I can offer an olive branch by saying that to me, the Feast of the Holy Innocents has always had a particularly painful story behind it for me, because these were tiny children and babies that were martyrs killed by King Herod. However, we remember these child martyrs, and many child martyrs, because we believe that God is glorified even in His smallest children. As St. Paul writes in Romans, where sin is plentiful, grace abounds.
I would suggest that you maybe read more about the child-saints enthroned in the Church, and ask them to pray for you. That God may grant you the gifts of the Spirit, so they might lead you to understand better how a life of faith should be lived.










