NationStates' Transgender Thread

[Nanatsu no Tsuki]

I know I'm certainly never going to match up.

As long as you get to a point where you feel comfortable, I'm sure it's ok. Do you. There are some ciswomen that can say the same, about not ''matching up''.

[Schwere Panzer Abieltung 502]

Man, I do love styling my hair.

[Nanatsu no Tsuki]

Man, I do love styling my hair.

You, yes, I need someone like you to gimme a virtual kick in the butt so that I move my ass and finally dye my hair. The hair dye is languishing in my bathroom, playing mournful tunes on it's violin.

[Schwere Panzer Abieltung 502]

Man, I do love styling my hair.

You, yes, I need someone like you to gimme a virtual kick in the butt so that I move my ass and finally dye my hair. The hair dye is languishing in my bathroom, playing mournful tunes on it's violin.

For every minute you don't dye your hair, I go without one extra Cheerio in my cereal. 1 strand = 1 cheerio

[Nanatsu no Tsuki]

You, yes, I need someone like you to gimme a virtual kick in the butt so that I move my ass and finally dye my hair. The hair dye is languishing in my bathroom, playing mournful tunes on it's violin.

For every minute you don't dye your hair, I go without one extra Cheerio in my cereal. 1 strand = 1 cheerio

My feels. I will do the dyeing tomorrow. It's just and necessary. ^_^ And I don't want you to miss on eating your Cheerios. ;3

[The Serbian Empire]

You're some 60 pounds from overweight.

If I stat putting on weight I won't be able to stop

I know that weight gain can be controlled. The thing is calories in versus calories out. If you find what you need to maintain weight in your underweight state and add some 300 calories to your intake... you should level off at a healthy weight.

[Val Halla]

If I stat putting on weight I won't be able to stop

I know that weight gain can be controlled. The thing is calories in versus calories out. If you find what you need to maintain weight in your underweight state and add some 300 calories to your intake... you should level off at a healthy weight.

I have little to no control over my diet

[Schwere Panzer Abieltung 502]

For every minute you don't dye your hair, I go without one extra Cheerio in my cereal. 1 strand = 1 cheerio

My feels. I will do the dyeing tomorrow. It's just and necessary. ^_^ And I don't want you to miss on eating your Cheerios. ;3

What color did you say you are dying it?

[Nanatsu no Tsuki]

My feels. I will do the dyeing tomorrow. It's just and necessary. ^_^ And I don't want you to miss on eating your Cheerios. ;3

What color did you say you are dying it?

Blue black.

[Schwere Panzer Abieltung 502]

What color did you say you are dying it?

Blue black.

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[The Serbian Empire]

I know that weight gain can be controlled. The thing is calories in versus calories out. If you find what you need to maintain weight in your underweight state and add some 300 calories to your intake... you should level off at a healthy weight.

I have little to no control over my diet

You won't be under their control forever, Callie.

[Val Halla]

I have little to no control over my diet

You won't be under their control forever, Callie.

I am for the next two years, and there is a good chance that I only have 5 before my heart gives in.

[Nanatsu no Tsuki]

Blue black.

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Just a smidge darker.

[The Serbian Empire]

You won't be under their control forever, Callie.

I am for the next two years, and there is a good chance that I only have 5 before my heart gives in.

They also gave similar warnings about Carroll Shelby's heart which made him retire from racing back in the 1950s. Just to for him to live to the ripe old age of 89.

[Val Halla]

I am for the next two years, and there is a good chance that I only have 5 before my heart gives in.

They also gave similar warnings about Carroll Shelby's heart which made him retire from racing back in the 1950s. Just to for him to live to the ripe old age of 89.

Carroll Shelby was a very different person to me, and he had medication

[The Serbian Empire]

They also gave similar warnings about Carroll Shelby's heart which made him retire from racing back in the 1950s. Just to for him to live to the ripe old age of 89.

Carroll Shelby was a very different person to me, and he had medication

There's a lot of differences though... you also live in a time where medication and treatment are a lot better than they were back then. The big headache however is the NHS.

[Val Halla]

Carroll Shelby was a very different person to me, and he had medication

There's a lot of differences though... you also live in a time where medication and treatment are a lot better than they were back then. The big headache however is the NHS.

The NHS is a dying beast.

[The Serbian Empire]

There's a lot of differences though... you also live in a time where medication and treatment are a lot better than they were back then. The big headache however is the NHS.

The NHS is a dying beast.

If it's not dying... it is eternally bureaucratic.

[Val Halla]

The NHS is a dying beast.

If it's not dying... it is eternally bureaucratic.

Just look at the news. It will die before I get there.

[The Serbian Empire]

If it's not dying... it is eternally bureaucratic.

Just look at the news. It will die before I get there.

The odds are that NATO disbands before that. It's like the third rail of politics. Just like American Social Security.

[Nature-Spirits]

Your identity is that of a girl, so you're a girl, even if you don't live as one. Because if you're not a girl, then what are you? A man? I don't think so. I mean, if you're a man, I'm a man, and I am most decidedly not a man.

You live as how you feel. I live as how I was born. And I'm not an adult either

Wrong. I live as a man. I'm open about my sexual orientation, and I'm open about certain aspects of my gender expression, but my gender identity is known to very few people. Living as a feminine gay man is not the same as living as the genderfluid person that I am.

And I'm not an adult either, technically. I'm still 17.

Something that occurs even in women when they're 20 pounds underweight. Trust me, you need a bit more body mass to make yourself look more feminine.

I don't want to get over weight

What have I told you about that? You're not gonna get fat. I used to have issues with my body, too (issues unrelated to dysphoria, that is). I thought I was fat. I counted my calories with an app. It was all bullshit. I was never in danger of becoming overweight. Neither are you.

Man, I do love styling my hair.

Me too. I'm trying to grow my hair out to elbow-length so I can do more stuff with it (and also because I just like having long hair -- except for the times when I want to cut it all off, anyways), but I recently figured out that most of the hair products I use have sulfates and/or parabens in them, which damage hair. Dx I never did like the way that shampoo made my hair feel....

I know that weight gain can be controlled. The thing is calories in versus calories out. If you find what you need to maintain weight in your underweight state and add some 300 calories to your intake... you should level off at a healthy weight.

I have little to no control over my diet

Well, you could eat. I understand that you often don't feel like eating, but for god's sake, you're starving yourself. That's not healthy.

[Fabulous Rainicorns]

I had something odd happen today, but it worked out well. I went to the store to pick up some things for dinner and a tube of glue I needed. The person at the register initially said sir then corrected herself, and then apologized a million times, which was super awkward. Then she told me I wasn't old enough to buy my glue but let me buy it anyway because she felt so bad about "misgendering" me.

[Cyrisnia]

I had something odd happen today, but it worked out well. I went to the store to pick up some things for dinner and a tube of glue I needed. The person at the register initially said sir then corrected herself, and then apologized a million times, which was super awkward. Then she told me I wasn't old enough to buy my glue but let me buy it anyway because she felt so bad about "misgendering" me.

How the fuck are you too young to buy glue?

[Olthar]

I had something odd happen today, but it worked out well. I went to the store to pick up some things for dinner and a tube of glue I needed. The person at the register initially said sir then corrected herself, and then apologized a million times, which was super awkward. Then she told me I wasn't old enough to buy my glue but let me buy it anyway because she felt so bad about "misgendering" me.

Why in the world is there an age restriction on glue?

[Nature-Spirits]

Okay.

What.

The.

Fuck.

I thought my mom was starting to understand. She's been calling me her child instead of her son, she respects that I have a more feminine gender expression, she lets me have women's clothing.

But tonight, while we were watching Sense8 (great show, by the way), which of course has a character who's a trans woman, she asked me, "Do you want to be a girl?"

I paused what I was doing. I glanced away as I said, "No." It's true, after all: I don't identify as female, and I don't want to transition to a fully female role.

"So you feel okay?" she asked. "So you're okay being and living as a boy?" was the implication.

"No," I said again. That, too, is true: I've been feeling really dysphoric lately, and the need to transition weighs me down every day. There are days when I don't even want to go out the door, because not only is high school the most banal thing and its dullness just makes me depressed, but I feel like I can't be me, and I just want to lie down and cry and stay home and put on a skirt. More than that, though, I want to wear that skirt -- and anything else I want -- out into the world, and I want to be recognised as my true gender, and I want to hear people casually refer to me as "they", and I want to be able to use whatever bathroom I feel like, and I want to live as me.

Depression, anxiety, and dysphoria. What a joyous combination. I really do need to make another appointment with my shrink.

Anyway. I just.... I thought my mom was starting to understand. But I need to have a conversation with her about what I need to do. And you know what's ironic? Not too long after, she told me that I'm "courageous". I don't feel courageous. I guess it takes courage to live as a feminine man in a society where feminine men are scorned -- I've experienced the homophobia that comes with that, and it's hard to take. But I feel like a coward, because I'm too afraid to transition right away. I mean, I stand by my decision to wait until I graduate -- living as non-binary in high school would just be too difficult -- but it's because I've determined it's too difficult that I feel like a coward.

*sigh*