Nah, I haven't lost interest completely, but it still threw me off balance, since I was unsure which role to fill out now and whether I could fall in love with them a second time. Also, since character-wise we seem to be somewhat similar, it was what has made me question myself the most. Previously I had done it, too, but only for a short time. Now it seems to be staying and not going away.
Replevion wrote:Jute wrote:Last night the "am I deluding myself" thing came up again, darn. It's kind of awkward and a bit embarrassing, because it was essentially "how do I know whether I really identify more as female because I truly feel like one (at least, a lot of the times) or just because a favorite fictional character, who I relate to much, is female?" Made me feel a bit like a fraud.
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The fact that I can look at these motivators square in the face does not lessen let alone negate the fact that I've felt female and wanted to live as a woman nearly my entire life. It also doesn't change anything about the fact that after transition, living full time and HRT I feel completely aligned now mentally and emotionally with my identity and expression and I'd rather die than go back. Indeed I'd say fundamentally, if transition fulfills a person and categorically makes their life better, what business is it of anybody "why" they transitioned?
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I agree, though this is specifically the reason I'm not seriously considering any drastic changes (hormons or anything) at the moment. Namely, I can't really say whether or not it would actually make me feel happier. I actually don't really have much against my body, just feel that my mind and the way I feel about myself are unaligned with it, so more invasive procedures would be of questionable benefit for me, at the moment at least. I'll try to, like I said before, come across as more androgynous instead.
Also, just found this interesting quote here:
Really, I didn't know thatAt one point, women were thought to lack a man’s sensitivity to truly appreciate a sunset or write poetry.
Nowadays it seems to be the opposite.Dyakovo wrote:Grenartia wrote:
Why not start now? Why can't we protect both at once?
Right now, trans equality is at about the same place that gay equality was in the 90s. Which is sad, really. And as we all know, justice delayed is justice denied. Love can't wait, but neither can trans peoples' bladders.
Eh... I wouldn't say it's "sad"... Definitely unfortunate for people who are trans, but a factor in acceptance is understanding and it is generally easier to understand homosexual attraction than it is gender identity.
We just need a good analogy to it, it shouldn't be that foreign of a concept
Dumb Ideologies wrote:Jute wrote:My parents are apparently much more understanding of gender issues than I thought they would be, yayFather at least still considers homosexuality "unnatural", but as someone with libertarian beliefs he'd tolerate it. And they said they never tried to enforce gender roles on me and understand that people are different. That makes me wonder where I acquired my own beliefs over what things are "for girls" and not fitting for me... School? TV?
Thanks for the reply! Interesting, I can relate to the second point, though I also had male role models, so maybe that's why it's so mixed for me. As for the third point, I absolutely did that, but unfortunately circumstances have changed
I ended up transgender mainly due to social alienation, porn, and the presence of a shared wardrobe in my room, so....
One of the things that really started this was how almost every time a study was reported and it said something like "men usually behave like this and that, and women differently" I often ended up finding out that my behavior mirrors the female one
So put an NSFW note next to the link to the WIki article on masochism.