TET: It's a chat thread, not a race! (there's a difference?)

[Aeken]

I wish I could have been your friend during that time

I mean, I also discovered I was at least partially inclined to like androgynous guys in my early teenage years, but I never made too much of it, which is why I consider myself mostly heterosexual.

I still do, every now and then. I haven't ever attempted it, but my bouts of depression every now and then, combined by being surrounded by folks who think I'm, well, disgusting, doesn't help.

Shit, this is sounding like a pity party again.

Blas, I'm very sorry you feel this way.

When I deemed myself bisexual(gay for that matter now) it didn't seem like much of a blow, despite the rather homophobic rhetoric in my family.

But I hope you'll be fine in due time.

I'm out. Night everyone.

G'night.

[Bodobol]

I met this lady at the local observatory who noticed my Meshuggah shirt and we ended up talking about underground bands for almost half an hour. It was fun.

There's a band called Meshuggah?

You know what that means... right?

It's 'crazy' in Yiddish, correct?

[Uieurnthlaal]

I had to go to a therapist for awhile due to stress, social awkward-ness, and worries ~ sometimes I didn't even feel like carrying on due to all the things at that time. And when I went to a therapist, I made best friends with her and I feel relieved; joyful when I get to see her.

I was the same way. Exact same situation.

As long as there's someone to talk to.

[Blasveck]

I still do, every now and then. I haven't ever attempted it, but my bouts of depression every now and then, combined by being surrounded by folks who think I'm, well, disgusting, doesn't help.

Shit, this is sounding like a pity party again.

Blas, I'm very sorry you feel this way.

When I deemed myself bisexual(gay for that matter now) it didn't seem like much of a blow, despite the rather homophobic rhetoric in my family.

But I hope you'll be fine in due time.

I'm out. Night everyone.

G'night.

I'm sure I will. A visit to a therapist might help.

[Des-Bal]

I'm willing to take it. I hate the thought of non-existence. But some days, well.....

I won't go into detail.

I alternate between spiting people who hate, fear of non existence, and the desire to take everything I feel I'm worth before I leave the world. I am an engine powered by hate, fear, and when that won't get me out of bed, greed and that works just fucking fine.

[The Scientific States]

I was the same way. Exact same situation.

As long as there's someone to talk to.

Yup. Thankfully I never went through with suicide, and I'm much happier now thanks to therapy and high school being a shit ton better than middle school.

[Grenartia]

Its only a pity party if you don't try to take advice.

I'm willing to take it. I hate the thought of non-existence. But some days, well.....

I won't go into detail.

Well, you're not going around saying "Hey guys, look at me, my life has problems and shit. But I won't listen to your suggestions for how I can make it better." That's a pity party. Saying "Guys, I have some issues that I'd like to talk about, and any advice you could give would be greatly appreciated." is most definitely not a pity party.

I've had my issues with suicide, too. But the people here helped me through it.

[Aeken]

Blas, I'm very sorry you feel this way.

When I deemed myself bisexual(gay for that matter now) it didn't seem like much of a blow, despite the rather homophobic rhetoric in my family.

But I hope you'll be fine in due time.

G'night.

I'm sure I will. A visit to a therapist might help.

I probably need one too. My self-esteem issues are horrific.

[Menassa]

There's a band called Meshuggah?

You know what that means... right?

It's 'crazy' in Yiddish, correct?

Yeah.... any Jews in the band?

[The Scientific States]

4:30am. Right then, off to bed. Night all.

If you're still online, please respond to my telegram.

[Luxew]

I'm willing to take it. I hate the thought of non-existence. But some days, well.....

I won't go into detail.

I alternate between spiting people who hate, fear of non existence, and the desire to take everything I feel I'm worth before I leave the world. I am an engine powered by hate, fear, and when that won't get me out of bed, greed and that works just fucking fine.

My friend said one day suicide is selfish.

Speaking of my friends..........

[Blasveck]

I'm willing to take it. I hate the thought of non-existence. But some days, well.....

I won't go into detail.

I alternate between spiting people who hate, fear of non existence, and the desire to take everything I feel I'm worth before I leave the world. I am an engine powered by hate, fear, and when that won't get me out of bed, greed and that works just fucking fine.

Good to know?

Rather pointless telling me so, to be frank.

[Des-Bal]

Good to know?

Rather pointless telling me so, to be frank.

Solidarity, if hating non-existence is your rock then hang onto it.

[Blasveck]

I'm willing to take it. I hate the thought of non-existence. But some days, well.....

I won't go into detail.

Well, you're not going around saying "Hey guys, look at me, my life has problems and shit. But I won't listen to your suggestions for how I can make it better." That's a pity party. Saying "Guys, I have some issues that I'd like to talk about, and any advice you could give would be greatly appreciated." is most definitely not a pity party.

I've had my issues with suicide, too. But the people here helped me through it.

Sounds like somebody......

And that's good to hear Gren.

[Mavorpen]

Holy shit, apparently you can flood an entire map in BF4 during the match.

[Bodobol]

It's 'crazy' in Yiddish, correct?

Yeah.... any Jews in the band?

Don't think so, they're a Swedish band.

[The Scientific States]

I'm willing to take it. I hate the thought of non-existence. But some days, well.....

I won't go into detail.

Well, you're not going around saying "Hey guys, look at me, my life has problems and shit. But I won't listen to your suggestions for how I can make it better." That's a pity party. Saying "Guys, I have some issues that I'd like to talk about, and any advice you could give would be greatly appreciated." is most definitely not a pity party.

I've had my issues with suicide, too. But the people here helped me through it.

That's good to hear. I'm glad you're better Gren.

[Menassa]

Yeah.... any Jews in the band?

Don't think so, they're a Swedish band.

Odd.

[Uieurnthlaal]

All this talk of depression and suicide is really dispiriting me right now. Let me cheer you all up with a light and playful song.

[Grenartia]

Well, you're not going around saying "Hey guys, look at me, my life has problems and shit. But I won't listen to your suggestions for how I can make it better." That's a pity party. Saying "Guys, I have some issues that I'd like to talk about, and any advice you could give would be greatly appreciated." is most definitely not a pity party.

I've had my issues with suicide, too. But the people here helped me through it.

Sounds like somebody......

And that's good to hear Gren.

I wasn't trying to reference anybody in particular.

Indeed. This place can be a good support group.

[Aeken]

All this talk of depression and suicide is really dispiriting me right now. Let me cheer you all up with a light and playful song.

(Image)

The expression gave me a smile.

[New haven america]

Checked the website for the local Teakwondo studio, the guy seems pretty strict, but a really good teacher at the same time.

[Aeken]

Checked the website for the local Teakwondo studio, the guy seems pretty strict, but a really good teacher at the same time.

Going to join?

[Blasveck]

All this talk of depression and suicide is really dispiriting me right now. Let me cheer you all up with a light and playful song.

(Image)

I chuckled.

[Soldati Senza Confini]

Well, you're not going around saying "Hey guys, look at me, my life has problems and shit. But I won't listen to your suggestions for how I can make it better." That's a pity party. Saying "Guys, I have some issues that I'd like to talk about, and any advice you could give would be greatly appreciated." is most definitely not a pity party.

I've had my issues with suicide, too. But the people here helped me through it.

Sounds like somebody......

And that's good to hear Gren.

One of my "friends" is like that.

It doesn't matter what I do or what I say she keeps bringing up bullshit excuses, and then complains why she's alone and why her life sucks. And to be fair she has pushed everyone away, the only reason I still keep in touch with her after all the grief she has given me is because I know she needs help.

I'm getting tired of bearing the burden to be honest.