Ultimately I was forced to reject Christianity but was unwilling to let go of my belief in a god. For a while I was a deist until I realized that was little more than wishful thinking. I then became a fence sitting "Agnostic" until I realized that an Agnostic is simply an Atheist that understands that he could be wrong because belief and knowledge are two different things. At that point I realized that I was in fact an Atheist and began using the term.
I'm what is known as a Weak Atheist. I'm willing to listen to evidence that will justify believing in a deity. As a matter of fact I would be very happy if a kind, benevolent all powerful deity did exist and was watching over us. Unfortunately I've never been presented any compelling evidence that such a deity exists. There is more evidence that a malevolent deity exists than that a benevolent one exists and that concerns me a little.



