all stare at each other awkwardly until someone gives in and agrees to do it?

I could try.

Sorry to see you go too, Tilt.

[The Thade]

People want to know where I stand with yesterday's events, TNEL's membership, and Swith's departure (and now Tilt's departure). All are interconnected. This isn't about the mini-game at all. It's about the antics TNEL pulled afterwards and his narcissistic words.

What transpired in the IRC TABStaff room was a conversation between TNEL, Morlo, and Swith with brief interjections by Tilt. I'll clarify some points:

• This isn't F7. I'm not going to allow two F7ers to dictate things.
• TAB is the PL region. It was formed by PL for PL and only recently has opened its door to non-PL members. All but 1 person in TAB have been associated with PL. The reason TNEL was kicked from PL initially was for this reason. The two elements are one; removal from PL results in removal from region and vice-versa.

TNEL and Morlo, I am beyond irked with you both. The fuck do you think you are that you can sit in an IRC channel and berate Swith for doing her job as founder? She can kick whoever she pleases and she's normally more than forgiving and diplomatic in her approach. Your attitudes smacked of ingratitude and pettiness.

"Are you seriously going to erase all of my time here because of a simple damned oversight?" Are you seriously stating that your limited time here is more precious than anyone else's? Are you so wrapped up in your shit that you fail to realize that the game world and region were designed by the obsessive little bitch that both of you chewed on last night? PL exists because of her "obsessive" effort to cater to everyone's dreams and wants. It's not 'obsession'; it's a labor of love.



All,
Let me hear your reasons for keeping PL and the region open. I'm also appalled by "gosh be nice to him" bullshit that came through TG from some of you (the jerks made Swith cry; you be nice to them - NMJM - or grow some balls for once in your life and take a stand if you really care about her as much as you say). Kindly make your statements here and not through my TG.

1. Do you want TNEL to stay after his latest meltdown cost you your thread mother and one CoOP?
2. Do you want to continue with PL or should we let it die?
3. Do you want to continue the region or should I withdraw Tego and all the puppets?
4. Do you want to run PL yourselves? You'd need to create your own setting for the Building; it shouldn't remain in Bielefeld. We'll have to piece out some things to avoid intellectual property complaints.
5. Do you want me to remain as your OP and region founder puppet?

My choices:
1. Stay, if you all wish, but TNEL is gone.
2. Leave. I won't remain if one of you takes over as OP. Swith most likely won't return either nor will Tilt.

[Giovenith]

I replied because I assumed since I got a reply, thus I assumed that it was resolved behind doors. I apologize if that looked like side-taking. I stand with what my OP's want.

[The Thade]

I don't think you took sides, Gio. You weren't privy to much of what transpired. Many weren't. They saw only one side because the other parties were busy with the mini-game.

[Morlodania]

People want to know where I stand with yesterday's events, TNEL's membership, and Swith's departure (and now Tilt's departure). All are interconnected. This isn't about the mini-game at all. It's about the antics TNEL pulled afterwards and his narcissistic words.

What transpired in the IRC TABStaff room was a conversation between TNEL, Morlo, and Swith with brief interjections by Tilt. I'll clarify some points:

• This isn't F7. I'm not going to allow two F7ers to dictate things.
• TAB is the PL region. It was formed by PL for PL and only recently has opened its door to non-PL members. All but 1 person in TAB have been associated with PL. The reason TNEL was kicked from PL initially was for this reason. The two elements are one; removal from PL results in removal from region and vice-versa.

TNEL and Morlo, I am beyond irked with you both. The fuck do you think you are that you can sit in an IRC channel and berate Swith for doing her job as founder? She can kick whoever she pleases and she's normally more than forgiving and diplomatic in her approach. Your attitudes smacked of ingratitude and pettiness.

"Are you seriously going to erase all of my time here because of a simple damned oversight?" Are you seriously stating that your limited time here is more precious than anyone else's? Are you so wrapped up in your shit that you fail to realize that the game world and region were designed by the obsessive little bitch that both of you chewed on last night? PL exists because of her "obsessive" effort to cater to everyone's dreams and wants. It's not 'obsession'; it's a labor of love.



All,
Let me hear your reasons for keeping PL and the region open. I'm also appalled by "gosh be nice to him" bullshit that came through TG from some of you (the jerks made Swith cry; you be nice to them - NMJM - or grow some balls for once in your life and take a stand if you really care about her as much as you say). Kindly make your statements here and not through my TG.

1. Do you want TNEL to stay after his latest meltdown cost you your thread mother and one CoOP?
2. Do you want to continue with PL or should we let it die?
3. Do you want to continue the region or should I withdraw Tego and all the puppets?
4. Do you want to run PL yourselves? You'd need to create your own setting for the Building; it shouldn't remain in Bielefeld. We'll have to piece out some things to avoid intellectual property complaints.
5. Do you want me to remain as your OP and region founder puppet?

My choices:
1. Stay, if you all wish, but TNEL is gone.
2. Leave. I won't remain if one of you takes over as OP. Swith most likely won't return either nor will Tilt.

I...
Well...
If...

...

I'm sorry... I wasn't berating her, I was asking honest questions and I found that Swith was more right than TNEL, I found her point more valid, but I also accept that TNEL is my friend, and couldn't wholesale abandon him.

I'll... I'll go... Since I apparently caused far more pain than I ended up solving. I really am sorry... I could not foresee the consequences of my own actions and therefore failed to do what was truely right...

However, I'm not an 'F7er'. I was in P2TM BEFORE I joined the F7, I have RUN P2TM roleplays, as well as pen-and-paper RPGs IRL. I'm a roleplayer, F7 is where I go to try and get less... Serious than I am around here. I do take offense to that statement, but I do realize I was in the wrong and have incurred your anger and... Hurt Swith...

I saw Swith as a mentor, someone who helped pull me out of my shell here, where I was uncomfortable because I couldn't physically see the people I was roleplaying with, she got me to see, through little things, that I can do just as good here, if not better, than I do in person... And my causing her pain hurts me... It really does. I'm halfway into tears as I type this even because I can now see what the repercussions of my actions were.

Again, I'm truly sorry... Whether or not PL survives... Since I see this as my fault... I'm withdrawing. I do blame myself for this, partway... I dove in without all the facts and only fucked everything up further... Now the situation's damn near FUBAR and no matter what I do, whether I stay or leave, I can't help it.

I loved this roleplay, I enjoyed seeing the other players here... But... With the pain I caused Swith, with the anger I incurred from Cer... With just the general... Blah I have done to everyone here, at least in part... I cannot, in my frame of mind, try to stay.

[The Thade]

I...
Well...
If...

...

I'm sorry... I wasn't berating her, I was asking honest questions and I found that Swith was more right than TNEL, I found her point more valid, but I also accept that TNEL is my friend, and couldn't wholesale abandon him.

I'll... I'll go... Since I apparently caused far more pain than I ended up solving. I really am sorry... I could not foresee the consequences of my own actions and therefore failed to do what was truely right...

However, I'm not an 'F7er'. I was in P2TM BEFORE I joined the F7, I have RUN P2TM roleplays, as well as pen-and-paper RPGs IRL. I'm a roleplayer, F7 is where I go to try and get less... Serious than I am around here. I do take offense to that statement, but I do realize I was in the wrong and have incurred your anger and... Hurt Swith...

I saw Swith as a mentor, someone who helped pull me out of my shell here, where I was uncomfortable because I couldn't physically see the people I was roleplaying with, she got me to see, through little things, that I can do just as good here, if not better, than I do in person... And my causing her pain hurts me... It really does. I'm halfway into tears as I type this even because I can now see what the repercussions of my actions were.

Again, I'm truly sorry... Whether or not PL survives... Since I see this as my fault... I'm withdrawing. I do blame myself for this, partway... I dove in without all the facts and only fucked everything up further... Now the situation's damn near FUBAR and no matter what I do, whether I stay or leave, I can't help it.

I loved this roleplay, I enjoyed seeing the other players here... But... With the pain I caused Swith, with the anger I incurred from Cer... With just the general... Blah I have done to everyone here, at least in part... I cannot, in my frame of mind, try to stay.

Underlined part - I apologize for misspeaking. I presumed you were F7 first. My bad.

My anger is tied to the situation. The situation is over. It needed to be clarified that this wasn't due to the mini-event itself or TNEL's nation's 'cure v kill' actions.

Now's the time to move beyond it. We need to decide what we want to do. It has to be a group choice.

Morlo, the past has passed. You were unaware of much back story because you've only recently returned. From what I understand, Tilt didn't have time to delve into the "there are other things you aren't aware of" parts. You can't be faulted for standing by a friend. Swith is also a most forgiving person. Any possible residual pain wasn't stated in her last OOC post.

[Giovenith]

Of course I want PL to stay open, and of course I would never endorse anything that hurts Swith. I know she's busy and having a hard time right now (same with you Cer), and I've always done my best to try to make myself as less of a burden as possible, and helpful when I can, because of that. PL is a rare and fantastic experience that deserves to be assisted in any way. I won't beg Swith or Tilt to come back if their decisions are clear, but I won't build walls either. I was initially neutral with the whole regional dispute, since I figured it wasn't my place to throw any opinions into managerial stuff that I wasn't working with, but for the sake of the people who have put so much into the region and into this roleplay, I stand for what they need. If that means kicking for people for bad behavior, then fine. Swith has poured way more into thing than any human is expected to do, and one person's dissatisfaction should NOT be her undoing. Absolutely no one should feel attacked in the very environment that they tend to.

Ultimately though, I know I can't force the choices of those who want to make them. When separated from the actual recent incidents, I can't think of any arguments in support of PL that aren't, at their core, selfish. I love this RP, I love the lore we've created, I love the community we've put together. I don't want to see it go, and I will follow with any decisions made to keep it alive and the people who make that so feeling happy and appreciated. But that's just what I want, and what I'm willing to do. I can't make anyone else here, OP, coOP, or other, do anything that they just aren't set on doing. If you're sick of it all Cer, then I know there's really nothing I can say that will change that. I can only control my own behavior--my choice to fall in line with what supports the existence and efficiency of PL--but I can't change anything else. It's beyond me. I can't change what may make this place frustrating, I can't change other people's behavior, I can't make anyone's lives less of a hassle in favor of an internet game. This frustrates me, in that, again, it only leaves me with a simplistic and selfish case: I want this place to stay, I respect and love the people who make it what it is, and will do anything to support them. That's all I can do.

[Morlodania]

I...
Well...
If...

...

I'm sorry... I wasn't berating her, I was asking honest questions and I found that Swith was more right than TNEL, I found her point more valid, but I also accept that TNEL is my friend, and couldn't wholesale abandon him.

I'll... I'll go... Since I apparently caused far more pain than I ended up solving. I really am sorry... I could not foresee the consequences of my own actions and therefore failed to do what was truely right...

However, I'm not an 'F7er'. I was in P2TM BEFORE I joined the F7, I have RUN P2TM roleplays, as well as pen-and-paper RPGs IRL. I'm a roleplayer, F7 is where I go to try and get less... Serious than I am around here. I do take offense to that statement, but I do realize I was in the wrong and have incurred your anger and... Hurt Swith...

I saw Swith as a mentor, someone who helped pull me out of my shell here, where I was uncomfortable because I couldn't physically see the people I was roleplaying with, she got me to see, through little things, that I can do just as good here, if not better, than I do in person... And my causing her pain hurts me... It really does. I'm halfway into tears as I type this even because I can now see what the repercussions of my actions were.

Again, I'm truly sorry... Whether or not PL survives... Since I see this as my fault... I'm withdrawing. I do blame myself for this, partway... I dove in without all the facts and only fucked everything up further... Now the situation's damn near FUBAR and no matter what I do, whether I stay or leave, I can't help it.

I loved this roleplay, I enjoyed seeing the other players here... But... With the pain I caused Swith, with the anger I incurred from Cer... With just the general... Blah I have done to everyone here, at least in part... I cannot, in my frame of mind, try to stay.

Underlined part - I apologize for misspeaking. I presumed you were F7 first. My bad.

My anger is tied to the situation. The situation is over. It needed to be clarified that this wasn't due to the mini-event itself or TNEL's nation's 'cure v kill' actions.

Now's the time to move beyond it. We need to decide what we want to do. It has to be a group choice.

Morlo, the past has passed. You were unaware of much back story because you've only recently returned. From what I understand, Tilt didn't have time to delve into the "there are other things you aren't aware of" parts. You can't be faulted for standing by a friend. Swith is also a most forgiving person. Any possible residual pain wasn't stated in her last OOC post.

It's alright...

I'm a forgiving person, too, except to myself... I can't really forgive myself for not at least trying to delve a little deeper before... Throwing myself full force at the situation... I feel both stupid, embarrased and... Downright horrible about the lack of my usual foresight. I'm not saying this because of you, or her, I say this because of me, because I can't tell myself it's okay, because I can't believe others when THEY say it's okay, because it's so deeply ingrained in my head that wrong is WRONG, that you can't do that, that... It's a lot of things.

As some of my friends have said before, I'm such a paragon of good, I'm easily manipulated by my own blindness because of it, even by myself. This is one of those times when my overly good side is beating the ever living fuck out of the rest of me for what I did.

[Torsiedelle]

I will say right now that I do have sympathy for Morlo & TNEL in this. Lucky for me, I didn't send any TG's about that stuff, so I don't feel offended...like some others might be, however they are.

However, my loyalty lies with Swith, and the others. While I don't want to offend Morlo or TNEL, I do support the OPs and leaders. I want Swith & Tilt to stay.

Like Hell I want PL to die. It's one of the few things I legitimately look forward to every day when I come home. I feel connected to the characters, world, and, most of all, everyone in it. It isn't just a learning experience or writing for me; it's a hobby, an escape. I love PL. I want it to stay. You all keep me from snapping and fucking someone up. I need escape.

As for TAB, I have already stated that I did wish for a little more PL-centered hijinks. However, I deeply appreciate the efforts of Swith and you to create a region, OSF, and everything that comes with it. I want TAB to stay.

I don't wanna run PL. I'm not a leader. I'm comfortable where I am now, and I trust in you guys to keep us going. I'm seriously freaking out at the thought of not having Swith or Tilt around. It's like an army with no General.

And of-fucking-course I want you to remain leader and OP. You and Swith make PL what it is.

[Rygondria]

umm i am confused what is going on?