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Homosexy wrote:Went into the hospital today and had the worst PTSD of my life. Flashbacks and everything. It was terrible.

Oh dear. While I cannot imagine what it's like, it must have no doubt been a very tough experience for you.

However, I know you are able to recover, as your mind is like the might planet Earth. While you might suffer damage from time to time, you will recover - just like our blue and green planet. In time the forests of your tranquillity will grow back as the blight that ails begins to wither. The toxic fumes that cloud your mind will be filtered into the rich nutrients that will fuel your thoughts and creativity for years to come while the protective layers that safeguard your mental health from the twisted unknown will slowly restore themselves to serve their function once more.

And as you are planet Earth, we are Atlas. The mighty, the strong; carrying you in our strong arms when you are no longer to stand alone. Constantly present, reliable and determined to bear the burden of your entire world for as long as you need it. Think not it is a curse, for we commit ourselves to this task at our own behest. So during your times of hardships, pass your thoughts and concerns on to us. We shall bear them with much delight, knowing we are lifting your spirits.

Be the mighty Earth, Shellby.

Homosexy wrote:Went into the hospital today and had the worst PTSD of my life. Flashbacks and everything. It was terrible.

You are an incredibly strong, courageous woman, also very amazing, wonderful, sweet, kind, gentle and so many other things, you have the strength to get through it.

LOng Live Homosexy I hope that you are okay girl, we are all behind you.

Homosexy wrote:Went into the hospital today and had the worst PTSD of my life. Flashbacks and everything. It was terrible.

Wish I could say it gets easier...

But you can learn to deal with it. Not that that's easy, but it is possible. Find a quack you trust and take it from there. Heaven knows, it's been 12 years since I started dealing with m

Homosexy wrote:Went into the hospital today and had the worst PTSD of my life. Flashbacks and everything. It was terrible.

Wish I could say it gets easier...

But you can learn to deal with it. Not that that's easy, but it is possible. Find a quack you trust and take it from there. Heaven knows, it's been 12 years since I started dealing with my rape, but, if you believe nothing else I ever say, believe this: talking about it helps.

Esternial wrote:

Homosexy wrote:Went into the hospital today and had the worst PTSD of my life. Flashbacks and everything. It was terrible.

Oh dear. While I cannot imagine what it's like, it must have no doubt been a very tough experience for you.

However, I know you are able to recover, as your mind is like the might planet Earth. While you might suffer damage from time to time, you will recover - just like our blue and green planet. In time the forests of your tranquillity will grow back as the blight that ails begins to wither. The toxic fumes that cloud your mind will be filtered into the rich nutrients that will fuel your thoughts and creativity for years to come while the protective layers that safeguard your mental health from the twisted unknown will slowly restore themselves to serve their function once more.

And as you are planet Earth, we are Atlas. The mighty, the strong; carrying you in our strong arms when you are no longer to stand alone. Constantly present, reliable and determined to bear the burden of your entire world for as long as you need it. Think not it is a curse, for we commit ourselves to this task at our own behest. So during your times of hardships, pass your thoughts and concerns on to us. We shall bear them with much delight, knowing we are lifting your spirits.

Be the mighty Earth, Shellby.

I don't know where you just pulled that out of, but it was beautiful. <3 Thanks dude.

Maldorainia wrote:

Homosexy wrote:Went into the hospital today and had the worst PTSD of my life. Flashbacks and everything. It was terrible.

You are an incredibly strong, courageous woman, also very amazing, wonderful, sweet, kind, gentle and so many other things, you have the strength to get through it.

Thanks hon.

Reploid Productions wrote:

Homosexy wrote:Went into the hospital today and had the worst PTSD of my life. Flashbacks and everything. It was terrible.

*HUGS* Hang in there, you know we've got your back!

The Republic of Lanos wrote:

Homosexy wrote:Went into the hospital today and had the worst PTSD of my life. Flashbacks and everything. It was terrible.

Hang in there Shellby. You can do it.

Acro wrote:LOng Live Homosexy I hope that you are okay girl, we are all behind you.

Thank you guys! <3

Homosexy wrote:

Esternial wrote:Oh dear. While I cannot imagine what it's like, it must have no doubt been a very tough experience for you.

However, I know you are able to recover, as your mind is like the might planet Earth. While you might suffer damage from time to time, you will recover - just like our blue and green planet. In time the forests of your tranquillity will grow back as the blight that ails begins to wither. The toxic fumes that cloud your mind will be filtered into the rich nutrients that will fuel your thoughts and creativity for years to come while the protective layers that safeguard your mental health from the twisted unknown will slowly restore themselves to serve their function once more.

And as you are planet Earth, we are Atlas. The mighty, the strong; carrying you in our strong arms when you are no longer to stand alone. Constantly present, reliable and determined to bear the burden of your entire world for as long as you need it. Think not it is a curse, for we commit ourselves to this task at our own behest. So during your times of hardships, pass your thoughts and concerns on to us. We shall bear them with much delight, knowing we are lifting your spirits.

Be the mighty Earth, Shellby.

I don't know where you just pulled that out of, but it was beautiful. <3 Thanks dude.

I actually made that myself.

You're welcome, lass

Tratvia wrote:

Homosexy wrote:Went into the hospital today and had the worst PTSD of my life. Flashbacks and everything. It was terrible.

Wish I could say it gets easier...

But you can learn to deal with it. Not that that's easy, but it is possible. Find a quack you trust and take it from there. Heaven knows, it's been 12 years since I started dealing with my rape, but, if you believe nothing else I ever say, believe this: talking about it helps.

While I acknowledge that it isn't going to get easier on its own, I plan on forcing it to get easier, personally.

I always figured that talking about it would just make me feel bad, and while it does, if it's helping other people, I'm okay with it.

Homosexy wrote:I couldn't have said it better than these guys, so I'm not going to. I hope you feel better hon. <3

I am. Sometimes I feel like it's one step forward, two steps back, but really it's the other way around. I haven't had a chance to talk to anyone at uni, but I have gone by the appropriate offices. The train rides are going better since I '"have permission" to be a little weird. Also went by my doctor, but as far as we got was that I need a second appointment. I have that, and I know these things can move slowly, so I'm glad I got those wheels turning.

Homosexy wrote:Went into the hospital today and had the worst PTSD of my life. Flashbacks and everything. It was terrible.

So sorry that happened. I think Esternial nailed it.

The violence needs to stop. It just needs to stop. I don't know how we're going to do it, but we have to. This is... I just....

Homosexy wrote:The violence needs to stop. It just needs to stop. I don't know how we're going to do it, but we have to. This is... I just....

What happened?

Esternial wrote:

Homosexy wrote:The violence needs to stop. It just needs to stop. I don't know how we're going to do it, but we have to. This is... I just....

What happened?

I heard about the school shooting this morning and I am just so angry and it's awful. People are going crazy, raping people, shooting kids. Something has got to be done about this violence we are surrounded by.

It certainly does. I wish I had some magic solutions, but I don't. I've started to write I don't know how many posts, but I never post them because the more I write, the more I realise I can't even begin to understand how to make the problem better.

I think your plans of awareness campaigns are a fantastic start. I think the more people speak out, the more people will be less afraid to speak out. I think in the mean time we can be there for each other the better(I mean everyone who cares, not just rape victims or just women, but people that care about other people).

Hang in there and take care of yourself. I wish I had some better words, but I don't. Just remember, you will heal, it just takes time. Sometimes too long, and I haven't figured out a shortcut yet.

Homosexy wrote:Went into the hospital today and had the worst PTSD of my life. Flashbacks and everything. It was terrible.

This is late, I know, but you can do this. You can get through this. You're an inspiration to all of us here.

Homosexy wrote:The violence needs to stop. It just needs to stop. I don't know how we're going to do it, but we have to. This is... I just....

Well...it's unfortunately how the world works. Nobody knows how to stop violence. Laws are ineffective, education is sometimes ineffective...the only thing really is to inculcate the values that you were brought up with in everyone and we'll see a better world.

Also, sorry if I was overly specific in my answer. I didn't realise there'd been another shooting (end of finals week, not really up on news).

ThirdPrizeYoureFired wrote:Also, sorry if I was overly specific in my answer. I didn't realise there'd been another shooting (end of finals week, not really up on news).

No, no. It's all good. I wasn't just responding to the shooting.

Homosexy wrote:

ThirdPrizeYoureFired wrote:Also, sorry if I was overly specific in my answer. I didn't realise there'd been another shooting (end of finals week, not really up on news).

No, no. It's all good. I wasn't just responding to the shooting.

I'm starting on my lecture plan for the sexual consent and rape lectures I'm going to do in April. If anyone wants a copy of it for your own purposes, let me know.

Homosexy wrote:I'm starting on my lecture plan for the sexual consent and rape lectures I'm going to do in April. If anyone wants a copy of it for your own purposes, let me know.

Good luck with that, dear

Homosexy wrote:I'm starting on my lecture plan for the sexual consent and rape lectures I'm going to do in April. If anyone wants a copy of it for your own purposes, let me know.

Is it on a computer or something, I wouldn't mind taking a break writing to read.

Homosexy wrote:I'm starting on my lecture plan for the sexual consent and rape lectures I'm going to do in April. If anyone wants a copy of it for your own purposes, let me know.

Sweet. Good luck with that.

Homosexy wrote:I'm starting on my lecture plan for the sexual consent and rape lectures I'm going to do in April. If anyone wants a copy of it for your own purposes, let me know.

Good luck with the lectures, and with everything.

I don't know if this is relevant, but it might bear some thought and examination by government and others. At this time I am undecided on this, so don't take up disagreements with me please

I have a friend who was raped, and she told me the first time I met her. It was that blunt honesty that drew me to her as a person. I don't know whether she made a habit of telling people right off the bat, or whether it was just me, but it seemed to have helped her cope with it. I am very thankful that she told me like that, because it helped me connect to her emotionally and to connect to the atrocity of rape on an emotional level.

Also,

Homosexy wrote:While I acknowledge that it isn't going to get easier on its own, I plan on forcing it to get easier, personally.

I always figured that talking about it would just make me feel bad, and while it does, if it's helping other people, I'm okay with it.

You are an amazing, wonderful person, to think in this way