The Emerald Legion wrote:... Look your troll thread got shot down by mods
three times.
Your response? Hijack another.
We are having an interesting argument here... So shush.
Mods are self-important dicks, and it's a slightly interesting argument anyway. But, I admit, not as interesting as this one.
So yeah, back on the wagon with me.
Femnipotent wrote:Ashmoria wrote:did you read what i wrote.
she will still relate to them as men using her own societal programming. she is trying to get away from that to see what she is/how she would behave in a situation where there are no men to worry about in any way including her own ways.
its 6 months, not forever. she isnt going to set up a quebecois matriarchy.
So before I get sidetracked trying to catch up, I went shopping and attempted to use that 'filter' that I imagine Orthodox Jewish men using, you know except I was trying to use it on me.
Okay that was extremely difficult. First of all I found myself being hyper aware of every man that I walked by. I realised just how many I was surrounded by. That was awkward, so I focused first on the ground, then when that didn't work I looked to the side when I passed, and when that didn't work I tried to shift my attention to the women around me instead. At which point I became hyper aware of the way those women were dressed.
Our market is very small and cramped so avoiding men was not really an option. Going to have to figure out how to filter better. It was nerve-wracking.
It's reminiscent of the old philosophical conundrum in many ways -- quick! Don't think of an elephant!
Did you think of an elephant? Maybe. Quite probably.
Were you thinking of an elephant
before I told you not to? Pretty unlikely.
The problem is that the "filter" is subconscious. Sort of like all the filters that make it possible for us to live in cities in the first place, so that our senses aren't overwhelmed by all the sights and sounds and smells that assail us 24/7. Having lived in two of the world's biggest cities, each time I've found that I don't realise how much I filter my surroundings until I'm outside the city -- and the longer I spend away from it, the harder it is to acclimatize when I get back.